Hi, I have been on 16mg of Suboxone for over 5 years after abusing Oxycontin for less than 2 years. My mood is content, but I am a shell of a person. I do not work and I never leave my home. I get up in the afternoon and go on my laptop until I go to bed around 4am, and then I repeat the same thing the next day. I am extremely constipated and have no energy. I know I need to get off Suboxone, but I don't feel strong enough to and the more time that goes by, the weaker I get. There was only 1 time that I was ready to ween myself off Suboxone. It was after being on it for 6 months and a psychiatrist had put me on an anti-depressant. I mentioned to my doctor, that was prescribing the Subs, that I was ready to ween down and he said I shouldn't think about that now. So here I am, 5 years later. I get frustrated to why Suboxone affects me so much because I know plenty of other people who take it who can work and function properly. I used to be a very hard-working, family oriented person and now I don't work, hardly every see my family, and lost touch with most of my friends. But still, none of this motivates me enough to even go one day without Suboxone. I've called a few rehab centers, but they only offer like a 5 day detoxification, which makes no sense for the long term nature of Suboxone. Does anybody have any suggestions or is anyone in a similar situation?
I'd like to make a note, though. I am not condemning Suboxone. It stopped my life from spiraling out of control and I know I wouldn't be in this situation if I got some kind of co-therapy when I initially started taking Suboxone. I am blaming myself and the doctor who only cared about my urine samples every month I saw him. (Sometimes, I would have to stay in his office bathroom all day until I could produce a sample because the Suboxone also causes extreme urinary retention for me, even though the doctor didn't think that was possible.) I have a new doctor now who prescribes the Suboxone and thinks everything in my life is going great because I don't know what to tell him.