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I need help - please
Hi,
I have been addicted to pain killers for the best part of 5 years now. What started out as a few every other day for pain has turned into 10/15 at a time 3 times a day! This is 12/500 and 30/500 combined. I have tried to go cold turkey several times, but I cant take the pain and aches that goes with it and I cant talk to anyone i.e doctor, for fear of her taking me off my tabs. I know I am addicted, and I know I need to get clean before this kills me, but I just cant do it. I am currently off work sick with a few chronic issues (the reasons I started the co codamol in the first place) but as the years have went on, my pain has gotten worse and 2 painkillers just did not cut it. I am also spending a few hundred pounds/dollars a month on over the counter painkillers (not as strongs as my prescribed meds) but they do help. I went out the other day and bought the ingrediants for Thomas' receipe but I dont have any vallium and I cant get it anywhere, so dont want to try without that. I also have a young son and a partner (who knows I take a lot, but does not know the extent) I really want to tell someone and find out if there is a miracle drug that you can take for a day or two to get you clean? I really cant go cold turkey and I am afraid that one day I am going to rather die than go without my painkillers. Someone must know of a better way (I dont care what price it is) and I beg you to please share it with me and all the other people who find themselves addicted through no fault of their own. Please help me.
I have been addicted to pain killers for the best part of 5 years now. What started out as a few every other day for pain has turned into 10/15 at a time 3 times a day! This is 12/500 and 30/500 combined. I have tried to go cold turkey several times, but I cant take the pain and aches that goes with it and I cant talk to anyone i.e doctor, for fear of her taking me off my tabs. I know I am addicted, and I know I need to get clean before this kills me, but I just cant do it. I am currently off work sick with a few chronic issues (the reasons I started the co codamol in the first place) but as the years have went on, my pain has gotten worse and 2 painkillers just did not cut it. I am also spending a few hundred pounds/dollars a month on over the counter painkillers (not as strongs as my prescribed meds) but they do help. I went out the other day and bought the ingrediants for Thomas' receipe but I dont have any vallium and I cant get it anywhere, so dont want to try without that. I also have a young son and a partner (who knows I take a lot, but does not know the extent) I really want to tell someone and find out if there is a miracle drug that you can take for a day or two to get you clean? I really cant go cold turkey and I am afraid that one day I am going to rather die than go without my painkillers. Someone must know of a better way (I dont care what price it is) and I beg you to please share it with me and all the other people who find themselves addicted through no fault of their own. Please help me.
Yes you can do it, you are doing it, the w/ds should start subsiding in a couple days, keep telling yourself you can do it, take one day at a time and don't get overwhelmed. I have faith in you, keep pushing forward.
Guys,
Thanks for your support! It is much appreciated! I started my detox on Monday 26th March ... I still dont have the valium - but have the next best thing - anti depressants! So Monday at 5.45am was my last codine intake of 10 x 12/500 and 6 x 30/500. I have been keeping a diary of how I have been doing so that I might help others in my position! So Monday evening was bad! I was in agony all over, head, back and the worst - legs - calfs and thighs. Trying to sleep was impossible and thats where the anti d's came in handy! I had 3 baths on Monday too ... two during the day and one at 8pm - a few hrs before bed ...
Tuesday 27th March - Day 2.
Slept ok - tossed and turned a lot - and was groggy as hell in the morning because of the anti d! Didnt have the usual craving of shoving 15 painkillers in my mouth before getting up ... which is a great sign! BTW, I have been taking B6, multi mineral and L-tyrosine throughout the two days too. My legs, back and head are killing me ... so the only way to help this is by going into the bath - again ... second one before 2 in the afternoon! I have a little pile of paracetemol incase the pain gets unbearable - but my threshold wont let them near to help :( ... bath at 6 a and again at bedtime. I cannot stress how much roasting hot baths for 45 mins help ... the pain for me stays away for the time in the bath and up to an hr after getting out!
I am continuing to take 3 multi mineral tablets a day, 2 B6 tablets a day and 1 L-Tyrosine ... all with meals ... eating very healthy too ... muesli and bananna in the morning, brown toast and tomato at lunch and a small meal at night ... I couldnt eat more than 2 meals a day when I was taking 50 painkillers a day!
Wednesday 28th March - Day 3.
Had a really bad sleep ... had to get up during the night to rub deep heat on my legs and back ... was tempted to take a few co codamol to get rid of the pain - but couldnt ... knew they wouldnt help anyway! Been going for walks during the day too ... to get out the house ... avoiding chemists on the way lol need to build up the muscle in my legs slowly ... so 45min - 1 and a half hrs walk a day ... weathers been great here :) so that helps the mood a lot too! Two baths today ... one early afternoon and one a few hrs before bed. My legs are the worst they have been since stopping on Monday and I dont think I can handle this pain any longer ...
Thursday 29th March - Day 4.
