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Help needed! On day 4

I've never posted but have been reading for months. I'm on day 4 cold turkey from 30-45mg Percocet a day. Haven't had too bad symptoms but I feel like I'm carrying a 2 ton weight when I try to get up to do anything! Just hoping for some encouragement.
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Hi Bee.
It has been 13 days now. Wow! It should go by real fast  here.

As i mentioned a few times on here, we have Receptors in out Stomach too. Just like in the Brain and other parts. This is why we get the bathroom issues. As these receptors try to unplug or clear back up this will cause us to rid these poisons. Opiates plug us up big time by hitting those mu-receptor in the stomach and also what they do to the Brain..Time & Patience is what it takes.and you just have to go with it. I look at it, like it was ridding those toxins. We have to rid those toxins out and they will come out through the eyes, nose, skin and on & on. Just give it time and be Happy you are getting rids of these toxins.

The Energy and No-Low motivation is the last physically. The mental will wave in and out as your Brain chems  balance back.

Other then that, Look at YOU go! YOU should give yourself a Big Pat on the Back! YOU have come so so so much further. You go girl..Amen!
Bless
VIC
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Hi, Bee.....good for you on almost a month!!!

I'm not sure how much time off the pain meds you have given yourself in previous tries.....but the rebound pain DOES take awhile to level out. It can take more than a month for our natural endorphins to begin doing their job.

I'm in the same boat with ya....spinal fusion in 2011 also.  LOTS of pain still and have been on this journey with doors closing, one after another for a VERY LONG TIME...ughh!!!

Currently, I am taking liquid advil gel caps along with gabapentin.....and trying therapeutic massage with someone that KNOWS and UNDERSTANDS chronic pain patients.  I also am trying to be faithful with the stretching and exercises I have learned from my MANY PT therapists.
SPACE, MOVEMENT, and BLOOD FLOW......those are critical for us.

If massage doesn't work, I will try acupuncture next, and if that doesn't work, I will consider a stimulator implant.  I understand NOT being functional....and living in pain every day.  We must stay determined to find what works....and some days that seems IMPOSSIBLE.  I'm rooting for you and very proud of you~  
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Hey all. Almost a month for me(11/5/15). Haven't posted for a while. Still having horrific pain in my back, hip, tailbone (pain from a failed spinal fusion in 2011). Also terrible pain in my right knee from bursitis. But I have stood strong against the Percocet!!!!! Thank God for ice packs!!! This pain as it is is absolutely debilitating. Can't do much of anything! But I won't cave!!! My husband is still being very supportive. Anyone who can give me any help with pain control without narcs would be great!! God bless.
BEE
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Well my husband has apologized and has been wonderful. I went to my meeting tonight. I shared about my pain returning and got lots of empathy and support. So I really am feeling somewhat better. Still trying to figure out how to deal with the constant pain. I'm due for an RFA treatment at my next appointment with my pain management doc. I know I will get some relief then. I plan to tell my doc I am not taking the pills because I want to see how much relief I'm actually getting from these treatments. So I guess I'll just wait and see. Thanks to all who respond. God Bless
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Thanks so much MsD and VIC, my 2 most favorite cheerleaders!!! So I'm not crazy per se, just a crazy addict trying to stay clean as normal life goes on around her!! Man this is sooo hard. My other problem is that my pain has returned with a vengeance!!! I had 5 vertebrae fused back in 2011. One of the screws has come loose from the rod and is resting on my sciatic nerve. I haven't had this kind of pain since that surgery. I have cortisone injections every 2 months and then the next month I have a Radio Frequency Ablation done. These help but right now I am really suffering!!!! How do those people like me handle the pain without medication? Help me out. And my husband who said he would support me has pretty much turned away. No help at all!! We even got news today that we would be getting a substantial amount of money per month and I got nothing from him!! Not happy or excited or grateful or anything!! Struggling!!!
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Yep! You just experienced, one out of many Triggers that can happen. This is why Changes have to be made and Boundaries have to be set up.

You have come to darn far to look back now!
Proud for YOU!

