Is it "normal" to feel like a zombie?

[AZKathy]

I've posted other questions here, and you guys have been so helpful.  I'm now on my 9th day of cold turkey w/d from 210 mg/day oxycontin and 40mg/day percocet (prescribed).  

Something I didn't mention before, I'm 60 years old and weigh only 80 lbs - normal weight should be about 105.

Questions are, I'm so low on energy it's hard to do anything, except get up and pace the floors.  Do you think that a rehab program of some sort would be of any benefit, or should I just keep on sticking it out?

By the way, I haven't lost any more weight since going cold turkey, but know that the inability to gain my weight back was because of the drugs I was taking.

I find myself wishing I had those drugs again just so I wouldn't feel so awful, but haven't yet and will not get any more of them, though means are probably available.

I'm just so tired of feeling like this.... any suggestions?

[AZKathy]

This has been day  14 clean,, and for some reason the worst of my days so far.  Started off bad by waking up at 4am, anxiety all day, felt like red ants crawling up and down arms, difficulty breathing.  Hoping and praying that I'll get a good night's sleep tonight and that tomorrow will be a much brighter day.

[AZKathy]

I've gotta commend you on all the weight u  were able to put on, James.  I had to go and look up the conversion factor for pounds/stones to see how much you actually gained. 10 stones - 140 lbs., 13 - 182 lbs., and 14 is 196 lbs.... kazow!  You've done fantastic, and I hope I put on (errrr.... almost) much weight as you did!

Good for u, James & thanks for the kind words!

[AZKathy]

You guys won't believe the great pcp I've got. I've called a two whole times today, both about different issues,and was told that if I called one more time I'd be cancelled.

Anyone ever heard of such a thing?

I was asking first about getting my diazepam refilled; then about prescribing a non-narcotic pain medicine.  What did I do Wrong?

[stilltrying1965]

Hi Kathy you are doing an awesome job. I would just like to tell ya this. When i was taking heroin i was 14 stones after a month i was 10 stones i went cold turkey the same as you and i congradulate you for doing it that way as its so hard. Anyway im over 100 days clean and now weigh 13/half stones. My wife is never out the supermarket as soon as the freezer is full i empty it again LOL. As for the pain Kathy i would take Sara,s advice and ask or a none narcotic pain releif  But you just do what you think is best for you. I wish you well and i also wish you all the luck in the world. Good luck to ya Kathy ,,,,,,James

[dominosarah]

Let us know what you find out okay??

[AZKathy]

I did, since I had to call on text relay (nearly deaf) I had them mark it ASAP, and told them the pain was horrible... thanks!

[dominosarah]

When you call tell them this is VERY IMPORTANT too.

[AZKathy]

GREAT idea, sarah, I'm gonna try... thanks!

[dominosarah]

Is there any way you can get ahold of your doctor today and ask for something that is non narcotic.   Your pain is wearing you down now and that takes a huge emotional toll on us.  The fog feeling is normal and that will subside....I wish i had some better answers for you.  Just know that i am here and am sending you a ton of strength~~~~~~~~sara

[AZKathy]

Well, it's the beginning of day 14, and I'm wondering how long this whole process of getting clean is going to take.

I woke up at 4am this morning and couldn't get back to sleep.  Well, I went to bed about 9 last night because I was just plain exhausted (and did nothing much all day).

I really need some emotional support.  AND PHYSICAL!  My head and neck are hurting like hell, and I'm really missing those little red pills.  I also found out that my appt. with the traction machine isn't until Weds., when I thought it was today.

Other than that... the usual... feeling VERY foggy (misplaced by bank card) and got it cancelled when I only wanted a duplicate.... the runs, as always....anxiety, ohhh the anxiety!

Any & all support is appreciated... I can use all the help I can get right now.

[AZKathy]

cuz of RLS, my legs are doin the "happy dance"... they're way ahead of the rest of me

[dominosarah]

LMAO!!!

[AZKathy]

u guys b smokin or drinkin too much... pass it pleeze!  LOL

[dominosarah]

Usually i do my happy dancing with just my nail polish on!!!  Hope you dont mind!!!!!!!!  LOL

[IBKleen]

Ata girl Kathy! We are trying to make you smile. I know you are hurting honey and I feel so bad. Just think, in less than 24 hours you will be having some relief.

[AZKathy]

ok, i'll try ta dance along......

[dominosarah]

I could be the back up singer for IBK!!!  I can really shake my stuff too so would be willing to entertain you and take your mind off what is ailing you......Just a suggestion!!!!       sara

[IBKleen]

I can imagine. Is there anything you like to do to get your mind of it for a while?

[AZKathy]

It's gonna happen, as a matter of fact, sposed to have an appt with a traction machine tomorrow.... just trying to get thru today is bad tho.

[IBKleen]

Hi Kathy,

I could dance and sing but I fear you would leave and never return! LOL

Listen lady, no one said that you had to go through this with pain. So, get on the horn in the a.m., first thing, and call your doctor. There are other things he can prescribe. Tell him you are in terrible pain and ask what else he suggests. For example, there are nerve block injections, epidural injections, cortizone injections, accupuncture, aqua therapy, physical therapy..and so much more.

Please just try and hang in there for tonight. Insist that the receptionist get you through to the doctor first thing.

And if it really gets bad, I WILL sing! Keep talking, it does help.

[AZKathy]

I need a little, no, i need a LOT of support....

day 13 cold turkey from oxys, 210mg & percs., 40mg, and this is about the lowest I've gone....
terrible head/neck pain (took 800mg Advil, no help) also tried ibuprofen, no help... RLS, sneezing, running to bathroom, just horrible physical and emotional attitude.  if i had an oxy i admit, i'd take it w/o thinking twice and go thru all the w/ds all over again.

can anyone help with a little uplift?  appreciate it.

[dominosarah]

I wish i could make you feel better Kathy......I am sending you a ton of strength and a big BIG hug your way.......Congrats on 13 days!!!  That really is great!!!        sara

[AZKathy]

It's the beginning of day 13 and I feel like hell.  My head and neck hurt so bad.  Took some advil, but it hasn't helped yet.  Don't know if I can do this, but I'm stuck here without any narcos so just have to tough it out.

[dominosarah]

When our body is lacking food it gets rather angry.  You will feel so much better after you eat till your hearts content!!!