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I am 132 Norco Free and Holidays are approaching!
As time ticks by, I feel better and better. I can't believe how fast 132 days has gone! I still have "bad" days, but they are NORMAL person bad days...such as, I had a bad day at work and I'm grumpy and exhausted and just want my bed. As tomorrow is the first, the Holiday season is rapidly approaching and I just got overwhelmingly excited and wanted to share with you all...this will be the first Holiday season that I will be pill free in TEN YEARS!!!!!!! I am so ecstatic and I can't wait! I'm so excited to see next year has in store for me and my son also. I hope everyone has an amazing holiday season as I hope I will.
It's hard I work 6 hr shifts I'm on a muscle relaxer and neorteon advil I put essential oils peppermint on my back use a heating pad often I get frustrated because my mind says I can do more and my body says no I have gained weight not real happy about that I got so skinny being on the pills my husband says I look normal again I think if I was a million pounds my husband would say more for me to love lol I know chronic pain ***** it really does.
I will tell you, I have yet to find anything that takes my pain away like the pills did, and being in pain, it ***** and it gets frustrating and hard to deal with. When I have flare ups, it is hard for me to focus on anything but the pain. I just try to get through it. I've had to get up a lot today, having a hard time just sitting here in my work chair. I couldn't imagine being on my feet for 8 hours a day!!
I know what your saying I'm 42 my body isn't at all what it use to be I have a horrible back that's waht got Me started on those nasty pills I'm at waitress been with my company 22 yrs they have been wonderful to me I now work a small station try make the best of it yes those pills masked everything sickness feelings I was like a robot my customers say something different about you I smile and say just happy to be alive
Come to think of it, I never really got sick when I was taking pills either. I got bronchitis once a year, but the only symptom I felt from that was the difficulty to breath and the cough, I never felt the pain from it. Here in Cali, we have a break in the rain, it rained for a couple weeks straight and everyone was sick of it. Now, it's sunny and 70 outside. And I'm freezing hahaha!! It ***** when you realize that your body isn't as young as your brain still thinks it is. I'm so tired today, I just want to go home and go to sleep, but I can't afford it.
Yep, when I hear those Christmas songs I tear up. The past 2 yrs I have had no one since I lost both parents, in-law, dogs and friends all in a 90 day period when I was into 18 plus months of recovery. I do go to Church and other group things, so I have some kind of family out here. The holidays are what I make them now. I can buck up and get involved with Church and feeding the poor. This makes it seem worth it. I am blessed to still have a wonderful Hub and a few close friends. Hub & I are somewhat hermits and no one seems to come bye anyway, but that is how we like it. We will have Thanksgiving here alone.
Your head feels strange with a cold and that is normal. When we used to get those colds on pills we felt nothing. In fact I never got colds or the flu when I was using..Strange! Still have not been sick like that in awhile. My hip & back keeps going out every time I try to split and stack the wood. I have some pics to put in. It has been raining & raining for months now, so we can only get the wood done little by little depending on the weather. Started a bit late this yr do to some hang ups. Come on up in the Winter. We get DEEP Snow and it is perfect for skiing, which I do not do any more. My brain is good but my body is breaking down now that I am in my 60s. I still want to get all my work done like I used to, but that just does not work out anymore. Got to realize I am older now..Hahahaha!!!
Take Care and God Bless!!
Your head feels strange with a cold and that is normal. When we used to get those colds on pills we felt nothing. In fact I never got colds or the flu when I was using..Strange! Still have not been sick like that in awhile. My hip & back keeps going out every time I try to split and stack the wood. I have some pics to put in. It has been raining & raining for months now, so we can only get the wood done little by little depending on the weather. Started a bit late this yr do to some hang ups. Come on up in the Winter. We get DEEP Snow and it is perfect for skiing, which I do not do any more. My brain is good but my body is breaking down now that I am in my 60s. I still want to get all my work done like I used to, but that just does not work out anymore. Got to realize I am older now..Hahahaha!!!
Take Care and God Bless!!
Thank you Vic I'm so sorry I to lost my brother it's so hard my brother loved the holidays he was in culinary school he was the best cook around he made everybody laugh I know through this journey of mine that my brother has been with me through it all.My mom has the hardest times at the holidays thank God she lives next store she bought the house next me 2 yrs ago it was a god sent went it went up for sale when I know she is having a hard time watch out my son and I go and drive her crazy try make her laugh or just let her cry.God bless us all
I am very Happy for YOU and YOU sound so good. Have you had that Mental part come and go??
