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Here we go again....Dropping lortabs again..Sam the bll

So I totally came off Lortabs in July.  Well refilled and back to where I started.  Of course I took more than the norm over the holiday, why not or why, right....came down with terrible cold 3am last night going CT...Usually would have took some this morning and for sure coming up this evening.....not gonna do it.  Maybe God made this cold come on for reason.  
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Addiction... Recovery is hard. It is full..relaps and getting up and shaking the dust off oneself and then starting again. If you are coming back to the firtst second third relaps. Its ok.your here and back on track again. I am an addict that knows i can relaps at anytime. And relaps is part of the process. This a lifetime disease. So please dont spend all.your energy on getting upset and guilty. It wastes your prescious energy. Instead try to look at why you used. And when you get down to.to.root of the reason. Take actions to change fix solve that problem. We start living for tomorrow today. Thats what i think.  Sending peace love strength.
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Im coming back for the second time also and felthorrible and ashamed but, i feel the love and support and i learn sooo much. I am here for you also....keep up the good work!
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Happy New Year! Hows the taper going? Saying prayers for you.
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495284 tn?1333894042
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I am really glad you came back Sam.  Now we can get down to business!!

Take care of your cold right now.  Once you feel better it will be easier to see the light at the end of the tunnel~~
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Dang you guys are awesome thank you really I decided to taper down last night took 5mgs less this cold is bad.  Woke up in sweats popped some benedryl and finally got some rest.  I was so mad yesterday however certain people don't have a clue of my life... Appreciate you all that stuck with me going to taper now.....Based on my calculations that's about six weeks or less.  One main thing always use only at night during week and on weekends morning and night no more use twice during ths weekend.  I am off however I just can't do CT with the crap going on at home however less is better than more....Thsnk all of you for posting after I imploded ;0)....It's odd how holidays trigger use I do better working.  This cold is bad my gosh....Will keep ya posted and again thank u really.  My withdrawals were not too bad last time however I picked the crap up tks to alot of crap more crap than pain disappointed in myself for this however my number 1 resolution is get off and 2 is getting my marriage back on track it has been off the tracks since May....

I got 17.5mg's left to go.....it will go soon in 2012...

Sam
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Hey Sam, Was just wondering how you were. So glad your back in the game. Stay positive. This is a new year, your ready for recovery. Stay hydrated for your cold and do all the things you already know for the WD. Wean if it will keep you on track better. Whatever it takes. I have faith it you.
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We are very proud of you that you are trying again.
It takes a lot of courage to come back and ask for help again.
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495284 tn?1333894042
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Get your butt back on here my friend and start talking to us................
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Sam, please do not leave over that absolutely inappropriate and just plain rude comment. It is simply HIM and HIS opinion. You have every right to be here. This is not HIS forum. Ignore it and stick around.

How are you feeling?
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Sam:  Come back. You're not a bother at all.

We know relapse happens and we understand why....

It takes a some big meatballs to come back to the forum and ask for a little support; we know that too!
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Gnarly never ever run out of pills early have never said that either.  I understand and appreciate your wisdom and thoughts never the less..

I will not post again if you think I am not bothered by a second time you cannot read.  Just cause I did not poor my heart out that means I don't feel guilty and bad for what I have done ya sure peace out bro.......I posted cause you guys helped and acknowledged that along the way.  Sorry if I have offended or distracted I can tell you are giving me a good azz whipping....
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Sam, you know you have to do it this time around. that means getting rid of the pills, canceling refills, informing doctor, losing ties to any using "friends"...whatever it takes.

Please don't use this cold as an excuse. And please don't use the word "can't". You CAN. We will be here for you and support you in whatever you need. The only thing we can't do is get you started. That YOU have to do.

No time like the present they say. How about a "flushing party"??????

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Refilled pills IB.....pretty sure its cold tonight it will be cold and WD's....Still have pills am getting off Soma, Lyrica and Lortab.....I know flushing is the only way however cannot do that at this point....I am having a pity party right now and sneezing my head off withdrawals starting :0(
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Hi & Welcome back! I sure wish it was under better circumstances but I am glad to see you got humble and posted. That is a step in the right direction.

I was thinking the same thing as bama---do you think it is a cold or withdrawal? I ask because opiates "retard" (for lack of a better term on my part) our respiratory system. With each of my detoxes I had a cold or bronchitis or a sinus infection, etc. It was hard to tell which was which.

Whatever it is be sure to take care of yourself and stay hydrated. Make sure that you get some food in even if it is only soup and toast. Starve a cold and feed a fever or whatever the heck that saying is.

Form your postings I was unsure but wanted to ask: Do you still have pills? Or ready access to them? Like a refill left or something? I am only asking to see if you are in between refills or are you ready to jump off of the merry-go-round?
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Thanks it's bad cold...It's been 24 hours.  I use this stuff for pain than it plays with my head the entire time.  Usually would be popping two tens about now let's see if I can push thru this urge.  Its funny or sad I have watched this board since I crashed and burned looking for an answer.  Ironic it's me where the damn question begins and ends.   Good question Sarah let you know if I can push thru this next day or so.  I do know clarity comes.  God I need you and know you are here help me thru this troubled time to man up.....Atthebeach u have stayed in my heart.....
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Hey sam. Is it  Cold or withdrawls starting up? Either way im glad your trying again. This disease waits pariently for relapses. That scares the shizz out of me. At least this time around you will know its a matter of time to feel well. It takes a strong person to come back and start over.
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Hi Sam......Sorry to hear you are in this mess again.  What are you going to do differently this time?   You dont have to be a prisoner to these pills.  It's all up to you.   You can do it!!
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hello my friend. i have been praying for you. glad you see you  came back.
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It's amazing how these pills make you feel guilty and then not and they really rob you of what feels real.  Anyway have not posted in long time embarrassed to say the least and mad I failed.  Sorry I start this over and thank you for helping me last time.  Save yourself time don't bore yourself with all my previous posts it will just detract you from getting thru this....
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