Had a good day

[wransomejr]

I had good days yesterday and today emotionally. I was feeling like myself again but still dealing with low energy and very irregular sleep.

The Independence Day picnic that we went to as a family was low-key and informal. The gentle rainfall all day kept the lakeside event from being as loud and chaotic as it usually is. The food and company were great.

We are back at our house in town, preparing for the long drive to Birmingham tomorrow where my father has an early doctor's appointment.

I found that I really didn't think about pills at all while I was at the party and the day before participating in water activities with my niece and her friend. But when I try to relax alone I start thinking about pills. I just realized this today. They are not intense cravings, more like habit, because I will start thinking that way and then tell myself "no!" and go on. But I think this is an undercurrent that will be with me a while or always.

Anyway...it was nice that my first big social outing turned out well. Thank you to all who have offered support. I am reading the various posts each day. Praying that I will be able to hold fast when something major happens.
-R.

[wransomejr]

I'm feeling a little more confident. It hasn't been that long and I am having some good days. This is day 11 (I think...I haven't been counting!) and I usually break down after the first week when physical symptoms improve but you still feel generally down and have little motivation. I don't know why this time seems different. Maybe because I was floating between several kinds of pills and often had a couple of days with nothing at all. I'm trying to be thankful for the good days and just deal with the not-so-good without complaining. Thanks!

[ariley13]

I am so glad that you are feeling a little better. And it sounds like this family gathering did you a world of good. You are doing great and have such a positive attitude. Keep up all of your hard work. Things will just keep getting better and better!