Day 3 hydrocodone detox

[TommyTom13]

Hi guys. Well... I'm on day 3... Again. I've been here before. Pretty much like clockwork for the last 10 months. Binge. Detox. Rinse. Repeat. I've used on and off for the last 5-7 years. Mostly norco 10/325. That was my drug of choice. God I loved those little bastards. Truth be told, I'd use pretty much whatever opiate pills I could get; vikes, percs, ltabs, codeine, cough syrup... You name it, I've probably eaten it for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I've had my share of bumps and bruises, breaks and fractures along the way... Including 2 open heart surgeries when I was 16. That's when I was introduced to prescription pain meds. 3 shots of dimmeral a day for 10 days, then I go home with nothing but a zipper on my chest and a get well balloon. That was the first time I'd ever detoxed. I had no idea why I was taking 10 Tylenol at a time, but I wasn't getting that buzz. Fast forward 10 years. Wisdom teeth have to come out. Here's something to help the dentist said. Call me if you need more. What a great fella I thought. Anyway, that was the start of a 5-7 year drug problem that I thought I had beat last year. I came clean to my wife, mother, best friends in February 2012. Stopped the pills c/t. It was rough at first, but it got better fast. Started loving life again. Started putting weight on. I was working out 3-5 times a week. Playing sports I loved better than I ever had. Then, 4 months to the day I quit the pills, I break my elbow and tear my labrum playing basketball. Sitting in the er I'm in intense pain. Still, I tell my wife, I don't want any drugs. Ill be fine. Doctor offers, I decline! Until the next morning anyway. I call the doctor, get my pills and the rest is history. 4 months of hard work down the drain. How could I have known one moment of weakness would turn into a 10 month free for all opiate holiday. Sorry for the length of the post. Just needed to vent. I know I can get clean again, I just have to commit to the process. Any kind words or positive thoughts would be great. The physical w/d is bad, but manageable. For me, the worst part is the emotional turmoil. I feel like I'm losing a best friend. Or a family member. Just very low right now. Thanks for reading and commenting. Looking forward to tomorrow...

[dap100]

Dont feel bad do what you got 2do.Sometime we rush things.Im proud of you for trying.You need those pills 2 heal.Take them the way you suppose 2 and you want get addicted.Before you do think about the people who have died all ready from  this.I have had 8 back surgeries,and a knee replacement.I have been on hydrocodone every since 2002 im not addicted.I kno that pain well make you wanna jump in a river.I pray to GOD all the time he helps me through it.keep up the good work you can do it.Keep the faith.

[TiredinTempe]

Ah..you must be my twin. Same thing with me. My first back surgery at 15. I was hospitalized for four months with pain injections in my Ars every four hours round the clock. Kicked outta the hospital with a script of something that was not even close to morphine. I was sooo sick. That is where it all started. Hang in there you will do it again. I am on day 6 myself off of Perc 10/325. God I love those little white pills too. My prob is I can call every month and pick up a script...that easy. I see the Doc every four months for an evaluation. She just punches in her iPad and listens to me breath and hands me a script. We have crossed the line and can never be normal again. Keep going you got this!

[BluCrystal]

Hi Tommy.  At the risk of sounding cheesy: try replacing that feeling of loss with a 'higher power'.  I have had problems, different from yours, but equally as devastating.  I use relaxation techniques (google that), meditation (googlr that too), I keep a long list of supporting people whom I can call at anytime for help when cravings hit or i just feel badly, I go to church every week, and my bible is never far from me.  I have found thr book of Psalms to be very comforting.  Blessings to you, Tommy, let me know how you do, or if I can help you in any other way - Blu