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I'm back and worse than ever! Before I was only taking the dose I was suppose to but for the last 3 months, I've taken the whole script of 180 norco 10's in 2 weeks. I went threw withdrawals last month and it was horrible.  wHY would I do this again?  Last month I told my job I had the flu and took off 3 days and worked 2 half days. This time I have to work threw it and I keep telling myself this is what u get!  So I need your help & support because the person that help me last time thinks I'm still clean, and I can't tell them other wise......

willPower4me · Answer

Wondering how you made it to work in full blown withdrwals???

Icntkickit · Answer

THANK YOU! It's just not that easy. I hate the way I feel. I would love to tell my husband but....... I dont. I sit here all alone and make due. Thanks for caring and congrats!!

hiskidd · Answer

Hi. Why can't you tell the person that helped you? I'm SURE they will be patient and help you again. 

For what it's worth, I didn't think I'd be able to go through Oxy WDs (2nd time) until Christmas. I had a fourth baby that my wife was ready to deliver, and so much going on. Now, I'm on day 34. I do my best to manage my pain in other ways like the treadmill (for the endorphines), massage, accupuncture, etc.

Life is not easy, and I am learning that my biggest trigger is me adding to life's trials with some of my choices. This makes me want to disappear into "Pill Land." But the thought of wasting the clean time and going through WDs again makes me sick to my stomach.

I'll pray for you and you can message me anytime you need to "talk." Be encouraged!

David

Icntkickit · Answer

Haha! Thanks. I'm here? Still feeling blah but have worked all week? I just can't deal with my skin crawling. I'm hot and sweating on minute and freezing the next. I got some 5htp tonight hoping it helps a lil. Thanks for the thoughts and concern. I really need them. So are you coming off of Something or?

Slim_Shady · Answer

Oh, didn't see you. Glad to see you're hanging in there.

Slim_Shady · Answer

I've been following your story icntkickit, and to be honest, I'm a little concerned for you because u haven't posted in 4 days. I personally know that these are the worst days. I really hope you're hanging in there.

Icntkickit · Answer

Hi all sorry Internet been broke! I still feel blah but pushing through. Thanks everyone. Hope all is okay!

singledad476 · Answer

I don't see how you are doing it. There is no way I could work like that, which is why I had to wait until I was in between jobs to withdrawal. But you'll be okay, I'm going through Day Three myself, and have a job interview later on as well. Your work ethics are outstanding though, I can't imagine having to work while withdrawing. During my Day One: Hydrocodone Withdrawal post, I listed some things that I bought before detoxing....they helped TREMENDOUSLY. And now on Day Three, I'm feeling much much better. I did the same thing you did though. After my first attempt, I went crazy with them, and took at least 10 a day...just to feel normal. You need to cancel your prescription this time. Don't allow yourself the chance...you know.

freshstart01 · Answer

How is it going?

Innerstrength67 · Answer

Thank you for your honesty!!! Your not alone! I thought detoxing in a hospital would do it for me but 4 months later I'm in the throws of the addiction again. Hang in there. I will do the same and one day in the near future we will both be saying we have 30, 40, 50 days....

Tattoo67 · Answer

Hang in there.  I am new and working on a tapper right now so I can get off this stuff once and for all.  I have tried in the past putting a few days togehter here and there.  But this is the first time I really feel like I want to quit.  I have cut ties with my supliers and I am stick to my plan as best I can.  Just try to take this one day (or as in my case) one hour at a time.  Life can only get better once we clear the toughest part, which for me was making a commitment to quit.  Best of luck to you and keep posting.

freshstart01 · Answer

How are you managing at work? Are you really sick? Or was it minor usage with minor withdrawals? Try to focus on something else. Something positive , the end result. The light. I am fighting this too at work. IRS hard. Not withdrwals, maybe minor, but more mentally. Good luck .

LeaAnn807 · Answer

Hi.....you can definitely do it this time.  You have to do whatever it takes to get and stay clean though.  It's so hard to imagine, but the WDs are just the beginning and really, to me, it's the easy part.  There are so many days that you will have a hard time saying no to the cravings and the pull of drugs if you don't have some kind of support system in place.  There is nothing I wouldn't do to stay clean right now!  

Good luck!

ladywithtime · Answer

i just wanted to tell you that i'm thinking of you and sending you a Prayer to get you through this week!

i know you don't want to tell anyone, as you're ashamed, but we addicts need support! is there anyone you can confide in? i had a habit similar to yours and i know how hard it can be but i needed lots of support..so please don't be ashamed. i started my detox back in nov.10' and it's now aug. but i am now 28 days clean. my point being--it took me a long time and lots of relapses and even a stint in a psychward/rehab before i was soo sick of the life i was leading! 

in order to conquer this you need aftercare and a support system. took me a very long time to realize that MY WAY of doing this simply wasn't working...so i got a counselor who specializes in addiction and i'm attending Church again and it feels GREAT! during my darkest hours, i Prayed and called out to Jesus to give me the strength i needed to get through this. He delivered!

at 28 days, i don't wake up dope sick, i'm not spending all my money and i have a clear head--priceless! please take care of yourself and please reach out to others and most of all Pray for deliverence from addiction! YOU CAN DO THIS! God Bless.

Icntkickit · Answer

Thanks laurel453!!! I needed that this am. Headed to work and I'm in full blown WD!

laurel453 · Answer

Hi , welcome back, Icant :) .... yes, do something different and work on your recovery, you deserve a better life and of course you can do it. Ask for help, go to therapy, whatever but never, never give up !

ImDONENoMore · Answer

I think you can google "aa or na" and the name of your city and state and that should pull up some info for you.

Icntkickit · Answer

I'm trying to find an AA around me bc after a week of no use, I'm gonna need it. How do I find one?

dominosarah · Answer

Glad to see you back, wish it was under different circumstances.  What are you going to do differently this time?  Did you have any aftercare last time?  We cant get lazy with this addiction as this is what happens.  You know you can do this so make you the No1 priority and do whatever it takes to get and stay clean.  We are here to support you so keep posting.     sara

Icntkickit · Answer

Oh I'm gonna keep trying? Every time I would take one I'd be like why I hate the feeling they give me? Keep up the good work yourself., it's a tough battle but we can do it

mamasharon · Answer

i was afraid of that also,but yesterday 120 percs came from my pharmacy ,i gave them to my husband ask him please keep them away from me.........i'm on day 3 no percs!!!!!!! no much to brag about but to me its awesome still feeling crappy but i can do this .and i think if that person helped u before they will again hear its normal sometimes to backslide but please keep trying.