just pick yourself up and dust off and do it again. Maybe you should stay away from parties for a little while. Chances are if its there you will do it. keep trying though you can do it!
yo,,yea im not giving up anyways^^,i lasted 3months 2weeks or so,just i got drunk and had 2-3 lines but i felt crap so i stoped and got the f**k out of there,i hate the stuff now,i know ppl still going strong on it but ill never go back thats a fact!
I hope you hear what is being said here...your story sounds so similar to mine...I also had a lovely childhood & when I stopped raving I started using coke too much, also tied in to too much drinking...this ultimately led to heroin though & I had to turn to my parents for help. It broke their hearts.
It sounds as if you have become aware of the potential for a very deadly serious problem in the making & are doing something about it NOW. Congratulations on your 5 weeks, that was awesome. Well done on not ignoring your own warning signs.
I must be honest, I definately heaved a sigh of relief when I got to the part where you had stopped drinking for 5 weeks, and then the slip-up! OMG...I hope you are trying to stay sorted out again. Please please don't give up trying. Please don't run away if you are feeling down. There was so much positive interest in you, it was lovely to read.
Hope you are ok...tallullah
hey,,had a little slip up 2weeks ago): i did coke,not much but i still did it at a party,felt like f**ken crap for a week after it,good thing is i didnt go back to it,still a little down but ill start again lol
Glad to hear you are doing well!! We are supposed to hit the ball straight??? LOL
Good to hear from you. Golf huh, I love it. Yes it's hard to hit the ball straight sometimes, lol. Good luck with your last 2 exams.
hey dude.just came back to say still going great!2 exams in the bag and another 2 on the way next week,iv taken up golf on the weekends and also my m8 has started to get him self sorted aswell.Damn trying to hit the ball straight would drive u to drink but its great crac haha,^^
Glad to hear your doing well and still clean. I am happy for you:)
Hey,,just poped on to say im still going strong and i feel much much better^^
I am so ******* proud of you. 5 weeks is amazing off the blow. My first month was the hardest, but it does get easier as long as we keep our guard up and keep getting support. I find it tough sometimes still to not drink too, but the coke was the hardest thing I have ever beat, worse than going cold turkey from 320 mg of oxy a day, so much worse for me. Keep taking it one day at a time and stick to your studies and college, you have a great life ahead of you clean:) Congrats man and even though your busy, keep in touch when you can. Peace!
YO YO.Well im on my 5thweek clean!!yea staying away from beer is hard i must say,i enjoy just chillen haven a few beers.I dont stay out now just have 2-3beers and then it's home time,where as before it was stay out all night,i wount be on much now for the next couple of months cause i have electricale collage so lots to do,Cheers for the replys ppl,means a hell of a lot^^
Hello..
Cocaine addiction usually ruins your life before you hit rock bottom.. It Alcohol is a trigger, (even if you could resist once) .. then eventually the trigger will win.
As an addict, I avoid anything that triggers me to want to use Opiods. If I don't, there is little chance of me staying clean.
You don't have to drink to have a happy life. Often quite the opposite is true. I remember being where you are and someone telling me not to drink would have meant nothing.. I needed to spend 10 years addicted to drugs to reach a place where I was willing to do what it took..
We are all different..
you are going down a dangerous road .i would run as fast as I can in the other direction most of us started causal users only on the weekends a little here a little there and before we knew it it got out of hand plz dont go down the road we have and you have already started .... stick around
well going good!stayed in paddys day and m8 went an 18hr buzz):,im afraid tho i went out for a few beers over the weekend BUT i turned down coke,doesnt mean im gona start going out and getten hammerd at the week ends now.just i thought of this little chat and said NO,,very strange
Tomorrow will be tough for ya, so keep getting support here. Maybe you can talk to him and explain that you are trying to stay clean and don't need to be getting calls about doing coke. I know it's not easy and he's a friend, but your life is worth more than drugs. Let me know how your doing and glad your not going out tomorrow.
