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I have visited this forum many times in the past five years. Having been in rehab three times (due to overkill with pain meds for surgeries)the last being my family's final straw, was my wake up call. It's been almost two years and I'm tapering from my suboxone regimine. Wow. Is all I have to say. I'm down to .5 mgs a day since Tuesday. I came here for advice on how to get through the last week of my taper. I've put myself in a bad way by cheating last night and taking and extra .5 because I thought I was going out of my mind. Mind being key word. My doctor said that I have hardly no trace of suboxone in my system. The wds are in my head. Really??? I know everyone is different and react differently to tapers. I will be short and have no suboxone for a whole day before my next doctors visit. I'm already freaking out. Does anyone have any home remedies that can help? I have wiped out my Ativan supply as well so that's adding fuel to the fire. I have two young children and a husband who doesn't get it.
Unfortunately I don't drive. I have no way to get to a meeting. It would be uncalled for with the hubby. Its not an excuse. I had a psychologist come to my house for two years as this struggle has been ongoing. I had to have her come when he was at work, never got caught. I mean I love him dearly and supposedly he understands but idk. He uncompassionate about all of this. I run this house take care of my 5 almost 6 year old boy, him, my almost 10 yrd old daughter who is afraid of her own shadow, my 85lb 7 yr old out of control boxer dog who thinks hes entitled to go outside every 1/2 hour (in which I get pulled around my yard) if I don't take him hell just sit and bark. so annoying. then theres my 14 yr old cat who pukes EVERYWHERE. I'm constantly running through my house. from the minute I get up til everyone is sleeping soundly. hubby is old school. woman stays home. takes care of everything. exercise. ya! I lose a pound a day just what I do here. so it's expected of me to be here. I can't be taking off to meetings. who will take care of the kids and make dinner? it sounds crazy but its how I watched my grandmother, my mother, my older sister do. we are caretakers. just as all moms are. I don't know how moms work and do what I do. theyre super! sorry if this is crazy writing. I'm typing super fast on my laptop. I'm sure every woman who has kids goes through this. I just got kids off to school. time to drag my butt through chores. peace. much thanks for listening
Hi well im up at 3.30 today also...grrrrrr....cant get back to sleep but so goes it....anyway your doing great for coming off sub it is second only to methadone so it is day 4 congrats on that... sub withdrawal usually takes a few days to set in for most people so your in the jaws of it just keep doing what your doing and put some form of aftercare in place I have tried therapists a substance abuse counselor the pastor at my church but N/A has been the magic bullet for me.....it is free the meetings are only a hour long and with time I have lost the very desire to use....something I always thought would be impossible...coming off any maintenance drug the cravings can come out of nowhere it is critical that you get some form of aftercare in place b/4 that starts to happen just because you stopped the sub does not= recovery ....your still stuck with the addict in your head....by going to meetings working the steps this can be manageable but it is up to you to take the first step it will also give you some place safe to share what is going on with you where the people understand another critical part of recovery keep posting for support and google a N/A meeting near you....Gnarly
I was sleeping last night soundly. At 345 am my daughter woke my up because she had to go the bathroom. Which located downstairs since upstairs is like I said under construction. I thought I was going to lose my mind as I tried to go back to sleep with no success. I have to say, I had no rls. I don't know if its the motrin and the gabapentin. I have a suspicion it was. But still only got about four hours sleep. My butt will be dragging today. Not feeling disgustingly awful. day four please be kind! OH and I completely lost my head last night. I flipped out on my family for someone getting the hand towel I had just placed in the bathroom dirty. I mean I lost it! Way out of character for me. I cried I felt so horrible I yelled like a lunatic. My hubby was like do you need to go to the hospital? I said no ill be fine. I calmed down hugged my kids apologized for an hour. I hope that doesn't happen again.
hi there
I hope you get a clean tub....baths can save you from insanity when the restless legs hit ....that was the worst for me...insomnia and restless legs....
and complain here all you want because we know how hard this is even if your husband doesnt...i think nonaddicts and those who never went through withdrawal will never really understand....but we do
hang in there
I hope you get a clean tub....baths can save you from insanity when the restless legs hit ....that was the worst for me...insomnia and restless legs....
and complain here all you want because we know how hard this is even if your husband doesnt...i think nonaddicts and those who never went through withdrawal will never really understand....but we do
hang in there
Seems epsoms baths are the way to go! I just wrote all this but for some reason it didn't post. I don't think I was logged in. Anywho I have only one bathroom right now. Other is under constructuon. Of course it is! With a two boy home, I'm afraid of what might be lingering in my tub. I clean it but I don't know if I can do it the way I feel. I'd ask hubby but he'd look at me like I have ten heads. Clean what?? He works hard. I'd feel bad. If I have a lot of trouble tonight I'll see if my super hero mom will bring some by and I'll conjure up some energy to wash the tub out. Ugh just thinking about that makes me want to fall down. Thank you for listening and please keep up with me as this is my outlet right now. I need someone to complain to. Thank you
Praying for ya! The disease of addiction, once we activate it, actually keeps your logic center in your brain from working properly, so that's part of that demon on your shoulder that tells you you want to use, even if the rest of you doesn't! Keep it up! The gabapentin can get your head dizzy/eyesight wonky from my experience, so that could be it. Keep it up, you can do this! Don't worry about what others think of you... I've personally believe that being one of "those people" is a good thing, cause it means you've got a testimony, that your strong because you're overcoming! Epsom salt baths have saved me from rls, it's basically just magnesium which is the chemical your body needs to help fix the nerves that we caused to go haywire, which is part of what causes the rls.
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and let him talk to my doctor, who explained that opiate withdrawal really *****! My doctor suggested a few things to help with symptoms. An amino acid called L-tyrosine, which is found in bananas, meat, cheese, etc. or buy at a health food store and it's what your body needs to make the "feel good" chemicals. If I could only afford one thing, it would be the L-tyrosine! I can tell a difference when I take it, then go running. Also, excercise boosts your brain to make those feel good chemicals that your body has forgotten to make because the opiate did it's job. Multivitamin, anything with potassium, magnesium, iron and zinc help with restless legs.
I will say, comparing my experience from coming off of stuff on the streets and coming off of a good taper, a lot of the symptoms are in my head! I psych myself out so much fearing the symptoms, but when I calm down, live in the moment, I realize I really don't feel as bad as I thought. My sponsor has always told me "Sometimes instead of taking one day at a time, you really have to take it one minute at a time", and when detoxing, I try to remember that. Anyone can do anything for just one minute! Keep it up, you can do this! You dropped down way lower than I did before making the jump, so I imagine you'll do just fine ;) Praying for ya, you will look back and it will all be worth it!
Here's where I get my l-tyrosine, since I saw you asked where to get some supplements. http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DR28E74/ref=sr_ph?ie=UTF8&qid=1442685153&sr=1&keywords=l-tyrosine