Its RACE DAY!!

[oxysbliss]

I know Im a strange girl, Nascar, Wrestling, hockey lol..

Its sunday and I like to relax but I have to take the boys to practice tonight......and sit in the car lol for 2 horus...have I already bitched about this..Well if I did, Im repeating myself,
I feel like Im getting kicked with another cold....which doesnt surprise me..one teenager had another cold while I still had the past one..Geez I hate my body somteimes...

I had a pretty good night last night..alot of laughs I watched a kids movie, got a little sad adn wrote something about my boys...and posted a nice pic of them on my facebook, and then I found myself rereading it over and over again until I cried, then I went in the tub for privacy, I really dont like crying around anyone really......so I just disappeared..

I had company last night, I dont know why I tolerate some things i do and then let them eat away atme...I do i know I do..and I gotta stop..When i drop the kids off though, am dropping off company too, they wanted tos tay another night but I am saying no, Im taking you back when I take the boys..but why? I was asked, Im like really I havea  full life...Im busy during hte week its good to have company but I dont know I am talking in circles just alot on my mind as usual..

anyways hsould run hope everyhone is well and fine
Happy thoughts and prayers headed your way
c

[FLaddict]

Good to see you today.. you are not strange my mom loves racing... she always has.. I am not into sports that much. I used to go to the Bucs games back when i had free tickets from doing their hair.. we did it for a few seasons.. they are high maintenence.. geez louise..
I will be around... still having some pain and not able to relax.. so I am on the laptop doing wedding research..
talk to ya later

[vicaddict]

Hey girl! I am sooo glad to see you excited and looking forward to your day. That is a plus my friend. Also, on your decision to make everyone go home? Is a good idea, you need your time to be YOU. As much as it sucks sometimes to be alone? It also sometimes can be the greatest feeling...just being alone, being you and relaxing. Specially how full your hands are with everything. So, I wish yuo a nice peaceful night my friend, stress free!! :)

I wish I was excited aboout something, unfortunately I am not. Except for the thought of kicking this addiction in it's A**. I so bad want to do this.
I am looking to god and all my friends here, and I really just want to do it this time. I am just so damn scared. Scared isn't even the word for it. I wanted it before too, so bad I could almost taste it....but then went off track again...how do I know I won't again is what also scares me. I just feel I can't trust myself at all anymore. I don't even know who I have become.

Anyone else feel this way? It is amazing all the stuff that goes through our heads during this time...I can't keep up with my brain it is like on overload.

ANyhow, hoep I am not a bummer on your day...GO ENJOY your day! Its beautiful outside here, I hope it is by you as well!
Hope to hear that you had a great night!!
Huggs & thinking of you!
Tracy