I am sara, a 57 yr old recovering addict. I have been clean 10 yrs. (4-28-08) I found this place when i googled getting off dope. The first post i saw here was by Addict3. He has been a friend since day 1 and i owe him so much. Happy 10 yrs Addict3!!! I read and read and finally started asking questions and they told me i couldnt do this alone, i needed recovery care so that is what i did and still do. I have a wonderful support system in place.
My family is all back together and i am so grateful as i gave them every reason to just walk away. I got married almost 2 yrs ago to the best thing that ever happened to me. I have 3 beautiful grandbabies that i love sooooooo much.
It is hard to put into words how incredible life is clean, even on the bad days~
Congrats on your sobriety! I love reading the winning stories!
Hi, guys, Jill here. This site was where I was told that I needed to get into aftercare following the usual opiate detox. Oh, wow, how I didn't want to listen. But, I did because my way wasn't working. In 18 days I will have 4 years clean. Absolutely unbelievable. I still struggle with irritability and productivity...BUT, I do not, want to go back to taking pills. Today, I'm free.
Hope to here from some others, even if it's one day!!!:)
So glad some of the old names are still on here.
PS- To answer your question, Melissa, like one of ours members said a long time ago: anyone can GET clean, STAYING clean is another matter. For me, I still go to 4 to 5 meetings a week, participate, will be reworking the steps, and am HONEST. If life su cks, I don't pretend it isn't, ha!
Ricky, 36, current almost daily IV methamphetamine user. I have been trying to assimilate into the attitude of harm reduction and maintaining. I accept my mistake in employing a neurotoxic antidepressant to alleviate the intractable states of consciousness I was developed to experience. I accept the negative consequences of this neurotoxic compound. I accept that its part of not just my life, but my internal being. It is the only state of consciousness that is sometimes a nicer state of being than my inherently ill one. Does this make sense?
I responded to You below Your response to TrippyRicky and to me. I'm just learning to use this new format and didn't know I could respond directly to You. I hope You see my message below Your own message
TrippyRicky, I dont need to use big words to tell you what you are looking at if you continue on this path......Death. Please stop with the excuses and get some help.
TTinKKerBBell, I am so very sorry to read you lost your son. I hope you have found some comfort and peace~
My name is Kristi. I am 7 and a half weeks clean. I got clean taking baby steps putting one foot in front of the other slowly but continually moving fwd. And refusing to go backward. Since I've only been clean a short while I don't feel like I have enough experience to talk about staying clean - however I was clean once before for six years- at that time I stayed clean by keeping accountability in my life and my faith and strength in God - when these two things began to fade/ weaken I failed. The devil is like a sneaky roaring lion waiting for the perfect moment to attack. I let my guard down once before and that was my biggest mistake - thinking I was free from ever worrying about getting addicted again. I'm learning from my mistakes and taking one day at a time.
hello. almost ten years clean here. i used to be on this site for hours on end for a couple of years, but i fell off and lost interest due to feeling some of the members were a bit harsh. (just being honest, and that's what folks here love, right? so i would appreciate no negative kickback for stating my honest opinion; thanks) BUT i check in every now and then and read the site. i had one member, i hate this but i forget his name, but he told me to go outside, look at the sun and smile. that is exactly what i did on my worst days of WD and it surely got me through. i owe that man my life, even if we didn't speak on a regular basis.
i have no interest in ever taking a pain pill again. in fact, i am now scared to take any medications - even OTC ones. antibiotics, cold medications, you name it. scared of them all. i have things like this that will always stay with me because i felt exactly what putting chemicals into your bodies do to you - but i am willing to live with those irrational fears rather than taking something like percocet ever again.
I do not like green eggs and ham, I will not eat them, Ben I am. I’m in the neighborhood of six years clean. This site played an important role in my recovery once upon a time. Just knowing that there were all kinds of people out there who had the same problem with addiction made things more bearable. There was also value in people “witnessing” me as I navigated the road to freedom from addiction. After a year or so, I found coming on here all the time to be counterproductive. But I still like to check in from time to time. I think it’s good for the people who have been on this site helping people for many years to know when people they helped have stayed clean. So here you go, six years and counting. Gratitude, thanks and praise!