I want to quit..

[cyndie122]

I really really want to quit....and I have tried to tapper off..with no success...You have no Idea how much I appreciate being able to just talk to someone about this..I feel alone all the time and I'm very affraid to say I AM ADDICTED TO MY PAIN MEDS. out loud to anyone I know. There are so many things going thru my head ALL the time...I'm affraid to loose my family, my job, going thru withdrawls....loosing my life...its making me depressed...yet I feel sooooo stupid that even with all this I just keep taking them....
I'v had times that I've ran out and because I'v borrowed so much from my husband he cant loan me anymore...that i'v gone thru the beginning of wothdrawls for a couple day...and swear to myself that I'm not going to do this agin...yet the day comes to get my refill and stupid me I go get it...to STOP FEELING THE WITHDRAWLS....and then the cycle starts all over...I dont understand myself at all....And I wish I could just go to sleep....wake up and have this all be over.....wish I could go back and tried something else for my pain....but even though I know thats impossible......I still wish it everyday

[Claire300]

Hi there,

I feel for you! It is a desperate feeling when you are trying to stop, but you are taking the first step by reaching out for help. This forum is a great place to get advice and encouragement to stop your addiction. You can do it!

Is your husband aware that you have a problem with pain meds?

[ochooked]

What is your DOC and how much are you taking?  Is your husband also ready to quit?  Keep reading and posting on this site --- it will help you enormously.    All the best.