My first day

[Di1978]

I haven't used since noon yesterday, I am almost at 24 hours. I am in so much pain and feeling really anxious, I can't stop moving. I am at work and keep crying. I just told my boyfriend for the first time about an hour ago. We have been together for almost 1 year. I started by being addicted to heroin from age 16-18 and took pills occasionally, no big deal. I have been taking opiates: Oxy's, Perks, Vics, whataver, for the past 6 years but could always stop if I wanted to. Not until about a year ago has that been impossible. I can't get an appt for Suboxin for like another 1-2 months and know I will relapse on my own, I can't get through the next hour really. If I go to Urgent Care can they prescribe me something or try to force me to go to the hospital? I don't know what to do...

[Di1978]

So my boyfriend ordered me withdrawal-ease, I will have it tomorrow. I went to work yesterday and am here again today... Took sleeping pills last night but had weird dreams. I think its better to keep your mind busy rather then sitting at home thinking of all the people I could call for pills...

[pdavis3234]

i believe its a way of getting o2 to the brain anways. You have to find your tigger and fix it mine is being stuck at home with no car or license and know in time you will feel better. you wont always feel great but no one does remember that. Sneezing is a way of getting your system clean. you may feel like you are dying but you will not die

[Di1978]

Why do people yawn?

[Gpison]

Have to hate the yawning and the sneezing, but the yawns really got to me for some reason. It is gonna take a few days for them to let up in most cases.

[Di1978]

My legs hurt, I keep yawning and sneezing... What the hell?

[Di1978]

I can't imagine my life without them, it's like I'm emotionally attached to them... They have always been a good friend, picking me up when I'm down... Helping me not care about things so much but in return they took my freedom from me... I have always held a job and worked hard. I'm afraid of long terms side affects to my body.. Does anyone know what those are?

[Cissy373]

Anytime I ever ran out of pills and now since I am on day 10 with no pills I have to say the first day whenever I ran out of pills I felt such a loss. Honestly I felt SO ALONE, and sad and mad at myself for using up all my pills once AGAIN so I had to be without and WD all over again, and the first couple or three days I felt like I had been run over by a MAC truck.............but it passes.

I guess a person just has to get sick enough of taking the pills to go through with it.

Good luck and keep posting.

Cissy

[Di1978]

I am 30... I want to be normal, I'm concerned more about my emotional and mental dependancy...

[Di1978]

Thanks for your responses. After telling my boyfriend he was really supportive and asked to be involved as much as possible. I was spending an easy $1000 a month and taking about 80 ml of Oxy... Not too bad I thought but it got me hooked. I just made an appt for Suboxine, I've been reading horrible storied though. I just ran to Smiths and bought a pound of poppy seeds and soaked them in water and am drinking that now... That seemed to take off the edge a little which helps...

[BizzzEB]

Reach out for help.  It's ok.  Be honest.  Any healthcare provider will be willing to help you.  It will be safer and you really cant do this cold turkey with your long time use.  It's OK- HUGS

[ImGettingClean]

HOw many pills were you taking, on average, per day?

Just so you know, this feeling is completely normal during withdrawals...it feels like the end of the world, but it's really just your body upset at you bec it wants more pills (in essence)....

Age?