I screwed up

[Catbob03]

I was 84 hours clean and messed up and took 2 vics. How much will this effect my detox?

[1dazedkitty]

You know what I think? Call it 96 hrs.  with a B+  What mark of time will be the next significant to you?  When you hit that unblemished your GPA goes back up to A+  You'll do it :)

[hiskidd]

It gets "gooder!" Hang in there!

[Catbob03]

I didn't even know I had them. They were in my work bag for migraine onset. I would have been 96 hour clean in 1 hour but I guess I can't say that any more huh?

[1dazedkitty]

I am barely in the middle of my third day. My emotions are unreal, I cry at the drop of a button, my head hurts, I can't sleep, the toilet and I have nearly become 1  :( my back wants to give out and I want to lie as still as a corpse all day and half the time wish I was one - what you did is NOT GONNA MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE THIS AGAIN!! Remember that S*&T? You don't wanna go there. believe me sweetie, you don't! And I don't want you to, and no one here wants you to.  We all wanna hear you bragging yur arse off next week about what it feels like to be a week clean so you can encourage all of us.  I know you can do it!

[ImDONENoMore]

It's not going to affect the withdrawal too much - as long as you got rid of the rest of your pills you're giving yourself a fighting chance here.  Why did you keep the pills around?  Believe me, it's NOT a good idea to hold onto access to the drugs.  You have to change everything - I think the saying is "nothing changes if NOTHING changes"

Now dust yourself off, get up and move forward.  You CAN do this.  :)

[Catbob03]

Today is the hardest day yet. I took 2 vics this morning and just 2 more now. Why am I such a screw up? I flushed the rest. I was just at about at 96 hours and I messed up. Am I going to have to go through all of this again and start over? Before today my last pill was Saturday night and I was getting so excited about reaching that one week point. Now what? What should I expect?

[Sam20111966]

Go forward----I screwed up several times in the last month and the guilt *****.....My focus was too hourly and daily.  It's not worth going thru this crap again.  Understand your fear I started my clock again on Saturday morning......Don't dwell on this however limit your screw ups it hurts everytime and eventually you will be back where you started if you lose focus.....Rock on...The mental ***** however you will get thru it I feel alot better even though I had a couple screw ups and am glad I now feel more true to the situation...

Sam

[Dav125]

It won't set you back to the beginning or anything like that..Just don't do it again..You've got a couple rough weeks ahead of you with sleep and anxiety issues cycling back and forth which will have your brain screaming "give me more!"..Just put this behind you and "no matter what" do not take anymore. Time is moving slow for you now but before you realize it, you will be 3 weeks down the road with the worst behind you....