Day13 off of subs

[Kelly98_]

Okay well yesterday was worse but I slept again most of the night last night and alreay its 8:30 am and I've done a few chores and ate breakfast! Now I'm taking time out to write everyone! I wrote last night such an inspirational message to my aunt and she told me she has seen other notes I've posted on fb but really didn't believe them but this one gave her chills! She told me to hug myself everyday and tell myself I love me and then go hug my kids and tell them you love them and that your sorry so I did last night! Very emotional yesterday! Today I'm kinda overwhelmed with having to keep up on house work but its something to do I guess! I'm hiding out where I am right now so getting out to walk hasn't been an option I just jog in place! Still sneezing! Lol but I keep telling myself I've made it this far for the first time in my life I can keep pushing forward! Its certaintly not easy having very little energy with 4 kids ranging from teenagers to 8 yrs old! My son is 8 and he's a little spitfire! But they are healthy and I'm reagaining my health and I couldn't ask for more! I'm thankful god has helped me and all of you helped me make it this far! The truth hurts when I hear how long others have had to go till energy came back but I'm trying to think mine just might be back sooner cus I've never been one to sit still! Already I'm doing things so it can't be as bad I hope! But today is a good day tomorrow could be a struggle! Idk I keep thinking I'm just glad to feel anything again! Please pray for me I'm more than ready and I know I can do this I have to remain mentally strong! Have a great day everyone!

[Kelly98_]

Thanks Pamela! Well I'm happy because I have been trying to find rehabilitaion inpatient or out and at first wasn't having much luck but today after taking anothers advice on here I called my local e.r. and they told me to come in today and that they would evaluate me with a counselor then a doc and see if I need inpatient or out! I'm siked! Because my mother is going to help with the kids since she has a clean record and a great job and we've already enrolled my kids into boys and girls club! So were set to get me the right help I need right now! I am ready and I have god to thanks and all of u for the inspiration! Hope I can still post if I go inpatient! I'm off subs after 7yrs almost and total 13 yrs of abuse with opiates of all kinds! But I'm pulling trhough! So thanks everyone!

[CRSeaside]

Hi Kelly. You are the recipient of prayers prayed for you. Your light shines thru. Keep up the sobriety. You are amazing.    Pamela