So, just a reminder to all of us that know that holidays are a big trigger for using, keep in touch with other recovering addicts....don't slack off on meetings...take a breath and slow down!!! I have always found that when I overload myself, I think about using. When my fear of expectations is showing, I think about using. Using during the holidays was so necessary for me ( I thought ) and God forbid my dealers not answer their phones!!! lol
Calling my dealers, scheming the local dr's, making sure that I had enough to cover me until the following Monday, when clinics would open again. These were all necessities of my addiction. Today, I don't have to do that, but I've also had to work really hard on releasing some of my expectations. Everything DOESN'T have to be perfect...I do the best I can today and that's all I can do....today I'm ok with that.
Hopefully, people will be on these boards for the next couple of days more than normal to share and help anyone in need. Come on here and ask for help!!! We did when we first got clean. As long as you don't use, your ok.
Have a great holiday.....eat alot and enjoy your families.