HeEeElp pleaseeeeeeeee

[michizzle]

I just did my last shot about 1 hour ago, I have one 8mg sub... i think it is about 3 days that I feel hideously bad when kicking.  Do you think I can break up this one pill and make it work? god I hope it is enough, I am tired of being a slave...puking all the time...isolation...bags under my eyes... so what do you think?

[worried878]

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call and find a meeting....it will be a God send...u need close support...go for it

[michizzle]

haiiii.... you are right... I don't know anyone here, it is raining, my car was stolen, I was then hit by a car while riding my bike... maybe in the daytime I will find one, but I am afraid I have somehow ended up living in cracker crack head land and I am too scared to go out alone at night... I am ok though... surprisingly I am just sitting here wondering when this is gonna wear off and the suffering begins... It is rather strange to not be sitting here in cold sweats, with skin that hurts, wishing for death to hurry up and come... sadly as I just wrote that last sentence, this is what my head said to me " well you can keep getting high if it is painless to kick"... how the **** did I get so messed up... and that thought is actually a lie because I have been feeling some what sick since I woke up, but all in all...taking half of that pill suboxone is really making the withdraw process pretty bearable....  anyway... I am sick of my thoughts... how are you?... whats your story?  tell me about you...thanks for  messaging me...you guys are my only cheerleaders... I am so grateful for all of you.

[worried878]

can u find a meeting near by?  it would help tremendously right now

[michizzle]

sooooOOOoo... I woke up at 2:30... which made it likeeeeeee...15  hours since my last shot... I took a small bite of the sub... and layed thereeee...and and and....i think I was more anxious in my head than actual physical responses...i took two more small bites of the pill and I am somewhat ok... If it wasnt working I wouldnt be sitting here typing... or smoking... I guess I am lucky that I got ripped off all the time... lol  :(... i am new to oregon... the only thing that has happened to me since I lived here is that I have been robbed a LOT... oh well...less to detox off of.... the guy I normally do dope with..came buy... I didnt say I stopped... I have been supporting  his habit since he could get me drugs... he gave me some dope..for the first time... I took it, he came when I was still anxious and scared... I am keeping it just in case... even though it wont effect me probably since I have taken the suboxone... **** i hate that I have made my life like this again.  k ima shut up :( ... thanks everyone  

[worried878]

may be a good thing that u only have 1 sub..can become another problem for some...u can make it ...u have enuf to do a few mgs each day..u may not feel completely ok but it will help..good luck and hang tight

[cattalina]

Just wanted to add... I came off about a 3gram/day dope habit and 24 hours after my last shot the sub made me sicker than a dog. After 36 hours I was golden tho. Everyone's different but just be careful cuz there's no point in wasting a section of pill if that's all you have. You really can do this - the detox and staying clean after. It's hard as hell to stay clean but it's worth it. I was a horrible junkie for a long time - I didn't think I could ever stay clean and neither did anyone who had ever met me. If I can do it you definitely can - trust me!! PM me if you need someone to talk to ok? Hang in there and keep moving forward - good luck!

[nottobright]

If I have my math right, it's been about 7 1/2 hours since your last shot, correct?  If that is the case, when you wake up....unless your still awake and reading this, your good to go w/ the sub.  Don't worry about the precip w/d's.  IF you get any, they last at most about an hour.  PM me if you need any more info.   stay strong....

[michizzle]

hi hey hai hello... I didnt go to sleep yet, I am finally getting tired... and cranky... thanks again for the support... everyone has had a different experience and different advice... all I know is i hope i nibble on that pill and it works well enough for me to get through the worst... oOOoOoOoook one more smoke and I am off to bed.. I hope I am starting to sweat when I wake up

[christos24]

yeah i have to give you accredidation for wanting to quit, to truly kick junk you got to actually want to stay fully off of it..the one 8mg suboxone pill could last realistically about 4-5 days, with a low habit it could last someone a weak, but im thinking just from the way it sounds yours it a little higher, dotell me if its not too serious of a hiabit as that will change all times etc., you can break the pill into four 2mg sections and if you need to tkae one every day.or every other day, the average half life is 37hrs. so even with a fast metabolism like myself its last for at least a day an a half, now you wont feel a buzz for that long maybe a minor one for 8-10 hrs, but the wd's will be decreasened by the sub..and thats what it should be taken for. i was on 32mgs the highest effetive dose of suboxone for over 8 mths had a relapse and then started at a methadone clinic, that worked for me and im still sboer today, but suboxone really does work quite well, but you have to want to stay off the stuff for anything to work, if you obviously had more suboxone i would say take 4mgs a day and i guess you could do taht and tkae it twice every other day and that would keep you in the clear for about 5-6 days, any way you go about it youll have some discomfort and probably want more...you def. need to be a moderate /heavy wd's before you touch the subs cuz oull go into way worse wd's if you take it too soon, horror stories i tell you, i would wait at least 24 hrs to take it and it will be the most effective and last the longest...best of luck,and if things get real bad or you have any questions come on the forum anytime-christos

[snowflake620]

good luck mich i will be prayin for you you can do it this time i have faith enough for both of us,stay the course girl.and post often to let us all know how you are doing.
       snowflake

[michizzle]

Hi and thank you everyone for your encouragement...
I will wait until I am in agony...
I am actually really excited...
It was not easy to come by this pill...
I am trying to get into a clinic..
I don't know if I need to, but I am ready to do something...
finally... about 3 weeks ago I quit ativan and heroin cold turkey and for like 8-10 days I was in agony... I thought if I suffered through it I would remember how bad it was and not get high...well the instant I was offered to get high I did... so here I go again... I have been a drug addict most of my life... more of it than not... anyway... thanks for taking the time to share... I need to have someone else's thoughts in my head... mine are trying to kill me... I guess I have like 6-10 more hours until I am in agony... I have spent the night cleaning up my pad, as I have become truly disgusting... needles everywhere, spoons, cotton, plastic, foil, trash, ... I figure I won't want to do **** once I am in withdraw ... Okay I will stfu and try to sleep maybe... I know once I stop I won't sleep for the next year...yay   lol **** alright i am off thanks again

[refusingbondage]

Yes Congrats on wanting freedom.  Its a hard struggle but well worth the lumps.  I just want to say please make sure you are in MODERATE withdrawal before you think about taking any of that suboxone.   Wait till you feel like REAL garbage.. not just a little garbage.. taking it too soon could send you into precipiated withdrawal which you really dont want.. When you start feeling really bad, take a little piece of the sub.. you will be surprised how little you need to feel better.  Good luck -- you can do this!

[ochooked]

Yes, the Sub will help.  Break it into very small pieces and only take one small crumb when you think you can't stand the W/D's ---- It will not bring you out of them but will make them less intense.   Keep posting and reading -- You can get through this - Yes, it really hurts but you can and must continue on the road to getting clean.  Believe me, we know how bad you feel right now -- it will soon get better.  Please stay with us.  All the best.

[snowflake620]

first I would like to congratulate you on wanting to quit it is the right choice,as for the sub I don't have any experience with it i went c/t from xanax,but there are a lot of people on here who will be able to help you with it but you need to remember everyone is different and what works for one may not always work for another,keep posting someone will be here soon with more information
                        snowflake