How do I not go dumpster diveing for my drugs?

[Leesh1]

I want them back, I do..... How do I not want to do this when every muscle in me screams for it back?

[ariley13]

I just wanted to add my support to you. Great job on your clean time! This is tough, tough, tough. It is very normal to have that obsession over the pills. The only assurance that I can give you is that the more time you can put between you and the pills, the fewer and farther between the cravings and obsessive thoughts will be. Try to stay busy and do anything that keeps your mind occupied and off of pills. Listen to some great music really loud and dance, watch a funny movie. Do anything that is enjoyable and helps to fire up those 'feel good' endorphins. Exercise is also a great help and it also can help with sleep and anxiety. Hang in there and no matter what don't you dare use!! We are here for you.

[Kimby34]

I'm in no way happy you feel this way, but so relieved to see I'm not alone! If I had pills in a dumpster id go get them. My cravings are beyond uncontrollable. It's awful and runs my life. It's all I think about all day. But, I'm clean-and slowly feeling a bit like myself. My urges def last longer than 30 min. I try to keep busy too-cleaning helps. You know what else? Naps. I lie down when my son naps and watch a movie or try to sleep. You can do this. Try whatever it takes because it's just not worth a few pills.

[Jenny9906]

I completely understand....I'm on my first day of detox, and I would have a horrible time right now if I had access to pills, even if that meant digging through nasty trash. The hardest thing for me is that my husband has the pills....he actually needs them for chronic pain issues, and he doesn't abuse them, but I take them to mask my mental issues (depression, anxiety, and possible inattentive ADD). My husband is working out of town 3 hours away right now, and I ACTUALLY contemplating putting the kids in the car and driving there to get some to relieve my misery. I talked myself out of it, because it isn't going to help in the long run anyways.  It's just going to prolong the inevitable....and I NEED to break the cycle NOW. So do you...so no dumpster diving ok? :)

[ActingBrandNew]

Hey...here's some stuff that may be helpful for you. Check out the link to the Thomas recipe below. The things on it can help with the withdrawal symptoms.

http://www.medhelp.org/health_pages/Addiction/Thomas-Recipe-Re-Posted/show/16?cid=66

Heres some 'stuff on relapse prevention....good stuff!

Techniques for Dealing with Mental Urges

Play the tape through. When you think about using, the fantasy is that you'll be able to control your use this time. You'll just have one drink. But play the tape through. One drink usually leads to more drinks. You'll wake up the next day feeling disappointed in yourself. You may not be able to stop the next day, and you'll get caught in the same vicious cycle. When you play that tape through to its logical conclusion, using doesn't seem so appealing.

A common mental urge is that you can get away with using, because no one will know if you relapse. Perhaps your spouse is away for the weekend, or you're away on a trip. That's when your addiction will try to convince you that you don't have a big problem, and that you're really doing your recovery to please your spouse or your work. Play the tape through. Remind yourself of the negative consequences you've already suffered, and the potential consequences that lie around the corner if you relapse again. If you could control your use, you would have done it by now.

Tell someone that you're having urges to use. Call a friend, a support, or someone in recovery. Share with them what you're going through. The magic of sharing is that the minute you start to talk about what you're thinking and feeling, your urges begin to disappear. They don't seem quite as big and you don't feel as alone.

Distract yourself. When you think about using, do something to occupy yourself. Call a friend. Go to a meeting. Get up and go for a walk. If you just sit there with your urge and don't do anything, you're giving your mental relapse room to grow.

Wait for 30 minutes. Most urges usually last for less than 15 to 30 minutes. When you're in an urge, it feels like an eternity. But if you can keep yourself busy and do the things you're supposed to do, it'll quickly be gone.

Do your recovery one day at a time. Don't think about whether you can stay abstinent forever. That's a paralyzing thought. It's overwhelming even for people who've been in recovery for a long time.

One day at a time, means you should match your goals to your emotional strength. When you feel strong and you're motivated to not use, then tell yourself that you won't use for the next week or the next month. But when you're struggling and having lots of urges, and those times will happen often, tell yourself that you won't use for today or for the next 30 minutes. Do your recovery in bite-sized chunks and don't sabotage yourself by thinking too far ahead.

Make relaxation part of your recovery. Relaxation is an important part of relapse prevention, because when you're tense you tend to do what’s familiar and wrong, instead of what's new and right. When you're tense you tend to repeat the same mistakes you made before. When you're relaxed you are more open to change.

http://www.addictionsandrecovery.org/relapse-prevention.htm
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Your almost over that hump! Dont give into the urges...YOUR ALMOST THERE! I bet you feel a lot better tomorrow...just dont use!

[clean_in_ks]

And trash pick up is when?

[msdelight]

Flushing party?

[ROSYouralright]

Congrats on day 4!!! You should be feeling better soon!!! You will learn how to manage the cravings better and better in time. GET BUSY and REFOCUS when they hit! Music really helped me! I got through (and still do) the cravings one song at a time!!! Also, you don't NEED the pills!! That is a LIE your addict brain tells you!! You've got this and we are here rooting for you!
ONE CHOICE AT A TIME SWEETIE!!

[Leesh1]

I did some house cleaning for th first time. But I think my head wants them. Like I can't do anything because I need them. I still can't eat much and I feel so weak. Sweating constantly but I'm so cold.

[IBKleen]

Stupidpill gave you good advise. Do something to get your mind off of the drugs. Stay busy. Congratulations on day 4. You are on your way. Stick around here. This is a great group of members here that will help you through this. If you have any questions just ask. There is always someone around to answer them.

[stupidpill]

if you're day 4, you should be through the rough stuff too, so good job!

[stupidpill]

try to get up and do something.  go for a walk if you can or go run an errand.  i am 8 days clean and i'm having super cravings today.  i want mine back too but i have to get clean and stay that way.  i'm just trying to put my mind on other things as hard as it is and think about the future when these pills don't have a hold on me.