I have been taking between 3-5 10 mg hydrocodone every day, nasally, for the last couple of months. I quit once before with suboxone. Second time trying with suboxone was a fail. It made me sick. Felt horrible, vomited, just all around bad. So I went back to using the pain pills. They make me feel normal. Not high really, just no anxiety, depression, gave me a bit of energy and I feel like I can function, get things done. Here is my situation now. I have one left, being honest, it will bring me up to 45 mg done today when it's gone. This time around I haven't done more than 5 in a day.
I want to stop. I need to stop. I am broke, but here is what I have on hand.
1 unopened box of Imodium Multi Symptome, 2mg (18 pills)
1 bottle of L-Tyrosine 500mg
1 bottle of Potassium Gluconate 550mg
4 Nuerontin 400 mg
What will be my best bet to ease WD? The absolute worst part for me is the anxiety. My brain runs a million miles an hour, feel impending doom, scared to death. I have no klonopin, xanax, nothing like that. If I could ease the anxiety I think I could make it. Suggestions? Please help. This is ruining my relationship, my finances. I need to get clean. My brain is my worst enemy. It may sound strange but the opiates calm me and give me energy at the same time. I love them. I won't lie. But this needs to stop. Any help will be taken to heart. Thank you all.
Oh also. Anyone hear of nuerontin helping with "pill sickness", wd? I have talked to a few who swear it works. But I only have 4 I was "gifted."