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8566467 tn?1398742815

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Hey everyone. im not sure if anyone will even care to read my post but im new to coming clean about my addiction to narcotic pain killers. Im find it easier, even with a great support team to find comfort in reading posts from other addicts and researching about everything associated with withdrawal and addiction.

For the past 3 years my love for opiates have grown extremely high. At a point in time I was taking up five 30mgs a day, My dosage really determined what I could get my hands on. A bit more recently I was taking a 80 OC and probably another half a day. Ever since Ive gotten with my now fiance a year ago (who is clean and supportive and patient about quitting) ive been battling with quitting.

In all of 3 years the longest i went was 4 days and everyday i was on the hunt for more, endless crying, and lashing out. Withdrawals are the hardest Ive ever had to face thus far and that really says alot. Of course i eventually found more.

But starting ten days ago ive opened up to more people about my addiction and decided im ready to make that change for myself, my future kids, my health (im now wear glasses after a life of 20/20 vision), my fiance (he shouldnt have to deal with this) and my wallet!

So today i have one 10mg left and im scared to take it because ive went all day without it (pupils started dialating, anxiety, tiredness from lack of sleep) I got some Loperamide tablets after spending all day researching and taken 8 thus far. I guess im okay, not as anxious. Does any have tips, aids, kind words, etc to give? Im open.
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Day two, yes! Very proud of you qwerty, I know last night was tough. Keep pushing, fighting, clawing to stay clean, and read your original post over and over, there is a reason you came to this site, and that is it! Get rid of that damn pill, it will keep haunting you. You need 100% commitment, and that evil demon seed is nothing but a distraction. Remember- I am looking forward to OUR success.
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4522800 tn?1470325834
Hi..Good for You on wanting your Life back..You got some great advise from our MH Family above. I want you to know that it just takes TIME & PATIENCE..YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!
Try to educate your self all you can about this Addiction in a more Scientific way..You will find it very interesting and know that it is not your fault. This is a disease and that part of the brain the Mid-brain (survival) Is the pleasure part and it will always remember the pleasure it got from just LOOKING at that ONE pill. This info will not Cure you but it will give you some more insite on what goes on up stairs in our Brains.
Try to get to some Meetings too..You will learn so much in them meetings..It does not matter if it is AA or NA..There will be a Angle there that will take you under their wing. I wish you the best and stick close to the site if you have any cravings or other issues. These Angles out here will hold your hand all the way..Just know it does take Time for the Brain/Body to balance out. KEEP PUSHING!!!!
Bless
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8548587 tn?1426132056
Hi I'm Patty and I am in the toughest part of this s@@@! Don't take that pill! I almost gave up last night, I had no will to keep going. I just thought I couldn't take it anymore but I told myself to hold out till the morning and then if I still felt I couldn't take it anymore I would cave in. And guess what, this morning I still felt the same way and was about to take a pill. I have no idea why but I decided to get on here first and it saved me. I did not take that damn pill and have to start over. I am just starting day 4 and to say its rough is an understatement. I haven't slept at all yet, I still can't even sit still for more than two minutes, no matter how tired I am. And unfortunately I thought the worst was suppose to be over in 3 days, didn't realize it could last a week. But now I am telling myself: well you have four days to go instead of seven. You can do this. And if you slip, just start over-to err is human, to forgive yourself divine. My best advice is to come to this sight whenever you need help with determination. I am on here a lot, especially in the middle of the night-when I'm not sitting on the floor of my shower with the hot water running on me as that is the only time I can be still and I have no bathtub.
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Yes it does get easier but the 1st 1-2 weeks are just yuck. What you are experiencing now. Hard to sleep, mind raising, stomach, runs, headache, sneezing and yawning, anxiety and depressed thought. No energy no motivation. I know it seems like time goes sllooowwwww. But you will get through it and then you have to deal with cravings and after are. Keeping this up.

Day 2!!!  So awesome. Keep going. You are doing great.
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8566467 tn?1398742815
It feels good to know someone is at the same mark i am and can relate while being there with me. thank you :)

I am on day 2 as well and its not so much about the cravings but the jitters and i know if i took something it will subside, but starting over will hurt much worse. i cant do that. i dont want to start over again. thats what i keep thinking about to keep pushing myself through.

PLEASE post your story like i did. i would love to read. and go to your car and scream your head off, punch the steering wheel if need be, but its really not worth taking a pill.
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8566467 tn?1398742815
thanks bones! i made it man. i made it through the night and the sun never looked so promising. but it still is a struggle. a battle within one self.
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