Methadone in my pregnancy my last hope???

[Mommy_of_3_now]

I have been trying everything to prevent going on methadone. I am 13 weeks pregnant and tried 3 times now to detox and I get lower back pain and bad cramps in my lower stomach along with all the other not so nice symtoms!! I don't know if that's a part of with drawl or if its my body telling me my baby is not tolerated the detox. I have been so many different places for help in the past month I even drove 2 hours to one specialist on opiates and pregnancy but I was told I live to far away they can't help me. I was on 135 mgs of ms contin (morphine a day prescribed for chronic pain. I no longer have a family dr I ran out of my pills a week ago tomorrow so I found a old script of mine for my perks so I thought if I can ween myself the detox will be easier. I was wrong I only had about 5-6 days worth of the perks. I tried detoxing again yesterday and I gave in to my body today I was so sad and sore and sick and not being myself with my children at all I felt so bad and went and got a few more perks to hold me over till tomorrow I think I am going to go march in the methadone clinic and see if they will see me then. The specialist from Toronto faxed them a letter on what she thinks is best (methadone) also my midwife called the clinic and left a msg and so did I and they have not called me back. From hat I hear from everywhere I have went lately is that in Canada methadone is the stanard opiate for pregnant women?!?! I really don't want on it because I hear its so so so much harder to get off plus the risks of the baby being addicted at birth. But I think I have no other choice I have 2 lil ones already I need to be myself for and I can't be all I can be when I am in pain everyday. I am also afraid Children's aid will be contacted after the birth and the peeing in a cup thing is kinda degrading I do not drink or smoke pot ect just one of the very many cases of a person who took there pills as prescribed and ended up dependant. If I knew how unsafe detox is for a unborn child I would have refused the meds in the very beginning. I am so stuck its either be a bitchy mom to my other children and be in pain all the time and risk miscarriage or take my chances on giving birth to a dependant newborn. MAN I HAVENT BEEN THIS STRESSED OUT FOR A LONG TIME I KNOW I AM MAKING THE RIGHT CHIOCE (I think) But how will Children's aid and the dr and hospital take it some one please help me though this I seriously need some support right now. I just want a healthy child and my children not be taking away from me :(

[confused456]

I am so sorry and I agree with GoingToMakeIt. I am wishing you all the best.

[GoingToMakeIt]

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