Holidays

[BearsFan1966]

As I sit here thinking of all the stuff I need to get going on for the Holidays I kind of panic! This will be my first Holiday season not chasing the pills in 10 years! This is a good thing and I truly look forward to a sober Holiday! I have already started to get my supplies together for my candy making!
It seems crazy to think of not having my crutch, but I KNOW I can do it with out it!

I think of those that are just starting on this wonderful life of recovery and pray they do not give into the stress of the Holidays....Just remember this is the best gift you can give yourself and your loved ones!

I have been reading on here a lot lately of people questioning when the energy will come back. Remember everyone is different and it depends on how long and how much we were taking and our age!
I take it one day and even 1 minute at a time! God how I hate that word TIME! I know I did a lot of damage to my body and it will take time to become whole again. That is my new thinking...to become whole again. Not to be normal or feel better but to be whole again.
It makes me sad when I read people putting time lines on their recovery, in fact it scares me! I think when we put a time line and when that time comes and we are not feeling better there is a part of us that feels we have failed.
We have not failed we have just turned another corner in our sober life's!

So this Holiday I am putting on my armor and going head on into the storm! Doing what I can and knowing that I can only do so much. That is ok I am human, not wonder woman! If it gets done wonderful if not well that is ok too!
Together we are so much stronger so when you feel lost we are here for you!
I love my MH family and pray that we all stay strong and together!

[brandiroars386]

Thank you for ur post. I think at times i do wonder how much longer or should'nt i feel better by now runs through my mind. This is also a the first holiday season for me without my pills. I have to keep focused on myself like u said. Very powerful post and i thank you for that. Bless u!

[BearsFan1966]

I will send you some! lol

[BearsFan1966]

Thank you all so much! I just let God flow threw what I am thinking! Love you my sweet Spider!

[Rubber_Duck_Dog_Bone_in_the_pool_WhyNow]

I love candy and chocolate!

[clean_in_ks]

Yep....Wisdom right there~

[dominosarah]

As time goes by you will all relax more during the holidays.  What used to be important is no longer important.  Cleaning and cooking takes a back seat as you see the world thru different eyes.  Holidays shouldnt be so stressful.  It should be a time when families come together.  

[spider6]

hahaha, I forgot to comment on the Holidays!!  ya.....the day after xmas, I usually hole up in my room for two days and I never remember much of it after.......oh and the big joke and question around here is......."So when do you think Mom is going to wreck Christmas?"......or........."Mom", "Settle down now, you don't want to wreck Christmas."...hahahahaha  God I hate the holidays.!!!!  .......but I love you guys. :o}
hugs xo

[spider6]

Really really positive, stellar post lil Bear!!!!!  Girl, you have a writer floating just under the layers of the "unknown" I call our "obvious psyche".  Did you know that about you????  

Inspirational sweet Bear!  write write write write!!!!!  It seems to come with ease....ever thought about doing something with it or do you now?

So, yes, thank you for that.  Loved every bit of it, and I adore the place your heart sits right now; light and hopeful.

Always in your corner, keep bangin them down!
Love ya gal!!! xo

[tooter212]

Thank you for the post!!! If it wasn't for my feet I would be great!!! I could make myself do more. I think I'll do what you did, get stuff for candies and a bunt cake to send my brother-in-law in Cal. We just lost his wife and I always sent them one about 3 times a year. That will give him a lift and my too. God Bless you

[BearsFan1966]

Well said Sarah! I totally agree and I am going to do that! Thanks so much for the advice!

[dominosarah]

The one thing we all need to remember during the holidays is to NOT overwhelm our brains.  Take some time each day for just you.  Write your list down of the things that need done and then go thru and prioritize them.  This does actually help.  We are not superhumans!

[BearsFan1966]

My little Bubble how are you doing? Miss you girl and love you tons! Always thinking and praying for you!

[BearsFan1966]

Thank you Teri! You are a huge support of mine and thank you for all you do! love you!

[Teri9498]

Great post as always Bear!!...this time of year is a huge trigger 4 many...my myself included!!...my Dad died 3 days b4 Xmas, so this whole time of year takes me back 2 that!!...& I liked what u said about trying 2 not focus on the energy & put a timeline on it, BC we r all so different...instead just try 2 be whole again!!...love that!!...u r doing AWESOME & I'm so proud of u!!..sending u love & support!!..xxoo ;)

[BearsFan1966]

Living clean is so much more fun! No running around like a chicken with my head cut off! No more worrying about running out of pills! No more living life in a lie! love your name!! It is so worth every struggle and every hump we have to get over to be clean and enjoying life for what it truly is again!

[BearsFan1966]

Thank you so much mommymarieme this is very important to me to stay clean during these times!

[living_a_lie]

Wow! You make being clean sound like FUN! I envy and respect you.

[Bubbleguppie100]

Amazing! I agree with everything that you just said. You can do this. :)

[mommymarieme]

Oh bear that was a beautiful post! You made me cry!! We do need to remember that right now we are doing something very special for ourselves we are CLEAN! If all we manage to do today is stay clean well then yeah for us! I am ok with that we are giving ourselves and our families so much more by staying clean. :) I am so proud of you bear and thank you thank you thank you for this post!

[BearsFan1966]

Just do not give into it! Stay strong and take time!

[SuzzQ]

Well, it's good to know I am not the only one worrying about the holidays. The gloomy weather.. Everyone out doing things, shopping. I can't get energy to do hardly anything... I sometimes wonder if I will ever get back my energy. I am over 1 1/2 months now.. No pills... No energy... I am just tired all the time.. I am so tired of it.. Makes me feel sad.. If I could just get some energy.. Thank You Bears Fan..