IT'S BEEN A LONG YEAR..

[Ready2befree]

Well i'm back... Weed was NOT the answer.  I also found myself right back on tramadols.....now i'm 4 days clean and single because tramadols stole my life.  I now have done the ROXY/OXY route, the Subutex/Suboxone route... and now tramadols... i am done.  I am powerless over all these mind alterting substances and found myself enabling myself and making excuses.  Tramadol is the least and mild pain pill on the market.  I can't even do them! So because of all of this i will not go backwards and can't afford to get back on anything.  Apparently God or whoever controls us doesn't intend for me to be on anything even alcohol or weed.  So here we are after 20 strong years of substance abuse i am finished.  I have no clue what the word moderation even is and since i know that now i have to be done.  I don't trust myself to take 1 hit, 1 pill, 1 drink 1 anything because 1 ALWAYS multiplies.

As far as the detox stuff goes...Suboxone has far been the worse out of them all.  This tramadol stuff sucks but in any case the least of all of it!

If anyone is struggling with breaking free of this tramadol let me tell you what i did.

I was back up to 6-8 50mg pills daily.

I tapered myself down right off the bat to 3-4 and then about 3 days later 1.5 to 2 and every day after that i went half to half to quarters until finally just stopping.  Had i gone cold turkey i think it would have been much worse.  I can honestly say i feel again i'm not sweaty i'm actually going to sleep at 1030pm and waking up at 730am which is weird for me as the pill life kept me up latttteeeeee! Now i'm gonna spend the next 6 months working on me my body my heatlth and my relationships with people.  I'm not obviously ready to date again even though i really want a woman.  This time i'm gonna not jump the gun and fast trac anything.  Really need to figure this life crap out SUBSTANCE free once and for all.  Thanks for lettling me vent and share if anyone has any questions i'm around all day as these boards have really given me a lot of information power, and wisdom to do this again.  Have a great day.

[motye51]

You know....thats a really good statement....the road to recovery never ends.
Once you get there, get your feet under you and see how much better things can be, you're gonna be like WTF??? Why did i wait so long??? Not blowing smoke b/c it takes alot of hard work and homesty, but......its not boring, i still have a damn goid time (and i dont have to worry the next day who ive pissed off), and ive met some of the coolest people i know!
At the moment im still up making seafood gumbo for a gumbo cookoff we're having tomorrow with some other area n/a groups. There will be music, dancing, food (LOTS) and a good time with real friends. I really hope you jump into recovery with both feet....it is worth it!!!

[Ready2befree]

Well you're right.. I just tried the last avenue possible for a "buzz" and it failed miserably.  Apparently god wants me sober.  So now the journey begins to stay sober and stay away from any and all people places and things that enable substance abuse.  I will GOTO meetings as I find myself needing positive influences that enable recovery and being straight edge.  I live in Florida and let me tell you everyone that I come across drinks, smokes, or does drugs.  I'm currently in North Carolina as I took the step to get clean up here under my sisters care.  Man this tramadol stuff is so easy comparison to the Subs and Oxys.  Honestly guys I'm done... I throw in the towel.. white flag is up.  I give! Mercy

The road to recovery seems like a road that never ends.  I'm up for the challenge though.  Just gotta change my people places and things.  

So here's to new beginnings and fresh start! I wish you all well. Thank you for your responses!

STAY STRONG

[SarahOz]

Wow. What a post. What a great statement. People addicted to one thing going and trying another thing, need to read this.

[jifmoc]

Sounds like you finally accepted the unfortunate truth: we are totally powerless over this crap. I'm sure you'll notice that the folks on here who are still around,the ones w/ some significant sobriety are ALL in recovery. We cannot do it alone. Now is the time to get into aftercare. Meetings are what have done it for me. Keep posting.

[motye51]

I love reading this...........so just out of curiosity, what are you going to do for yourself to STAY clean.  Getting clean is actually the easy part..........staying clean is the hard part.  I would have NEVER believed that in the beginning. But I do now!

[Ashleyyyash]

I am on day 3, took Norco 10/325 for almost 6 years but the worst of it has been these past 2 years, I've spent all my money, relationships through the drain and I'm only 27 years old. I have a 7 year old and it's now affecting him financially. This is my first real attempt to stop for my self.. I always read these forums but was to embarrassed to post. Ive lost great jobs and opportunities from these pills. I'm feeling OK today not horrible but sneezing, pooping, rls, and no energy. :/ I have a slight headache but not as bad. Typically I withdrawal only when I run out I usually feel like I'm dying but this time doing it for myself has have me hope. I wanna buy cool stuff again, go out to eat fancy again, lol go on trips! I did this all before.

I wanna save money again! The only thing that has helped me is marijuana it's legal here I'm los Angeles it helps with my anxiety and a bit of pain but when it wears off I feel it man so it's hard but it helps. My boyfriend had me walking all day on day 2. He doesn't know so I had to put on a happy face but I was dying I got home and knocked out but I feel ok. Please share your stories I'm in need of hope.

[dominosarah]

Now is the time to get involved in aftercare.  Dont wait, just do it. You wont be sorry.