I hope tonight is better.

[Back2Me]

Last night was brutal. I hope tonight goes better. My taper plan (after I got scared shetless thinking I could CT this) has me taking something as long as it's after like 12:45 or something. But in reality I am just going to try to push through as long as I can. So if the night goes better the longer I will go. I will make myself suffer for a while tonight pretty severely after the draws hit but if they are as bad as last night I will have to take something eventually. If it is not so bac I would love to go the entire night till about noon tomorrow. That would give me a whole 23 hrs.
Oh well here goes nothing.

[msdelight]

I think the best place to be is at a meeting.  There you will hear stories of struggles others are facing, some worse off, some better off than you. It will be inspiring and informative and will help on your journey. When you jump will not be alone. NA is free. As you get going you can arrange more therapy. Don't give up keep going! You can do it! Stay close here and post a lot. Beating this thing takes a village.

[PorVida]

I've been on here a while and followed your story. Like you I've struggled to stay clean.  I finally started AA n it has helped ALOT.  You or I cannot beat this disease but WE can.  It takes help n support of other addicts to stay clean.

You don't have to be sober to start meetings just have a desire not to use. Check one out best decision I ever made. Hang tough. You can get through WDs they suck but you can do it. Your addiction is trying to convince you that you can't.

[Back2Me]

Don't I have to be clean before I go to meetings?

[dominosarah]

Look into that help right now.  Dont wait........You can do this!!

[Back2Me]

I made it about two hours more than last night which something I guess. My usage is now down from about 120mg oxy and 30 mg vicodin to 80mg oxy and 15 mg vicodin. Tomorrow it will be my goal to bring it down to 40 mg oxy total with 15mg vicodin before makin the jump probably Monday. I have to jump early this week but I just couldn't do it off of that much this time I thought I was going to go out if my mind. Trust me if I can get through this i am forcing myself into a program and professional help as well. I have new much better insurance now they will cover all of it.  
Thanks for looking in on me. :/

[bama88]

Think of the first as a trial run....now this time youve got some power.. tonight youll be stronger..better than you were.

[gnarly_1]

Hy hang in there dude you can do this please go back and read what I posted on your other post...........Gnarly.....................