I'm not Gonna Lie I'm getting Sick Of This ****

[Vicotram]

It's been 40 day's and it's gotten better the depression is really up and down and its' really starting to **** with me sleep is so little I have tried everything that  i can think of  and I have takin RX sleeping meds that dont work been sleeping about 2-3 hours per nite. In my mind I keep thinking I rather take the pills and sleep and kick this depressions ***, i just don't know how much fight i got left in me i'm seriously at the end of the rope this **** *****.

[gizzy32]

Well you said it has gotten better so that is a start right? I know it seems like a slow process and it gets frustrating, but you have come so far now, 40 days man and sign of improvement. Did the melatonin not work for you? Lack of sleep can cause problems and if i was going on 2-3 hours like you i would be depressed and want to punch everyone out, lol. Hang in there man, you have done so well and it has got a bit better.

[Vicotram]

yea I guess a ****** day 40 is better than a ****** day 1. I am all to familiar with the nyquell bomb thats the oldest trick in the book lol I try not to do it to often.

[grimgirl]

Hi ......PLEASE hang in there....you don't want to give up now...trust me..I did and now I'm trying to gear up physically and mentally...ONCE again to start ALL OVER.  I think you are AWESOME to have 40 days into this!!!!! (I've never made it that long) I wish it were me.  You really don't want to be typing this same message that I'm sending you to someone else who is having a bad day 40...do you?  I KNOW you don't....so hang in there... I have also tried NyQuil in the past and it did help.  I would only take one dose before bed for approx. 5 nights straight...and after that only if I really needed it....maybe worth a try....Good Luck and my thoughts and prayers are with you....I'm pulling for ya....xxooMarie

[botchedup]

Hey:)  I'm with you about the anti'd/s however, chemically, maybe a short stint with celexa (3-6 mo.) would help get things up and running for you.  I'm SO not into ssri's but I did one time between surgeries for a 4 month period.  It took about a week (unlike othersthat take 2-4wks)for me to feel lifting and better energy.  I took it for 16 weeks.  I stopped taking it because it had done it's job.  The last two wks being a taper.  I didn't w/d or feel anything really.  serotonin needs itself to keep regenerating.  Maybe consider a low dose for a short period?? My doctor agreed that I did not have actual emotional/mental depression but physical/chemical depression from opioids and withdrawal.  In summary,  it worked.  ive never had to take it again, it should not be combined with mu opioids like tramadol, and once my serotonin levels were boosted and back up to normal levels, I've had good energy ever since.  If you feel so strongly that ssri is not for you, check out a drug called Provigil/Modafinil.  If you don't have high bp, your doctor will probably give it to you.  Altho, it is WICKED EXPENSIVE!  if your insurance doesn't cover.  Good luck,,,,you've make it over the hump,,,,please don't turn back, the pills will only give you energy for a week or so and you'll be back to the same old same old. ps, OTC and rx sleep aids never did squat for me either.  They do not help you reach the REM stage of sleep that heals and regenerates.  Good old fashined daily activity, no nappin, no lounging,  establishing waking/wind down routines, and stay away from that bike after 3pm.  :)  Give yourself a long term goal.  you've been making it day by day (over the acute phase) and now comes the long haul.  If you can snuggle down, stay warm, and baby yourself for a season, spring and summer will be all yours!!!

[broknbck]

Am sorry to hear that you are still not feeling so great. i am sure that must be a little discouraging. but, do not give up now. you have come so far and worked so hard for it. you know others have gotten there and you can too. Keep that image of well being and feeling at all times.

i am surprised that the aminos are not making a difference. i can tell on a daily basis if i do not take my l-glutanate. you know that just because we take all these supplements does not mean that our body will absorb them. if our digestive is in bad shape, there is a good chance that it won't. have you ever done a detox or good cleansing program. also adding the probiotics (good bacteria) helps our bodies to assimilate and absorb all that we put into it.

we are all so proud of you and how far you have come!

[HelpinUtah]

I understand hun, I'm in the same boat today.  But, stay strong.  You have done so well!!!  

Have you tried Melatonin?  It works for me.  

Good luck and God bless you!!!

[Vicotram]

I guess it's just more time, I take the entire amino list I printed it out and took it to the GNC, I have been riding my bike I take no Anit'D and am/was trying not to thanks guys it's been a tough few days.

[worried878]

sounds like u have come too far to run back now..do u really want to?  this wont be easier the next time and u r getting so close to the depression lifting and ur brain healing somewhat enuf to think more clearly....have u tried everything u can for sleep/talked to ur doctor about it?  some anti-depressants can actually interfere with sleep for some people...others help with sleep..everyone is different...elavil always helped me even at a low dose and it is not habit forming...be sure u try every avenue as i know without sleep, recovery is hard...exercise can lift depression as well....what is your daikly routine as far as supps, ADs and exercise?

[aneyla1124]

you have gone this far... keep fighting and never give up. You will win at the end. I take nyquil and that seems to help me when i can't sleep.( i just take the regular adult dose, just not every night.. don't want to get a new addiction) Sleeping pills have never worked for me. Try what avisg said about taking supplements and excersing. Maybe that's what your body needs to get thru this. take care.. and don't give up fighting!

[avisg]

The first few months are still so up and down and some days really s u c K .Are you exercising at all or taking any supplements . Recovery care can really help alot right now the first 90 days for name is when I needed the most help.good luck.

[corey411]

Doc put me on Celexa and am getting at least 7 hrs/night from day 1-8. Had been on it from previous wd. Took about a week to kick in. Helps with the depression too. Corey

[cathy5841]

i soo understand what you are saying.  sleep was the last thing to return for me and it was months...sorry to say but thats the truth.  with 40 days clean you really cant turn back now....have youtried the sleepy nightime teas.....they help some....but i honestly would take 4 oor 5 benadryl when it got really bad...i am not saying for you to do that i just want you to know you are not alone..i have been there.