May be a hole you are trying to fill by using drugs...for me i think it was...hopefully the new life you are responsible for will fill the hole...i dont know...when u find out what makes us want to use let me know....it is frustrating...i became unhappy using...and depressed...so it was a no brainer for me to quit...alot of work but i was so tired of being tired....now i am so tired of being tired again! LOL...not funny but i hope u find your answer....aftercare is a great avenue to take to help us see clearly...i have heard some stories that would curl my toenails in NA....good re-inforcement
I too was a heroin addict, i was addicted to that c**p for 8yrs. I really enjoyed sleeping my life away..........until i hit rock bottom!!! When i finally did reach that black hole i knew i had to sort out why i was doing it in the first place. I knew why, but didnt admit it to myself for a very long time. Maybe you have to figure out why you want to hide in a closet all day long.......its not a nice place to be (nihilistic world of modern h**l But you really have to want this.....maybe thats why your posting now..................because you do want it for yourself and your baby!!! I wish you all the stregth in the world to fight this demon. Kepp us informed! Take care
Welcome Find some aftercare is what I hear is the answer. That is my plan after these wds are over. Mike
Hello and welcome.
One thing may be is that you have to figure out, is what are you hiding from. What is it in your life, in your world that you have to numb out. When you are sober do you simply hate life and the day to day monotomy of everyday living or do you have some hidden demon or sceleton that you are running from. Either case once you have figured that out try to fix THAT particular issue first and then move on from there.
Most functioning addicts can't seem to figure out why we have to quit. (Me Included) becuz we are not seeing any immidiate effects to our drug us. But the point is that in the long run or even just all of a sudden it will catch up to us and bite us in the @ss hard. Every pleasure in this world has a price. Some higher than others.
Good Luck and let me know how things are going.