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I forged hydrocodone prescriptions and now the PD is calling ??

I am a professional with 3 beautiful children, a good job.  I recently went to rehab for a 10-15 a day 10/325 hydrocodone addiction. It was the best thing I could of ever done.  Now I am on suboxone for withdrawals, and in intensive outpatient therapy, while on STD from my employer.  The PD where the last "script" was done is now calling.  I have enough street smarts to know to NOT answer ANY questions without an attorney present.  I honestly cannot afford an attorney to consult for this, even if an arrest occurs.  My life savings is depleted for various estate battles with X girlfriends from my dad's death.  I cant touch the money that is there for me for another 4 years.

I have done extensive reading, and know the rehab was the best thing I could of done, for more reason(s) than one.  I am in intensive outpatient therapy for the next 3-5 weeks, so I am off on Short Term disability from my employer.  Now I find myself switching cars with my husband to avoid a run in with the police concerning this.  I know if I refuse to answer any questions, they will assume my guilt.  So now I am avoiding them.  I know if they are persistent, I cant avoid them forever.  What really hurt me the most, was my teenage daughter that avoided my phone calls while in rehab answered their phone call yesterday and told them anything they wanted to know, concerning my whereabouts.

I cant believe I let a drug ruin my life like it has.  My husband was clueless about it all till yesterday, I knew I had to tell him before I end up incarcerated or taken in for questioning.  I read where this happened to someone else, and they thought honesty would serve them best when it came to answering questions.  Being so "honest" got them additional charges, after all the police have a job to do.  I want to remain sober and look towards my future.  My past is now coming back to bite my in the a$$ so to speak, and I am walking on egg shells.  I know I deserve it and was a total idiot for doing it at all.  Any thoughts or suggestions?
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So sorry, sweetie we have all here done thins we are not proud of...
First, was this before you went to rehab??? What did your hysband say?
I know the state i live in here is tough on it but first offense is rehab, and drug test...One friend of mine got caught and that is what she had to do..
now she also had a good judge..
Did you call it in? she called hers in....
look, at least you are clean right now...i know you can not run away from them forever, but you need a plan..A support team...Do you have anyone you can talk to , a lawyer friend about what can happen???
just take one day at a time, hell they might stop calling...i think if they see you went for help, an you have 3 kids and you are CLEAN , it will be ok
i will pray for you
R2R
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Good morning. may  I ask the ages of your kids?



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wow...looks like you've created quite the little "situation" for yourself.  sorry to hear that.

i am pleased to hear that you are taking steps towards sobriety.  it is very important to your recovery that you continue the treatment you have started.

i'm not sure about your pending arrest or questioning...but i do know that you cant run or hide forever.  if you cannot afford an attorney at this time...you may just have to be arrested so that you can get a public defender to help you.  paying a bail bondsman to get you out of jail is alot cheaper than putting up the cash...and usually this can be done within hours of getting arrested.  wish i could tell you what to do about getting questioned...

if you have no prior arrests you can probably get off with not much happening to you.  you can always use the "first time offender" and your attorney can advise you on this.  you going to rehab...going to outpatient therapy...will only help your case.  

part of recovery is taking responsibilty for your actions.  i would advise you to be "completely" honest with your husband and family...as this "situation" is not going to just disappear.

good luck,
kim

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Sorry, I dont mean to be "replying" to my own post, just need to add to it.

My husband has a daily mj habit.  He has a good job, and to look at him you would never know it.  We rarely "speak" to each other, usually the only communication we have through out the day is through email, just advising the 3 year old made it safely to daycare.  I am not casting blame for my problems, but I do believe his emotional isolation fueled my pain pill dependency.  

Then my X husband and the father of my two teenagers is in prison.  He was a crack addict.  I feel like a complete failure and let down to my children by being so stupid to do what I did to just get a bottle of pills.  I find myself searching for life insurance policies now, so maybe in death I can do something right for my children sakes.  

I don't want to be a burden to anyone.  I just want to be "normal" and sober, for once.  
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