please help i think i am addicted to prescription pills

[angela328]

I dont know where to start. i think i am addicted to prescription diet pills (didrex). i think i've had a problem with pills for a long time but it has never been so out of control, when i'm not taking the diet pills i am eating handfuls of benzos in order to sleep. i go to different doctors and "weight loss clinics" near where i live and lie to get the pills, i dont take them for the weight loss i take them  to get high and i know it. i'm spending hundreds of dollars on these pills, paying for them all in cash so my family cant track what i'm doing and so no one knows how many doctors i am seeing.  i am so ashamed of what i am doing, i lie, i cheat, i steal, i hurt people, i manipulate, and all i can think about is the pills. i have thought about going to counseling, and i have looked up counselors online but am afriad to call mostly because i know that if i ask for help they're going to tell me i have to stop taking the pills and i cant imagine living without them. i dont know what to do. i hate what im doing but i dont know how to stop, i have been taking them for so many years i dont know what life is like with out them. please help me, i don't know what to do, i just know i need help. i want to cry, i feel so out of control and hopeless, and i am so scared to tell anyone. please help me.

[dominosarah]

I cant really add anything to the all the great advice you have been given except to say make that call to a counselor.....You are worth it~~~~~~sara

[worried878]

addiction is very scary...loss of control is very scary and that is what addiction is..u r not alone...but this doesnt get better...only worse..so reaching out//letting go now is smart//if u can hang onto that thought
one thing u will need to do is let these clinics know u do not want anymore//i do know they r money making places so they will give them to u til they kill u.///only u can stop this...cutting off supply is important

amphetamines r very mentally addicting//similar to cocaine..or c-meth/.//not alot of physical associated...but the mental part is the torture even for narc users//altho we r very afraid of the physical aspect..it is the mental aspect that does most narc addicts in

seeking support//as a benzo or narc or amphetamine..or an alcoholic does///is the naswer//will power and a plan..we r all substance abusers..and out DOC controls us..taking contol back is work....keep posting

[LateAugust]

I am sorry you feel so sad and afraid......  and yes those drugs.........  you don't want or need them in your life any longer.  It is a first step to admit your struggle and pain here,  which is huge!   Good for you!  however, you really need to find just one of the doctors you are seeing and be honest.....  or confide in a friend or a family member, that you are way over your head and need help in getting this all figured out, regarding addiction and how you have been living the past few years.    You betcha dear, just as you are afraid a counselor will tell you need to stop taking the pills, even me, a person on a web-site will say the same thing.  But the most important part of recovery is when YOU know it is time to stop, all of it, the drugs, the lies, the manipulation.... it all goes hand in hand, sadly it only gets worse.

You want to stop,  so please do so and put your life on a healthy path.......  if you didn't want to live your life differently , I doubt you would have posted.  Please seek help tomorrow.....  dont wait one more day......buck it up, and yes it will be hard to admit to all the misconceptions, but I can promice you this....  you will feel more confidence by doing so, than you have since you starting abusing and using drugs as a crutch...  addiction takes so much away from all of us.      But you can stop that NOW  by being honest and seeking the help you need.    

Please know I only want for you to get the help you need,  and to be honest with those that love you,   you are so close   please  continue to reach out and take the help that is offered with love and the help you need for your life.  My best to you,,,,,,,

[Greatgreebo]

For the benzos you need to TAPER. Stopping cold turkey may cause serious problems. For the diet pills you can stop CT. Going to dif. doctors is called doctor shopping. Lying to get pills and taking handfuls are all signs of being an addict.
You CAN live without the pills.......it's your addiction talking to you when you think you can't do it. Rage against that machine. Get a counselor. Stop the drugs. Stop the self loathing. We've all been there-trust me.
You've told us about the problem and that is a great first step. Call a counselor and stop the diet pills. Talk to the counselor about a taper plan for the benzos. This is no way to live!!
Great job on taking the first step to getting your life back. Things pretty much suck right now, correct? So why be afraid of living without the pills-things will only be better.
Stay strong.
Keep posting.
Talk to a counselor.
You CAN do this. Don't be afraid. Grab life by the b@lls and do what you need to do!
Get your life back, you are worth it!!
Greebs