During the night was bad! I held off and held off as much as possible - but I got up at 3am and had to take 4 x 30/500 co codamol to take the pain in my legs away - feel so ashamed! But I really couldnt cope ... plus my other half was moaning about me moaning and groaning all night :( it's currently 10.20 am on day 4 and I have the hospital today for one of my ongoing issues ... so tempted to tell them about my detox etc ... but scared, so wont bother ... if I can get to the weekend without taking any opiate painkillers then I will know that I can do this MYSELF! I will check in again in a few days and update you all on my progress - I really didnt think I could do this ... but I think I can ...
Thanks for your support! It is much appreciated! I started my detox on Monday 26th March ... I still dont have the valium - but have the next best thing - anti depressants! So Monday at 5.45am was my last codine intake of 10 x 12/500 and 6 x 30/500. I have been keeping a diary of how I have been doing so that I might help others in my position! So Monday evening was bad! I was in agony all over, head, back and the worst - legs - calfs and thighs. Trying to sleep was impossible and thats where the anti d's came in handy! I had 3 baths on Monday too ... two during the day and one at 8pm - a few hrs before bed ...
Tuesday 27th March - Day 2.
Slept ok - tossed and turned a lot - and was groggy as hell in the morning because of the anti d! Didnt have the usual craving of shoving 15 painkillers in my mouth before getting up ... which is a great sign! BTW, I have been taking B6, multi mineral and L-tyrosine throughout the two days too. My legs, back and head are killing me ... so the only way to help this is by going into the bath - again ... second one before 2 in the afternoon! I have a little pile of paracetemol incase the pain gets unbearable - but my threshold wont let them near to help :( ... bath at 6 a and again at bedtime. I cannot stress how much roasting hot baths for 45 mins help ... the pain for me stays away for the time in the bath and up to an hr after getting out!
I am continuing to take 3 multi mineral tablets a day, 2 B6 tablets a day and 1 L-Tyrosine ... all with meals ... eating very healthy too ... muesli and bananna in the morning, brown toast and tomato at lunch and a small meal at night ... I couldnt eat more than 2 meals a day when I was taking 50 painkillers a day!
Wednesday 28th March - Day 3.
Had a really bad sleep ... had to get up during the night to rub deep heat on my legs and back ... was tempted to take a few co codamol to get rid of the pain - but couldnt ... knew they wouldnt help anyway! Been going for walks during the day too ... to get out the house ... avoiding chemists on the way lol need to build up the muscle in my legs slowly ... so 45min - 1 and a half hrs walk a day ... weathers been great here :) so that helps the mood a lot too! Two baths today ... one early afternoon and one a few hrs before bed. My legs are the worst they have been since stopping on Monday and I dont think I can handle this pain any longer ...
Thursday 29th March - Day 4.
During the night was bad! I held off and held off as much as possible - but I got up at 3am and had to take 4 x 30/500 co codamol to take the pain in my legs away - feel so ashamed! But I really couldnt cope ... plus my other half was moaning about me moaning and groaning all night :( it's currently 10.20 am on day 4 and I have the hospital today for one of my ongoing issues ... so tempted to tell them about my detox etc ... but scared, so wont bother ... if I can get to the weekend without taking any opiate painkillers then I will know that I can do this MYSELF! I will check in again in a few days and update you all on my progress - I really didnt think I could do this ... but I think I can ...
I feel your pain.. Talk to your doctor.. I almost died last week. I was on as much morphine and norco to kill someone. Not to die but just to get by day by day. I was tired of the life of the pills. I wanted it back and Cold Turkey with valium. Why won't Dr Help you...
Hi hon, I feel you, I was taking upwards of 20 percs, vikes, morphine, whatever I could buy to keep from feeling like crap, things were just getting out of control and I knew I had to stop, I procrastinated for a year dreading the withdrawals, I have a very busy lifestyle, run my own business and couldn't afford to take off work, I started on a Friday with day one, not too bad, had the weekend off for days 2 & 3, and by day 4 the worst was over, I'm not saying it's not hard but it is possible, The miracle drug you are looking for is called self perseverance. Dig deep you can get off this crap, it's so much better on the other side not being slave to the pills.
Welcome! First, it is a very big step to post and tell your story. You realize you have a problem. I understand your fear of telling your doctor. The problem is, when you quit, you do not want to have that avenue available to you when something triggers you.
Unfortunately there is no miracle pill. If there were, we would have found it! ;) This is something you just have to make up your mind you want and then do it. The physical wd is awful yet it is the mental that gets a lot of us. We have to learn ways to cope without the pills. Counseling and/or an aftercare group of some kind will help with that.
Please keep posting and vent when you need to. This site has and continues to help me make it through. We'll be here.
Minn
Unfortunately there is no miracle pill. If there were, we would have found it! ;) This is something you just have to make up your mind you want and then do it. The physical wd is awful yet it is the mental that gets a lot of us. We have to learn ways to cope without the pills. Counseling and/or an aftercare group of some kind will help with that.
Please keep posting and vent when you need to. This site has and continues to help me make it through. We'll be here.
Minn
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