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711224 tn?1344771687

I can't believe this......

I am 201 days clean of oxazepam, a short acting benzo. I'm finishing my tapering plan to get off tranxene, a long acting benzo. I was on 40 mg down to 5, the smaller dosage possible. I can't believe how hard this last taper is. I have RLS, night sweats, I'm very irritable at times and I found myself having "thoughts" about the day I'm gonna have to go to bed w/o any pills and it did scare me, I can't believe this........
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711224 tn?1344771687
Ooooooooh Cassie, it's so good to see you back on here girl!!!
I can't wait for the day I'm gonna goto bed completely sober and have some quality sleep, I can't wait to dream again!
I'm so glad you're enjoying your life clean, it must have been such a struggle for you... but you're doing it!
Sending you all my love sweetie!
xoxoxo. sophie.
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Wow congrats on 201 days and this last taper. I know that the benzo withdrawal is one of the hardest ones there is, so this just shows all your determination and strength! I am so happy to hear you are doing this, and I also sympathize that you're going through this now. I saw some nasty benzo wd's in rehab and I feel for you but it will be so amazing when you don't have to take pills before bed, and can depend solely on yourself, not a pill. And it will feel so good to wake up, refreshed, ready to start your day, I have been waking up feeling this way lately which is a huge change since I used to wake up in oxy WD. It is definitly worth going through the wd for. I am proud of you and admire your determination!!
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Congrats on 201 days we are proud of you Sophie WAY TO GO......James and KIM XXX
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711224 tn?1344771687
Great idea sara, yes me post its Queen!!! I did put it on my homepage so it's the 1st thing I see when I open my laptop, I was thinking about a new tatoo!!! lolol
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495284 tn?1333894042
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Thats my girl........I know you like to use Post it notes so slap one on your self that says One Day at a Time.         sara
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711224 tn?1344771687
I'm so glad that I didn't give in yesterday and that I did stick to my tapering plan, I'm feeling so much better today. I sometimes tend to forget "One day at a time" and the baby steps.
Thank y'all a lot for the support
sophie.
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711224 tn?1344771687
Hahahahah!!! I guess that must hurt a purist like you Vic!!!
Yes that's what I tell me for days now and I think I'm proud of the long way behind me and the achievement, I'm so almost there but you should know how impatient I am! lol
thanx for your support...

Sara, thanx for reminding me!
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Ohhhhhhhh noooooooooo not flat Dr pepper, OH Sophie, lmao. Just think this is the last time you wil EVER have to go through this. I am soooo happy for you!!!!!
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we are and always be will a work in progress.........sara
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711224 tn?1344771687
OMG girrrrrrrrrrls I have tear in my eyes right now, you're all so fantastic!!!
I just drank my bananas shake sara and I'm just coming out of an hour shower another 1/2 hour to wait and I take this darn benzo....
Lesa the tonic won't do it, my stomach can't take any bubbles, yes I'm one of the freak that drinks Dr Pepper flat!!! lol
Terry, you're my rock, I love you sooooo much....
Y'all are right, I have to be patient, yet again, but that's really not one of my quality, I haaaaate to waiiiiiit!!! One month to go and I can finally make the big jump, what is a month for a lifetime w/o pills???
I can't wait for the celebration trip!!!
Thank you for the support girls, took me too long to ask for help, I'm still learning every day, fortunately......
xoxoxo. sophie.
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We will celebrate on the pond!!!  Wouldnt that be a trip!!!     sara
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Gosh Sophie if anybody can do this you can!!! You have shown all of us how to be patient!

Love you girl we are here for you as you have been for us!

Terry
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495284 tn?1333894042
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Congrats Sophie on 201 days!!!

Patience my dear patience!!  You have shown us all what strength and determination is.  Once you set your mind to getting off all the meds thats just what you did.  The wd's are a small price to pay for what lies ahead......a life free of pills!!!  Bananas help with RLS too.  Dont forget to pick that camera up girl........hugs to you         sara
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get some tonic water sunshine it had quinine in it and may help with the rls.. You took control of your recovery but Thank you and You have become a very important part of my life.. Gary says whoo hoo sophie way to go !!! love you more :))
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711224 tn?1344771687
Thanx Lesa! I know I'm too impatient again!!!
I'm starting to have dreams again, not really clear yet but i can't wait to remember one of them, it's been sooooo long....
Love you too, you have no idea how much you contributed to my recovery and I will forever be thankful to you for that.....
xoxoxo. sophie.
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711224 tn?1344771687
Thanx for your support Gizzy! I'm just so mad to have wd's again...I just wanna be done with the taper! I know I'm too impatient again!!!

Improd
Yes it is a very long road Ihave behind me, 20 months of tapering... My fear is more of letting my pills go. I do feel a lot better now than 20 months ago and thatwhat keeps me going. I was a zombie, not living but surviving, numbing myself.
I have some advil with me and my good old shower that helps me a lot for the RLS and I went to the gym this morning which I hope is gonna help sleep me better tonight.
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ahh sunshine.. this will not last forever and when your body becomes accustom to being with out You will sleep a sleep that is good and refreshing.. sleeping without drugs is the bomb You are refreshed even if it is only a little and we dream and drifting off is priceless.. Congrats Sophie.. You have had a long taper and one you have stuck through thick and thin.. I'm so in awe of your strength and determination !! Whoo Hoo 202 days :)) and .5mg to drop !! love you lesa
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That is a long taper schedule and I think that your disease is filling you with fear that is making it all worse...that is what happened to me.   Go to the store and get some theraflu, aleve and any other OTC med for the flu and hang in there pretend you have Swine flu and that an end is in site because it is a bug...go to meetings sorry but that is the best medicine there is as hard as it can be to do.
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Congrats on those 201 days off oxazepam Sophie. You know i don't know much about benzo's, but proud of you for tapering and sticking to it, it's not easy. Hang in there, it will get better again soon.
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