omg...I have sooo much anxiety going on...I cant stand it. Im so tired, I have no energy to get up and walk around. Mentally I am a mess as well. This is horrible. I am seriously wondering will my brain every heal.....I cant stand the depression. Oh dear God.....This is ****, just pure ****
Anxiety is very understandable. Withdrawl is full of suppose bouts of panic from nowhere. It's one of the methods I learned that our brains use to trick us into trying to use again. Once all the major physical withdrawal symptoms pass then we have a battle with our minds. It will create phantom pains, anxiety, sadness, depression, and so many other things but stay strong. Music worked amazing for me. Put in some headphones and blast it away. Music creates euphoria in the brain and can ease so many things. Also exercise, you are probably without energy right now I know but excercise releases both restless leg and anxiety. Go for a walk, clean house, fly a kite, anything to be active. Post on here, even if no one responds right away it can be therapeutic to just write. I'm around today so feel free to write back.
You sound in good spirits with your head in the right place. Everyday gets better, it's hard to focus on the future when everything seems chaotic but you will heal. You will laugh real laughter, you will feel genuine happiness, your emotions will come back.
Hey Girl just checking up on you...been following your story and I know all to well your struggle....just know it is so so worth it to get to the other side...for me each detox got worst then the one b/4 I think your experiencing that also...the real key here to make this your last time is aftercare for a old dope fiend like me N/A has been the magic bullet long after the pills stop your still stuck with the addict in your head and addictive thinking and behaviors...the obsession to use will come back once the freshness of your detox wares off...those that go to meetings tend to stay clean....google a N/A meeting near you
When you stayed clean for a year previously, did you do any aftercare of any kind?
Do you have a person "in real life" that understands addiction that you can talk to?
Have you told your dr you do not want any more pills now?
It seems people are making suggestions and asking you questions and you're not too keen on answering them? Maybe I'm mistaken, but it would help us to help you if we knew the answers to some of the questions we have been asking you.
Congrats on 7 days clean!! You will be turning a corner real soon so hang tight. You are so worth the fight~
Were you able to go to a Celebrate Recovery group at your church and use their work book? All the people that go to Celebrate Recovery have something they need to "recover from". Are you opposed to trying a 12 step meeting and just sitting and listening?
My apologies for not picking up on the fact that you weren't getting them from your dr. Guess I just "*** u med" that when you asked the Oxyneo question. When we first get clean, our serotonin levels drop drastically.
Are you taking any supplements? Ester C? The Thomas Recipe? Are you taking any Epsom salt baths that both feed magnesium to your body, relax you and detox you as well? The neurotransmitters in our brains take more than 7 days to "normalize" and begin producing their own endorphins (nature's natural opiate). Can you find something to LAUGH about? Watch something funny? Put ear buds in your ears and listen to music?
Sit in the sunshine for just a little bit. The Vit D in the sun TRULY is one of nature's healers.
I hope you will hang in there until you turn a corner as Sara said. You have to be close, but doing some of the things suggested will help too.
Blessings to you~
Exercise definitely helps because it will boost endorphins to be released. You haven't produced your own feel good chemicals for awhile now. That's where the brain healing comes in. Chemicals will level out and adjust. In the meantime, you're depressed. It's normal. Sometimes folks need to get with a doctor and maybe do a trial of antidepressants but usually we get better on our own.
I'll make some suggestions that may help you feel better:
Get some help in the house and with meals. You need some time just for you so you can heal.
Spend some time in a quiet room. Take a long bath, freshen your bed and clean up your bedroom. Light a candle. Get in bed and rest, watch TV, and what really helps is YouTube! Funny videos, and especially music will really give you a boost! It's just amazing.
In other words, don't think for a little while. Your brain needs freedom from that stress. Try to sleep. Distract yourself. Baby yourself. I view this part of the process as being sick so...treat yourself that way.
Now, please don't underestimate going to AA meetings. The meetings and the fellowship really help mentally and emotionally. I've seen it work for people.
I hope you get to feeling better soon. I feel badly for you. Most of us can relate to that dark space you're in. It does get better! xo
Wow, Im browsing thru this forum. Of course Im up and woke, not feeling to good...but the last activity I see on here at all, was 6 hours ago!....someone posted the other day, about the changes that were made to this forum...I didnt know that it had changed that much. It helps so much, to be able to communicate....& even read the updated post. Well Im still grateful for this site. Guess im on my own tonite.
Yes I'm also the other side of the second part of my life. Congrats on day 10 prod of you. You can and will do this one day at a time 1 min at a time as time passess slowly but its always moving. Your depression lifted that's all good my friend. Keep fighting and you will do this. Rember all the good times when you were 10 months clean. That can be you again . Sending you strength and much encouragrment you desserve to be free again. God bless and the very best of luck in what you are doing. ,,,,,James