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Im so over this please help!!!

I have been addicted to all pain meds for about 7 years and I am only 22 years old. I have no excuses or justifications. I can tel you all how I got there but thats the same ol typical story. Up until recently I micro managed my tolerance only taking the bare minimum and occasionally getting high on the weekends. Since November I have been super out of control and I am so over it! I cant do this anymore I cant afford this. I am ready to get off of them for good. I am a full time college student and I have a kid and work. I am your class a functioning addict which makes this even more difficult. I dont nod out, steal, slur, ramble or any of that type of typical pill head behavior. I just want to get off for good. Currently I am taking roxys. I have spent over $100.00 in the past few days and I am so angry and bitter at myself. I have lost control for real this time and I need so advice. I have 1.5 30 mg roxis and 5 mgs of methadone. How can I utilize what I have to get through the withdrawal as best as possible and where can I go from there?? Please guys help me, I need to do this and fast, and I cant afford to miss class or work so I have absolutely no way of sleeping through this.PLEASE HELP ME PLEASE!!!!
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401095 tn?1351391770
i wouold trash the roxies..unless u think they can help///they may make u want more//u did not state ur dose each day...100 bux would be perhpas 30-40 mgs a day>>>??? do-able for sure
u have come farther than u think..cos u know this is a dead end street...yet u r reaching for pills to get u out of the mess pills got u into...may work..dunno

support is important..and i am sorry there is no easy way out once u abuse and become addicted...it can be ahard road to recovery wihtout relapse..and u gotta do the work u need to do to stay clean...seems u r very afraid of physical wds//as r most me included///but this will last a week or less///dont panic//make a plan and read the health pages..post here..and find some aftercare in real person...relapse is common after physical wds...focusing only on the physical stuff is normal///but remeber to take care of urself

keep posting
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Well I have done this before and the withdrawal has been so bad. I have been taking anywhere from 50 to 90 mgs a day which for me is soo extreme. I have been doing this for a few months now. It makes it easier to stay up and do all my homework and what not. I have never gone through wd while keeping a schedule. I just did it with benadryl sleeping as much of it as possible away. The hardest part for me is the restless legs they become so unbearble that I can hardly get out of bed. I just dont know what it will be like trying to work and attend my classes while in that shape. Methadone wd was about 8 days the middle four being the worst.
i was only taking 20 -30 max then. I have a few people out here that i can go to. I just need some private support thats open 24/7 lol...
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Oh Sweetheart, your post broke my heart.... I am the mom of an oxy addict, or she  was....  I can read the desperation in your words and I wish I had a magic answer for you...  I don't, because there isn't one... our family went thru a lot of rehabs and treatments for our daughter.......  I am not saying that you can't overcome this with a lot of hard work and a strong support of on going after care group IE AA, NA, IOP, counseling.   you can and with your determination you will....  but you still need help honey...aftercare, and  if you have people in your life that you trust unconditionally, please let them assist you, by caring for your child, or giving you a big hug when you need one..   and more than you may know, them  not judging you, rather wanting to help you get back to a non destructive life... because they love you..     Please let me/us know how you are doing....  I am always a keystroke away if you need or want to talk.  Love to you.......  
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401095 tn?1351391770
Private support sounds so incognito...but in reality u r not really not accountable here..u can slip away and no one will call u on it..so many copme and go here..u need real life support

r u active?  the dose u describe is not usually an RLS dose..and u r young...rls is usually at much higher doses and for much longer than 4 mth escalation in dose...be sure ur mind is where it needs to be...not paralyzed with fear...cos it will stop u in ur trax...90% of this is upstairs..hiding doesnt get u anywahere..cept failing to get the support u need...u r not a loser//u have a problem//a disease//and u need to get the help u need

BTW...100 bux for 50-90 mgs a day for 3 days is dirt cheap!  number one on my list right now would be to eradicate this cheap pill source from my life...but that is me...keep posting
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There was a pharmacy intercept or something insane like that, roxys are every where every single person has them or can get them, no cets or tabs can even be located rite now. you can buy 2 roxys for 15 dollars and I have had a few given to me for gas etc. I am being 100% honest about RLS its the worst part I can feel it creeping in withing 8 hours of last dose. It is truly the hardest part for me. I am not extremely active I spend most of my time in transit. Like I said I am a full time college student and I work a variety of schedules for my job as well as being a wife and mother. I am planning on getting through the day tomorrow, then taking monday off work. I wont have to return till friday and just roughing it through class if I can. I have never missed a college class in my life. So if I have to miss one i think it will be ok. I just have to get through this quickly. My fear isnt really the wd its the wd interfering with my life. I know that sounds crazy but I cant afford to get behind in school or lose my job.
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401095 tn?1351391770
u cant afford to let ur addiction progree either...ur job and ur family will be long gone if u continue..may take a while..but there is no such thing for most as using less and being responsible with their DOC..it only gets worse
Ur expectations of doing this Quick and fast...easiily with no interference with ur life...may sound good..and i hope for ur sake this is possible..keep us posted on how u do...do not resort to a maintenence narcotic to make this easy if u can avoid it///many who crave the easy way out end up on these....then u r stuck on another narcotic//avoiding wds on and on and on...using catches up with us...one way or another..perhaps u will figure out a way to get clean and stay clean without much sweat..I hope so...be safe in the process
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