I never learn

[mamaamw]

I went to the dr last Monday. Got 90 hydrocodones and they're all gone. Already. Why do I allow them to give me the meds? Why am I not strong enough to say no?

[VICourageous]

Very Good Mommymarieme.
That just sounds awful..I feel for you..You should do as suggested above..You are only hurting you & you child more by using. These drugs can take your life if you keep doing this for a long, long time..A bad mix with the relationship too! My prays go out!!
Bless

[mommymarieme]

Hey honey i am glad you are back. Everyone gave you great advice! I am also in a bad relationship and i know that i kept taking the pills to numb the pain and hurt he put on me. I stayed on the merry go round for a long time and finally decided that i want better for myself and for my kids. Yes it is hard i deal with pain and i deal with an abusive husband but now i am clear headed and i will be able to make changes. Honey if you really want this you have to look at your past relapses and make changes so you will not have to go through this again. The big one is cut your sources and get some type of aftercare. It is up to us to make our lives what we want them to be. I am here if you need to talk :)

[mamaamw]

I'm so sorry... I don't really know how to get around on this site.... And especially since I'm having to use it from my phone!

[nursegirl6572]

Mary gave you great advice.  I too think that a LOT of your issues would be resolved (improved anyway) if you could find a way out of the abusive relationship you're in.  Start reaching out to local resources, like shelters, who can help you put a plan in place and start working on it.  I understand that it isn't easy to just pick up and go, especially if you don't have family or close friends nearby who would help, but at some point, you have to make it happen sweetie, for you AND for your children.  You can also ask your doctor for some help with your situation.  Ask for a referral to therapy/social services.  There IS help out there.

Thinking of you.

[ROSYouralright]

I left you notes and tried checking on you. I was really worried about you! You will quit when you've had enough. Mary is right! I did the same thing to save money to"get out". If I had ten bucks I saved 2 if I had 100 I saved 30. I called it mad money and I think all women should have some!

[marycarmel]

The gods are telling me I'm writing to much by my comment posting without me hitting the post button!

Just to finish, coming clean with your doctor will allow him to figure out what's the best way to treat your pain.  When you work it all out, the rest of your troubles will be easier to deal with.  Don't jeopardize your relationship with this doctor.  Work together and get things in place and then work on either getting out of the abusive relationship or having family counseling to fix things.