I do not put a tree up for Christmas because I have them all over on my 10 acres. I do put some lights around a nice blue spruce out front..Ha! Christmas for me these days is just to celebrate Christ. Sometimes when it gets down to the day, I will run out a pick up a few gifts. When my lil Brother passed on Christmas day in the 80s, I have not put a tree up. He slid off a ice shoot and hit a pine tree and died. Sometimes I will bring in a lil one in or a fake one that has some lights on it. There is no family left to celebrate with but my Hub. We do have Thanksgiving, but usually it is just my Hub & I. The holidays can be very happy for some and depressing for others. This is the time for us to keep that Guard Up for sure and wear our Armour around us.
Good Luck to YOU and I am very proud of you.
Bless U
Vickie
I do not put a tree up for Christmas because I have them all over on my 10 acres. I do put some lights around a nice blue spruce out front..Ha! Christmas for me these days is just to celebrate Christ. Sometimes when it gets down to the day, I will run out a pick up a few gifts. When my lil Brother passed on Christmas day in the 80s, I have not put a tree up. He slid off a ice shoot and hit a pine tree and died. Sometimes I will bring in a lil one in or a fake one that has some lights on it. There is no family left to celebrate with but my Hub. We do have Thanksgiving, but usually it is just my Hub & I. The holidays can be very happy for some and depressing for others. This is the time for us to keep that Guard Up for sure and wear our Armour around us.
Good Luck to YOU and I am very proud of you.
Bless U
Vickie
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The mental part comes and goes a little bit, but doesn't usually last long. I am getting a cold now, and my body aches really bad and my back is killing me and I thought about pills yesterday, but the thought passed as soon as I busied myself doing other stuff. That is so sad about your brother. I'm so sorry. I'm glad I have a little one to celebrate Christmas for again. The other's are grown and go do their own thing after brunch and presents are done. For several years after the kids left, my friend and I would go to the bar...how sad lol! Wouldn't stay long, but we had nothing else going on, her kids also went to their dad's after the morning. It's amazing how many people are in the bar on Christmas!! That was when I was single though and didn't have my 2 year old yet. My baby keeps me sane. I didn't want to get out of bed today, I just wanted to lay there snuggled up to him all day, but I had to go to work. It's weird, but now that I am getting sick, my head feels "weird" again...is that normal?? It hasn't felt like this since like day 20!
Congrats 132 days so awesome I was thinking the same thing this will be the first in 4 yrs I will be clean I'm so excited I told my husband I want to get my snowmen out start decorating pill free I will wake up Christmas morning not in withdrawal reaching for a pill life is good sounds like your life is coming together too.
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It is trying to come together. I can't wait to wake up on Christmas morning and not take a pill either. Even on Thanksgiving morning. I will get to enjoy my Holidays with my eyes wide open this year.
Thank you! I love getting the tree and putting it up. I don't care about the gifts either, but I do love to shop for my family and those close to me. I like to think about how happy they will be with what I picked for them because it is something they will really enjoy. And I can't wait to cook Thanksgiving dinner and smell the turkey cooking all day! I'm hoping the holidays will bring peace to my life a little bit. I have high blood pressure due to stress and anxiety over my "boyfriend." I am no longer calling him my fiance and no longer have plans to marry him. I am getting all my ducks in a row and trying to prepare myself and my son for when I leave him. It has come to that. I can't do it anymore, and since I am clean, I can actually feel and am totally aware of the unhealthy situation I am in. The pills kind of masked any feelings I had on the matter and helped to kind of bury it, which I didn't know at the time, I thought they were just helping my pain, not repressing what I actually felt about my home life. Anyway, it is time to work on me and my son and make a happy life for me and my son, and if I stay with my "boyfriend," then I am just making an unhappy, stress filled, tension filled life for me and my son and I want my son to have an amazing life and childhood and grow up to be an amazing man...not grow up to treat women and people in general the way his father does. He will not be a happy person if I stay. I'm sad about it, but I'm more sad that I chose to stay so long :(
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Holiday seasons can also bring extra stress so stay close to the ones who support you.
I always remember my first clean Christmas. I get a real tree due to being brought up with a fake one. I remember how good it smelled and how beautiful the lights were. I cried putting up all the decorations as most of them were made by my kids and grandbabies. I never realized before just how important they were. It wasnt the gifts, it was all about my family~
I always remember my first clean Christmas. I get a real tree due to being brought up with a fake one. I remember how good it smelled and how beautiful the lights were. I cried putting up all the decorations as most of them were made by my kids and grandbabies. I never realized before just how important they were. It wasnt the gifts, it was all about my family~
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