lol XD,a funny thing just happend like 20mins ago,got a text of a m8 saying he got some coke for Paddy's Day on wed,I now see ur point on changen friends is kinda a must,but how do u tell a m8 uv growen up with that u cant hang around with them anymore,,oh by the way i wount be going out paddy's day thats for sure,1 step at a time i supose
Right on buddy, glad you can relate, it helps me too, to hear your story, I still crave coke, but it's rare now. It's crazy how just a couple drinks can set it off, but it does. The damage coke does to the heart and nervous sysytem is sometime irreversible so stopping now is a great choice. It's not easy, but with some support and a couple changes it can be done. I created a few health pages here about coke, so if you ever want to look, go into the top right of this page and look in the health pages, you will see it. My coke cravings made me vomit sometimes and coke is different from most drugs, but you will beat this.
I do know what you mean, trust me. Now that we talked I will give you a kick in the *** if you mess up again haha. Congrats on taking the first step:)
P.S. I really really deserve a beer right now too, but that would be a horrible choice for me. BE TOUGH. I believe in you.
yea i know i can quit coke,im very sure of that cause iv stayed away from it weeks months even but that was only if i dont drink.iv come to relise that drink is my trigger and thats the thing that most worries me cause i i quit for a good while and then i feel like i deserve a beer or 2 and then it kicks off again,but i must say it feel flipen great when u stay of beer and crap,but i allways end up back at the starting line again if u know what i mean
P.S. Yes stay away from the pubs for awhile. Please
I can relate to all your saying. I refused to completely surrender and kept going out to bars with my buddies thinking it was ok and I would be strong. I am not telling you what to do here, just giving advice and what I went through. It took me close to 100 relapses before i got it right and realized I could not go to bars and had to change friends. The reason i made this choice was because I overdosed and had to have paremedics scrape me off the floor in the most agony ive ever felt before I surrendered to dope, dont' let your self get to this point, addiction is progressive.
You have taken a BIG step by posting today and talking bout this. Please don't toss your life away, your so young and drugs and booze are not the answer. Trust me, I know what your saying, but you will be happier without a false high. Cocaine is a very powerful drug and it will keep getting worse. Please think about this, im not preaching man, I just want to see you beat this and be happy. I started with just a half gram of coke a day, but by the end I was doing a half ball to a full ball each day and half ounze last time I used and almost died. Stop this now before it's too late. Be safe please, we are here to help:)
i didnt mean i started doing drugs in the late 90's there^^.i started around 03-04 when i left school as the rave scean was comen to an end,yea i feel so damn guilty when i wake up the the next morn after paying for crap!.Thank god for hangovers cause id be out every weekend only for them.it's just i had a brillent child hood and i could'nt stand to hurt my parents so i cant let this get any worse. i'v got a stint in collage for 4th phase electricle which will last for 3-4months and im gona try us that as a spring board to quitting drinkin cause i know i wount drink all the through it,Also the hardest part is all my m8's drink and i dont know how ill do sitting in a pub drinken orange or something,do i stay well away from pubs??.cheers for the replys it means alot^^
I was also addicted to coke years ago. Drinking wasnt a problem, but after using I would have to drink to come "down"...I don't have any real good advice for you, cept maybe stay away from drinking, you sound like you can do that. I never could, I had to quit it for good. im not a good "social" drinker...good luck & keep posting. This forum helped me greatly when I was trying to get off drugs!!
Boy do I know that feeling..When you have the urge to drink : Remember the Next day how bad you feel with $100 boogers up your nose? Good Luck!
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Welcome to the forum. You are 100% right, alcohol is a HUGE trigger for coke use. The times I had got clean from blow and was doing good, I thought it was ok to drink, but even after just a few drinks, those cocaine cravings hit so bad, I could not control it. I think you have learned that both go hand in hand it's it's time to quit drinking for good.
This is a great support group, so stick around and send me a message anytime you need. I am a cocaine addict, but clean now. I am glad you recognized this and now it's time to take the steps to keep ya clean:) Cocaine kills! Good luck man.