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I am done!

I have a beautiful daugher, I am 23days wo lortabs, but still drinking like a fish. The fact I am not taking pills any longer does not satisfy my family, all of whom are alcoholics. But for some reason they think I should be able to stop a 4yr, 10 to 12 a day hydrocondone addicttion, an alcohol addiction, and a nicotine addiction, all at once. I love my family, I love my daugher, I love them so much I am starting to feel like all the things my family say to me are true, my daughter would be better off wo me in her life, her father never even acknowleges he is a dad, but at least he is sober. It doesent matter how much I try, how long I have been wo pills, all I do is cause those I love pain. I don't want to do that anymore, I can't. and I won't. What do I have to offer anyone anyway. Thanks you guys. Good luck on your journey, and best wishes, you are all stronger than me, you will make it. God Bless.
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Oh no you don't! I need the background. Your post helped and made me smile. However; you don't get off that easy. I'll tell you my God awful story, if you willl share yours with me. I have thought about going to NA or AA, I just can't bring myself to do so yet, therefore this site is my only release. I need to hear others stories to help me process mine, and deal with the guilt that plagues me. Please.
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The hydro addiction ain't over, yet, britt -- take a look at your posts in a month or so ...

All you're thinking about are the negative things about you. I feel the same way a lot of the time, and figured I deserved an escape from a bleak world. I remember laughing and felling care-free and enjoying all kinds of stuff that I gave up, preferring to drink and take pills and stare at the idiot box all day, but that gets pretty boring, too. Maybe you'll feel a bit better in the morning -- I don't have to tell you that the booze is the biggest downer going, and when I drank, it was breakfast, lunch and dinner: every waking hour.

Don't know what to tell you -- I'm no Florence Nightingale -- except to say that, other problems aside for a sec, I finally got so depressed on booze, I couldn't face going there anymore. No treatment center, no rehab, no AA -- I just got through the god-awful withdrawal and never considered it again.

Then somebody handed me this pill ...
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Thank you. I agree with that at times other times I think what good can an alcoholic, prescription drug addict contribute. I miss who I use to be. How the hell did I end up here? I use to be the Bree of desperate housewifes, I had everything down to a science, including how to raise a child. I had energy, I laughed, I did things, I enjoyed doing things, anything. Now, all I want to do is sit on the couch and watch tv. I know a lot of that is the hydro wd, but that should be over, and the last year when I was taking them I still didnt do a damn thing. What is wrong with me?!?!
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You can make it.....dont give up. You have a daughter...no one can replace her MOM...Keep posting...
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