help with heroin addiction

[tempted622]

I was shooting a bundle of H per day. I decided to quit by going to live with relatives in another state. I bought 10 subs on the street and left. They worked well and I felt fine, not even high but normal for the first time in a long time. But now that theyre gone I feel so depressed I want to die. I don't have insurance and very little money. Is there any way to get suboxins without insurance and very little money?

[witchery]

Good luck tempted622!

I got depression too...Are you prescribed with any anti-depressants?  If so, take them.. :D

As for the sub part..I'm not sure how they do it in you country...But here in Oz, it's quite cheap..All you have to do is see a doctor and you pay about $5-8 AUD dollars per day or per week, month for cheaper deal..

Keep writing and good luck!

Also moving to a different state means you are dedicated to quit...That's a brave move! Congrats!

[tempted622]

Thanks, you have no idea how much it helps to hear thsi because since i cant tell anyone about my problem it makes me feel like a liar. so it helps to be honest with someone and I keep trying to convince myself of the exact thing you said- that this momentary pain pales in comparison to the happiness that will come in the future. Good luck to you too and thanks again.

[10356]

Congratulations on finishing up on you phd !! and a Book.. This is something to be very proud of and your child.. deserves a Heroin free parent as does the career you have worked so hard for.. I very pleased to hear you have strong moments.. when feeling down. get yourself out and distract yourself.. the life you are building for you and your child... certainly has no room for Heroin.. Our minds as you know are powerful tools and when used to back a firm decision.. we can make the impossible happen.. Sounds like you are on your way to Happiness and Success.. the time spent now fighting this.. pales to what life will offer you clean.. Congrats again..

[tempted622]

Yeah, I've been going back and forth between extreme depression and moments where I feel strong. Even though I'm a heroin addict I am on the verge of finishing my phd and everyone thinks I am a sucess even though inside I am dying of pain and I def dont have any money. If it wern't for the book  I'm writing and my child I wouldn't have anything to distract myself. I've only been off the sub for 48 hours. I keep trying to tell myself that if I could quit the H then I've done the hardest part but it really helps to hear your advice because its so true. If i focus hard enough on other things I can beat these feelings.

[jess8487]

Hi tempted. I just started on suboxone treatment wednesday so i have taken it for 3 days now..Like you say it is WONDERFUL! a life saver if you will,,That is the good news..Here is the bad news..I live in LA and in order for the Dr to even look @ me I had to bring the clinic 140.00 dollars..He seen me and then gave me 3 pills to get through the night to see how I did on 8mg..3 pills cost me approc. 30 dollars..He wanted me to come back in the next morning to discuss if the dosing helped or not. That visit was 70 dollars, not including the 30 pills he prescribed me that cost 179.00 dollars..My next visit is in 2 weeks.It will cost me 140.00 dollars, and then another 179.00 for the Suboxxone..then I will have to go monthly after that and the rest of the visits are 70 dollars a month// So in the 1st 3 weeks of treatment w/out insurance cost me 738.00 dollars..So yeah it is not cheap, at least not in Louisiana..The treatment is worth the money to me though, So I wish you the Best of Luck!

[10356]

Hello and welcome to the forum.. Good for you that you made the move.. I also had moved from the town I lived in.. How long have you been off the sub now ? We all deal with depression when coming off our doc.. You can by Valerian root this is inexpensive and helps with anxiety and depression.. but what I have found the most helpful was finding something to do with myself.. getting out and walking going for drives and taking my dogs out a lot.. I picked up photography also to fill the void.. it has been very beneficial.. we tend to close ourselves in when what we should be doing is forcing ourselves out and getting back involved in life.. I have never taken sub and do not know if they have clinics that offer a sliding scale.. but you sure set yourself up for success.. now you just need to follow through with changing behaviors.. I wish you well and force yourself out.. I'm sure there are things you enjoyed before the H stole them from you.. rediscover what brings you joy and keep your eye on the goal.. Be kind to yourself.. lesa