This question is mostly about my addiction to Tramcet and Ririka, but I want to go into background circumstances, in case it makes a difference to anyone giving advice.
I was a borderline alcoholic from for 10 years. Although I didn't drink much every night, it was a necessity that I drank or I wouldn't get to sleep. I tried quitting alcohol, but I always went back to the habit of drinking every night.
The doctor tried to help me quit by prescribing me Loxonin. Although it suited me better than other antidepressants, I still didn't really like it. It was an expensive option. But it did have some success in temporarily stopping me from drinking. However, I moved to Japan and was unable to get the medicine anymore (strict laws and doctors without experience). So I ended up just drinking.
Then about 18months ago I had a shoulder operation. It was supposed to be keyhole surgery but it didn't work out right and there was significant cuts to my shoulder. The doctors tried to tell me to just 'do my best' to deal with the pain without any pain medicine, but I couldn't move at all. It was unbearable.
So the doctors prescribed Tramcet (tramacet?) and Ririka. I was unaware of the addictive qualities to the medicines and took them to help relieve the pain. A few months later, I was able to quit drinking. I thought I was great, but I realise now that I have just replaced the alcohol with these pain medicines.
I realise I'm addicted because I've forgotten to take the medicine with me when travelling for a couple of days, and I become extremely sleepy, extremely irritable, and extremely anxious. It was very difficult to even get home. Then when I became aware of this dependence, I've tried to stop taking it. But I'm not even functional as a human without the medicine. I am unbearably anxious and sweat. I'm sleepy but I can't sleep.
I'm doing my best to limit the amount I take. I'm taking less than the doctor is prescribing. But I don't know how I'm going to stop. I'm scared to tell the doctor because I think he'll cut it off. And without it, I don't think I could go to work. So I could lose my job.
Does anyone have any advice? Should I try to stop one - Tramcet or Ririka, and then the other? The other consideration is even if I could stop the medicine now, the pain from my shoulder is still there. Am I getting more addicted the longer I take the drug? I want to stop, but pain is difficult to live with also..
If I was to take a holiday from work and go cold turkey, what would happen? 2 days of hell? 3? 4? a week? Is it possible that I stay in such an anxious, exhausted state no matter how long I stay off it?
I appreciate any comments/ advice/ or suggestions if you understand the medicine or have managed its effects.