I am baking cookies...am I ok?

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Atleast I am not masterbating through this.  I am just eating myself into a bolivia (?) I guess I am bored.

WTF are all these posts???  Yikes.  Has everyone lost their mind?  Not the masturbator of course...but the rest of you...come on, we are all past saying sorry for this ****.

I'm so fuckin pissed at this addiction I am not apologizing to anyone for any freakin thing I write.  I just gotta say, how could ONE OF US judge another?

Thanks for your inquiries...I have been working and ...well...eating.   This sucks I suck and what the **** is a chat room?

blue_eyes_72 · Answer

I know the feeling about eating yourself to death. I already have a weight problem. when my marriage broke up i was 350 lbs. i went on a crash diet then used again after 12 years. i did loose 125 lbs befor my set back then lost another 50. now I am back up 65 lbs. I feel like i need to do something and stuff my fat *** seems to make me feel better for the moment, then i put on my jeans and realize how fat i am getting again. ugggggg! i iammaking myself sickwith this *****! I have got to get some kinda control. I love to cook, I am a chef by trade even though I dont work at that type of job anymore. It was too stressful for me at the time. But I swore to myself after I lost the weight I would never put it on again and her I go. I guess its still the same cycle for me, replace one addiction with another. God be with you, I will pray for you. Hopefully we can all beat our demons one way or another!

beachtowel · Answer

If that is the worst you thats no big deal....All my pants pockets have been washed a 1000 times since I quit if there were any there they went into the rinse bowl long ago.........

No harm no foul.............

addictedtoloratab · Answer

Wow, you must be feeling a little better, good for you.  What kind of cookies are you baking???  I am pissed at the addiction to, it runs our life.  What kind of work do you do if you dont mind me asking??  I am wondering because I dont know to many people that can work while in detox.  Hell, I am lucky if I can make it to the shower.. Seems like your doing good, and your right, all this apologizing is getting out of hand.  Its done and over with lets move on... Keep on eating, at least your clean..Huggs

tink1517 · Answer

if you have a yahoo account you can instant message me my ID is   tink1517

its nice to hear from you, and i LOVE your i dont give a sh*t attitude, you go girl....

i've missed talking to you

Marce4 · Answer

Hi...how are you doing???  Haven't seen you here either! What are you up to? I hope you're doing well and taking steps forward...Let me know what's going on!
Peace,
Marcie

creek · Answer

I can't say that  I am really eating well, just EATING anything and everything that has sugar in it.  Where are my menapausal friends???!!!  Where are my sugar cubes??

I work for myself...and about 30 other people depend on me for employment.  I have been a real **** the last few years and have made lots of financial mistakes.  Feels good to want to work.  Not that I would if I didn't have to, but I realized a few months ago I could lose it all if I didn't change my ways.


I posted below...day 3 is really fibbing...I found two in a pair of pants.  Ate them like candy.  But didn't go to the street pharmacia.

Marce4 · Answer

It is a place...I think...where you can actually talk to people in real time and have a conversation...can't say that I've ever been on one but my son has.  I am computer illiterate...this is a big feat for me to be posting so I hope I can figure out how to join!

addictedtoloratab · Answer

Hey girl, I have been taking 2 pills a day for now.  I am just trying to stay at 2 until my insurance kicks back in next month, then I was going to look into the subutex.. I am just trying to get myself back together.  I am tired of feeling sorry for myself and having my kids have to suffer through it, so I been trying to get out of the house and start being a mom again..I feel like I lost it, I need nanny 911 or a huge bottle of loratab, lol.. I dont know how I did it.. How many kids do you have and what are the ages??  I am sure that you and the other moms can relate that being a mom is the hardest job I have ever had, uggh..  
Anyways, how are you??  Did your hair turn out good?? How are you feeling on this clean day for you??  Nice to hear from you.. Huggs,

Marce4 · Answer

Posted to your post below...don't beat yourself up...just keep on track!  By the way...my husband read my post and corrected me it is the Farmacia...I think in Italy there is no such thing as PH standing for an F...only in America!!!!

Marce4 · Answer

Hey...I have four kids a boy 15 and  3 girls 13, 8 and 5...they are the loves of my life and YES the job is really difficult but sooo worth it...

Hair turned out great...I love it and it always feels great to get your hair done.  I'm day 13 and feeling pretty good!

2 per day aint' bad...you know you can do this...it sucks but it is so worth it to give yourself back to your kids. I'll be praying for you!
CIAO!!!!(LOL)
Marcie

addictedtoloratab · Answer

OMG 4, I have 3 and I dont know what the hell I am doing, lol.  Day 13 is awesome and I like to hear that you are feeling ok.  I just dont know how I will ever do  it without using.  I cant keep up with these kids they are always 3 steps ahead of me.  I am glad your hair turned out good your sound like a great mom.  I know there is no way I could of done that family vacation like you did.  You are my inspiration.. Keep up the good work Marcie, Huggs, G

Marce4 · Answer

Still hangin' in there?  Baking cookies is a great thing!!!! I'm remedial in the kitchen...thank god my husband is a gourmet chef or I'd be totally screwed!!!!!I'm soo glad to hear you're eating well cause I couldn't eat chit when I was in w/d!
Peace,
Marcie

I am baking cookies...am I ok?

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