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It's 1pm
It's now 1pm and I still havent taken any more.....(sence 7am) I'm deffinatly feeling it. It's 87 degrees here yet im freezing cold & sweating at the same time....my body is killing me everywhere...my skin hurts...my hair even hurts. I havent eaten today because I feel sick to my stomach....lots of water tho.... I cant get enough to drink. I have no energy...not much sllep last night..about 3 hours or so. but yet I cant sleep. hurts to sit up hurts to lay down. I cant take anymore right now. I just keep saying it to myself Being here right now is keeping me occupied and helping me stay focused..on the task at hand and trust me it is deffinatly a task.
Well I did it agin...took 5 more so now I'm up to 13 aging today whitch is still much less than normal 4 me. I held out for a really long time today...I even tried to take some soma instead to hopefully relax me but to no avail.......I now have 2 norco and 5 vics left......little bit panicy.....hey does anyone have an opinion on maybe stepping down from norco to vic 750? and then down to vic.5? has anyone went this rout? Anyway I hope you all are doing well tonight....all my love and best wishes to all of you....and If anyone needs to talk I'm deffinatly here...I consider this my new family.......so good thing is last 2 days I'v dropped down from 15-25 (i thought it was 20 but NO) to 13 both days....I think thats progress...no matter how little, right?. Dont know what I'm gonna do tomorrow...but even tho it's sick I still think If I try taking 2 b4 work then 2 at lunch I can force myself thru no matter how painfull. I cant borrow from my husband anymore...I'v asked him not to loan me anymore even if I beg..plus I already owe him 40, so thats not gonna happen .and I refuse to spend another dime on the street Rx.plus I'm in debt from that already...soooo no no no....
Hello Cyndi , I`m Jim and i`m on day 50 and feeling great ! You can do this and we will SUPPORT you . I know how rough it is now but each day will bring you closer to having your life back . There is almost always someone here for support . We all will help you as we are a pretty close network of friends here . Stay strong and we are here . Take care Jim
You should be proud everytime you are able to not take your pills, so good for you for going 8 hours. It's a great start! Getting off these pills is hard, we all know that. No one here is going to judge you. You can do it!
When I knew I had to go throug w/d to start suboxone I loaded up on clonidine and clonazepam along with weaning off. I didn't feel that bad and trust me I know how bad it can be.
A trend downward is something to be proud of...for your to go CT from 20/day to 0, is, i would imagine, HORRIBLE...taper down...like you're doing. go to the Trackers tab on the top right and keep track of how many you are taking...it will really help!!!
I just now realized when I was done posting that I have been taking more than I actually thought I was taking a day....I just took 2 right now....the w/d was overwhelming ....I wanted the 5 I took this morning to last me all day...I should have known better...the 2 havent kicked in yet...and I dont want to take more....I did actually last 8 full hours on those 5 even if it was such a struggle...I dont really know weather to be proud of that or discusted at it...:-(
Wow taking 20-25 pills a day and trying to cut down is rough. If you arent/cant do c/t then I would do a taper plan. Drop by a pill a day to get to 15, then 1/2 every other day or so.. something like that.
Thats what I ment by weaning off I am trying to tapper off....My med. day would normally look something like this.....wake up at 6-7am take 5 norcos. Get ready for work...(takes about 30 min or so) then take 2 more pills....leave go to work there for about 4 hours...at break time teke 3-5 more pills....that usually gets me thru the rest of the work day....
get home around 630 pm...take a shower start dinner....take 5 more pills......then sit with my husband watch tv.....(last month or so thinking about how messed up I am & need to quit) then usually about 11pm or so everyone else is asleep and I end up taking 3-5 more pills......then lay in bed till 2 or 3 in the am....contantly thinkin about the situation I'v gotten myself into......dose off...wake up and do it all over agin....so yesterday I managed to force myself to take no more than 13 for the whole day and night....and this morning I took 5.........right now I'm getting really sick....every single thing hurts......and I dont want to hear anyones voice because I have a huge headache....
get home around 630 pm...take a shower start dinner....take 5 more pills......then sit with my husband watch tv.....(last month or so thinking about how messed up I am & need to quit) then usually about 11pm or so everyone else is asleep and I end up taking 3-5 more pills......then lay in bed till 2 or 3 in the am....contantly thinkin about the situation I'v gotten myself into......dose off...wake up and do it all over agin....so yesterday I managed to force myself to take no more than 13 for the whole day and night....and this morning I took 5.........right now I'm getting really sick....every single thing hurts......and I dont want to hear anyones voice because I have a huge headache....
Cyndie:
If you are weaning yourself off - how are you doing it? I would suggest you taper it throughout the day rather than all of it at one time in the morning. If you are going to do it that way than I would think you might as well go cold turkey. Can you speak with your doctor about a weaning off plan?
I think tappering off is okay to do if you can be strong enough to do that. Some people can't! But if you can do it, then it will make your withdrawals easier - but won't take them completely away.
Good luck hun and keep coming back for support! You CAN do this!!!!
If you are weaning yourself off - how are you doing it? I would suggest you taper it throughout the day rather than all of it at one time in the morning. If you are going to do it that way than I would think you might as well go cold turkey. Can you speak with your doctor about a weaning off plan?
I think tappering off is okay to do if you can be strong enough to do that. Some people can't! But if you can do it, then it will make your withdrawals easier - but won't take them completely away.
Good luck hun and keep coming back for support! You CAN do this!!!!
I have created a goal today....this is it....i'm weaning off. My hope is to be completly off within 90 days. To go in the next 90 days from taking 20 a day to taking 0. I just started yesterday and its rough already. but I thing that once I get use to taking fewer ea. time I'll be ok ( I hope) I'v said in my head I dont want to do thins anymore before...but never taken the action steps to get there....As I was telling you all yesterdaymy parents have been in AA for over 20 years and I know I can get there support, BUT I'm affaid to tell them...I'm affraid nobody will support my tapper off method and expect me to just go c/t and I dont think I can do that. Exspecially having to go to work, take care of the house and the kids, and my oldest daughter just moved back into my house with my grandaughter (she's in the middle of a divorce) witch is more stress. soooooo I'm here talking to others with Rx addiction that understand where I'm at right now in my addiction and where I'm trying to get...I am open to any advise I can get......and thank you...all of you for your support of me ....I really need it
Cyndie!!!!
Awesome job! I know this is very difficult, but keep it up and forget you have those pills or even empty the bottle unless you want to wean down. But, if no weaning then, get rid of them. Having the temptation there might be too much! Either way, I believe in you and you'll do it!!!! Just keep strong!!!!!
Awesome job! I know this is very difficult, but keep it up and forget you have those pills or even empty the bottle unless you want to wean down. But, if no weaning then, get rid of them. Having the temptation there might be too much! Either way, I believe in you and you'll do it!!!! Just keep strong!!!!!
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