Bless
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Bee, I could sniff out a Percocet from beneath a pile of dog cocky. This is what they mean when they say "addiction is for life". Its only two weeks for you. Addiction is a mental battle that you must resolve to win. The enemy is never far. As time goes on, you learn to walk around the dog cocky instead of straight into it. Eventually, you learn how to walk down another block.  Its ok. Stay focused. Eyes on the prize.
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So you guys remember the fiasco with my sister right? Well I drove her to Kroger to pick up some groceries today. I dropped her off and waited in my car for her. So I see her coming out and I drive up to get her. She opens the front door and throws a prescription bag on the seat (WHAAATTTT??!!) and then goes to put her groceries in the trunk. I got this crazy feeling throughout my whole body; kinda like it was vibrating!! I jumped, well maybe not JUMPED, but very quickly got out of the car and proceeded to STERNLY, well maybe not sternly but emphatically asked her (maybe TOLD her) to get that Percocet off of my front seat!! She started laughing again! So I knew something was up. She told me the prescription was for omeprazole, her stomach medicine!! She said she knows she can never put any narcotics any where near me, not even close enough that I can smell them!! Well I have to say that I was pretty good at seeing and finding them, but I have to say I was never able to "sniff any out!!!" But seriously, what worries me is that vibrating "rush" feeling I had just from seeing the prescription bag!! I don't know, maybe medicine bottles/prescription bags are triggers? Any thoughts? Comments? Am I CRAZY??!! Thoughts and comments on that also welcome.  ;0)
BEE
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Day 13!!!!!  Still having bathroom issues. But my GI doctor said that the obstruction from last month has caused a serious flare up of my irritable bowel syndrome and colitis. So I think my stomach is giving me the double whammy!!   :o/   Still eating pretty much bland food. How do you not think of "the pills" when there is so much pain? Tylenol doesn't do much and I can't take any NSAIDS, like Ibuprofen, Aleve, Aspirin. None of that!!! Right now I am laying in bed with the heating pad on my stomach and ice on my back!! Listening to this freight train I sleep with every night!!! LOL for 39 years!!! Anyway I'm still struggling with the energy/desire to do anything!! I'm making myself do things every day but boy is it ever hard!  All of these other health issues definitely don't help any. But my GUARD IS UP, and just trying to take it one day at a time. Thank you all for listening and caring!! BEE
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You haven't lost your sense of humor, Bee!  That will help A LOT!!   Remeber, you have opiate receptors in your gut and they are in shock right now.  They will regulate the longer you're off opiates.  Congrats on Day 13!!  Woohoo YOU
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Processing your emotions about the whole deal at your sisters is important, but don't spend too much time reading the old chapter(s) of your life because it will prevent you from writing this NEW chapter!!

I don't know what day you're on, but let us know how you're feeling TODAY, ok?  You are turning stumbling blocks into stepping stones....and that's IMPORTANT!!  Let us hear from you when can~
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Hey girl. You have absolutely no reason to feel guilt or shame. This seriously could be any one of us, new or with lots of time. But when you are new, it is very hard to resist the temptation to snoop. The main and most important thing is that you are back on the boat. Each mistake we make in life is positive because is a learning experience. Your are making tremendous changes and unfortunately it doesn't happen overnight. Keep moving ahead and looking forward and never look back. Today you are clean. Focus on that, sleep, repeat. It will get better soon. I will leave you with my favorite quote by IBK, "One is too many, and 1000 is never enough"    Love and blessings, Msd
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Hey MsD. Feeling a little down today. Even though my episode with my sister turned out to be very beneficial, lesson learned, that same old shame factor finds it's way back. But at least I understand that there is no reason to feel ashamed. It will pass. For some reason I think the trigger was just looking in her medicine cabinet and seeing prescription bottles. That sounds stupid but I remember the "rush" feeling. I just need to keep my nose out of everyone's business!!!! Still having lots of "bathroom" issues but as you recommend I am drinking drinking drinking. Mostly Gatorade and cranapple juice. I'm a weird one. I have a hard time swallowing water. But I think I'm fine with what I'm drinking. Thanks for caring and having my back. Love, Deb
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Hi Bee! Good to hear from you girl! Keep moving forward and don't look back. Please keep posting. You have a lot of good experience to share and of course we want to continue supporting you too. You are a good brave girl .  I've been a little busy here but I'll be around more soon. Guard up. Love, MsD
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AMEN!! No looking back now!! Looking forward to a crystal clear future!!! I'm just so relieved!!! Thanks for responding. I can use all the encouragement I can get. I went to my meeting and confessed all. Everyone was very supportive but also cautioned me to be careful!! As my MsD says,"GUARD UP!!"  I really want this!! My appointment with pain management isn't till November 16th. I'm working on that. Thanks so much for helping me. You have no idea how much it means.
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That was a good one. You are blessed to have a good Sis for Support.
YOU go girl and just keep it up..NO looking back now!

