Welcome to our forum. We've all been there. We understand. As I read your posts I noticed key phrases that stuck out.
And I'm confused about your amounts. How much are you really taking??
The amount of your pills a day don't matter. I stayed on five tabs a day for years. Years. And I was addicted.
The definition of addiction is....when a habbit takes over. Or a activity you like to do becomes an obsession.
I completely understand where your at in your mind. I was there too.
I had a eight year habbit.
Welcome ..you're in a very good place (may not seem like it) you are on the threshold of recovery,,,I took 7-8 VIC ES's daily for the last part of my using as well.....
I wish there was an easy way..but then I would have missed the lesson....may sound corny but I knew detoxing would sux but it's the price to pay once the party is over,,,,
The good news is theres a new life is jsut around the corner. 3-7 days on the detox usually...your symtoms will vary..the bottom of my feet hurt (weird)..
Headaches, low low energy and possible stomach issues..are a few classic symptoms
I wont last forever.....
If I knew how nice life would be off that crap I would have taken a month of detox.. (no kidding)......
There is life after opiates... (I promise) ........... a lot of people on here are living proof,....
take your life back sista
Aww. Free you make me smile. Because your soo right. I'm always in a great mood. Instead of dragging myself out of bed. I bounce out of bed like a five year old. I smile all the time. I don't make mountains out or mole holes. I agree with you. L
I'm taking 6-8 pills of 7.5mg. I'm actually out and what better day to start. I took half of a 7.5 before bed and another half of 7.5. Last of them, that's it.
Sounds exactly like my mini taper.,,,,I did 4-3-2-1 none...
stick around,,,we're here for ya,,,,,
This is the perfect time for you to stop. Make today matter. Make today the day you reclaim your life.
What a powerfull post, THANK YOU and congrats on your 1st step of recovery.
I am also a middle class wife and mother of one son. Reading your post was like looking in the mirror. I now understand completely I am an addict. I also only took 4 tabs or so a day but I did it for years. For a long time I felt like super mom, super wife, however they turned on me bad. I also wondered what the pharmacist thought of me, my scripts also kept getting earlier and earlier, I was CONSTANTLY thinking of my next pill, never going to ANY function without my pills, also my mother was an addict, I know she suffered in complete isolation, so I too knew about my genetic make-up.
What I can tell you is you are on your way to a much better life. Please don't let the 3 or 4 days to get off the pills scare you. I promise you can do this and the life you will give yourself will be a freedom you can't believe. No more guilt, no more pharmacy trips, no more counting and when you look in the mirror you will start to really shine, I know when I looked in the mirror I hated my eyes on Lortab. You can do this, if I can do it, so can you!!!!!! Please stay on the forum and we will help you, I promise you can have a much fuller life than you thought possible OFF pills. You are on your way!!!!!
Wow, I can so relate to you "Here4Support." So much it's scary! But you are in the right place and are making the first steps to quitting and a new life ahead. It might be a somewhat painful and long few days but it will be worth it and you can do it!!!! You are not alone in this mess. There are so many other women, men, adults, teens, professionals, students, parents, doctors, lawyers and stay-at-home mom's that are on this same long bumpy journey and none of us are losers. Just addicted and scared. Stay strong and keep coming here for support. Don't be too hard on yourself.
Welcome...You have a couple of things going for you. First, good or bad, you know what addiction looks like and the toll it can take. Second, you've recognized that you have a problem with pills - are you an addict or just an abuser? No matter. You've decided that you want to stop and that's the most important thing at the moment.
From my 15 years of failure I've learned three things that recovery is built on - cut all sources to meds. If you can get a refill then I guarantee that your head will start whispering to you about "just one one hurt". Tell your doc, dentist, pharmacy that you want to be red flagged as an abuser. Next, let friends and loved ones know that you are an abuser (I'm avoiding addict - it's your choice how to present the issue). If you keep the secret it will allow you to hide behind it and thus relapse is just down the road. And finally, get after care.
If you leave one of the steps out, then you may be setting yourself up to fail.
I'll be 7 months clean tomorrow, and I promise you, there is life without pills. It really does get much, much better. You have to work at it.
Kyle, you took the words right out of my head! CANCEL THE REFILL!!!
You have to. If not, you'll fill it, pick it up, and swallow a few before you're out of the parking lot!
I agree, nothing works until you call your doctor, share with your family or husband, cancel at the pharmacy, and move on. Concentrate your thoughts on NOT being addicted. Also, start checking into some aftercare programs. If you need suggestions just ask!
WE:LCOME Here4support. When Bill W. started the 12 step program it was with the wish that others could hit their bottom earlier than those that came before them. Something like that anyway. Congratulations are the order of the day for anyone trying to get clear of substance abuse. And you are in the right place. I learned in quite a few treatment centers that OVER investing in the amount of drug or the Type of drug taken was one way of (needlessly) romancing the stone, and so you see, Congratulations to you is the point, and has nothing to do with your drug of choice or amount that brought you in to see the light. Finding your bottom before so completely devastating yourself and your family, is the reason that the first book, the Big Book was written. Best wishes on your recovery journey. I guess my suggestion would be to take the time while you're posting to reach out with a personal message or two. Make some friends to help you personally through the worst of your journey. I'm sure that you won't be disappointed. Keep smiling. Best wishes. Liz