I am a professional with 3 beautiful children, a good job. I recently went to rehab for a 10-15 a day 10/325 hydrocodone addiction. It was the best thing I could of ever done. Now I am on suboxone for withdrawals, and in intensive outpatient therapy, while on STD from my employer. The PD where the last "script" was done is now calling. I have enough street smarts to know to NOT answer ANY questions without an attorney present. I honestly cannot afford an attorney to consult for this, even if an arrest occurs. My life savings is depleted for various estate battles with X girlfriends from my dad's death. I cant touch the money that is there for me for another 4 years.
I have done extensive reading, and know the rehab was the best thing I could of done, for more reason(s) than one. I am in intensive outpatient therapy for the next 3-5 weeks, so I am off on Short Term disability from my employer. Now I find myself switching cars with my husband to avoid a run in with the police concerning this. I know if I refuse to answer any questions, they will assume my guilt. So now I am avoiding them. I know if they are persistent, I cant avoid them forever. What really hurt me the most, was my teenage daughter that avoided my phone calls while in rehab answered their phone call yesterday and told them anything they wanted to know, concerning my whereabouts.
I cant believe I let a drug ruin my life like it has. My husband was clueless about it all till yesterday, I knew I had to tell him before I end up incarcerated or taken in for questioning. I read where this happened to someone else, and they thought honesty would serve them best when it came to answering questions. Being so "honest" got them additional charges, after all the police have a job to do. I want to remain sober and look towards my future. My past is now coming back to bite my in the a$$ so to speak, and I am walking on egg shells. I know I deserve it and was a total idiot for doing it at all. Any thoughts or suggestions?