Bless U and Your Family!
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Hey all. Well I talked to my sister and told her everything. She started laughing so hard!! I couldn't figure out why she thought it was so funny!! She said to me, "That was genericTylenol in that bottle! Trust me, my pills are someplace you will never be able to get ahold of them. So you are good to go. Learn from this, Deb. I love you and I want you to get healthy." I was SOOO relieved!! And yes I certainly did learn from this!! But I have to say that looking back on it, I didn't feel anything when I took her pills. I just figured I couldn't feel because of my high tolerance. So thankfully I don't have to go back to day one. Thanks Bella and my guardian angel, MsD for caring!! I will keep posting and reading.
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Hey Bee....Are you around? Are you okay? Thinking of you and hope you keep coming back for support!  You can do this and keep moving forward!
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Hi MsBee.  Oh no girl! What was the trigger? Is it that you knew they were there?? Well honey I whole heartedly agree with Bella. You must tell your sister everything about your flushing party, detox and stealing. She has to keep these pills hidden from you. And tell everyone else you associate with who may have pills the same. Have you spoken to pain management about canceling you scripts yet? How will you feel telling this at the meeting? And after all of that,  you are right back where you were.Detox day one. Don't you see how pointless that was? So no judgment, still love ya,, just want you back on the boat lol. Your secrets will keep you sick. Guard up. This is your captain speaking.
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Hi Stung....I am new to the forum and just read all of your thread. I don't yet feel like the right person to give advice but I do want to send you my love for your struggles.

If you read your last couple posts...can you remember how good you felt? Okay. So this is Day #1. I honestly don't know what NA or others would say but my first thought would be....If you didn't swallow them all flush them. Come clean to your sister! Hold yourself accountable. And then forgive yourself and start Day 1. All we have is now. Learn from your mistake and rememver how lousy you felt in withdrawals. Get to a meeting. Don't let this be the reason you go back to regular using.

Now maybe someone with more experience or wisdom will correct me or give better words. We are here!! I think you need to admit what you did in order to not to it agsin. And it was a big step to admit it here!!!
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WELL, I messed up! So embarrassed and ashamed!! I was having terrible cravings and no energy. Went to my sister's house and she had some Percocet in her bathroom. I took 10 of them from the bottle and have taken them all. So today is day one, again, of cold turkey. I thought I was good to go. I had energy, no cravings and going to meetings. Is this PAWS?  I feel so stupid!! I flushed 100 Percocet and end up stealing from my sister!! SOOOO STUPID!!!!!
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Hey all. Went to my home NA meeting on Friday and it was great!! I got a standing ovation for flushing my pills!! Crazy!!!  :•}   Also got to spend Saturday with my granddaughters. There is no place better to be than in the company of children. They show you what life is all about without even knowing it!!! Have a good football Sunday!!! God Bless.
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Hi Stungbytheee!
Thanks for the update! Sounds like YOU are just ticking away with the time.

I am so happy for YOU & how much you have done to get here. I just love to follow these up lifting post's.

Be Safe and always keep your Guard Up! (((Hugs)))!

Bless U Too!
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Hey Gnarly, thanks so much for your encouraging words. I notice that you are a frequent responder; I hope to be able to be like that someday. I'm sure once I get more time under my belt I'll feel more confident to do so. Sleep is still an issue. I got 2 hours in so far tonight!  :-/   So I'm off to try to get some more. I will check back in, hopefully closer to sunrise!
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Hi....well I have been following your story for a wile now and your off to a great start  im so sorry to here there is fowl language at the meetings around you   you may want to speak to the chair person's it is up to them to keep it civilized any way keep pushing the meetings  with time you will lose the desire to use   as for the dreams I got them in tec/na/color  they to will come to pass   just keep doing what your doing  try to eat well  lean protein baked or grilled no red meat keep posting for support...............................Gnarly
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