I have decided to finally try to get off methadone. I have been reading everyones posts here, and feel that I am ready to give it my best shot. I have been on methadone for over ten years. I am just afraid that I will disrupt the control I have reached with my mental health issues. I am fitter mentally than I have been in 5 years, and I don't want to put my family through another episode if I don't have to. I don't know if I have the will power to taper. Maybe I would be better off just going ct? I think if I have the stuff in the house, I will just take it. I really don't know how anyone finds the strength to do that. I guess we are all different! All I have to do is decide when to actually stop. If I stopped now, would I be through the worst by Christmas? I have to be with my family over the holidays, and though I don't mind them knowing what I am doing, I don't want to spoil everyones Christmas by being a wet blanket. I am due to collect my next weeks supply tomorrow, and can't decide if I should just not pick it up at all. All I can do is try my best. I really want to do this for my kids. I don't want them to remember me as Mum the addict. I want to do it for me too, and finally get rid of this fog in my head. Wish me luck!