Welcome and I want to say to you that you are making the best decision of your life by stopping and getting help, I'm on suboxone my self and I thank God for pointing me to the this site were I found out about suboxone because I don't know were I would be now if I didn't stop using.
You will be fine just pray pray and pray some more pray to what ever or whom ever just consentrate and focus on what you what to do GET CLEAN!
You can do it I'm here if you need to talk ok
Galdy
thank you all so much for the support. My appointment is in 3.5 hours, I am very very sick right now. Hopefully I will feel better tonight. Maybe a good nights sleep? Ill take what I can get at this point. Last night was hell. Reading your posts and stories has kept me going the last 24-48 hours. As someone else put it....it is a ray of light in a very dark place. I will post again later after my appt.
i`am rick i`ve been here about 52 days on my 42nd day i broke and took 4 vicks and then i went for about 18 day and broke and took 6 now i`am starting over from a 1 it realy ***** to loose all your day it one day but thats what i get for brecking from the straght path.so stay in there and be strong it allways gets better around the river bend
later rick
I dont think it will be that fast for me...but hopefully I can be a success story too. Definitley cant be worse than what I am now. Or feel worse. Do you remember who she was? maybe I can look her up
Hey, there was a girl on this forum that did the suboxone. she was on it for like 2 or maybe 3 weeks and it worked great for her.
I have my appointment tommorrow at 4 so hopefully this nightmare will start to come to an end. Im very nervous, but this is something I have to do. For my life and for my family, I am worth more than this. Hopefully I will not be one of the suboxone horror stories that I have read about. Anything has to be better than what I am going through now.
thank you all so much for your encouragement and insight. Im balling my eyes out right now...but in a good way. Its nice to hear anyone say that Im not a bad person, because i feel rotten to the core. I have to sign off now...the shakes are just too bad to type anymore. I will post tommorrow night, hopefully feeling worlds better.
I totally understand where you are coming from. I have never made it past day 3 either, i always got my refill. everyone here says though that day 3 is the halfway mark so we were already almost to the other side..i definitely would not have thought that then. my anxiety after going ct was within 7 hours of my last dose. tapering isn't for everyone just like cold turkey isn't for everyone. im trying both to see which one i can do. have you talked to a doc? i have a pain managment doc that is helping me. if you don't, is that something you are willing to do? Hang in there, and i promise, you are not alone. we, here at this community, are all here for you. m
much luv,
britt
My doc's are percocet 10's and vic 10's. when I cant get those I will go for the 7.5 or last resort the 5s. I dont take them to feel good anymore, I take them to be functional. Its getting to a point where that isnt working anymore either. I just wanted to take a minute and say that its wonderful how supportive everyone is here. I cried when I read the post about not beating myself up. I feel like I dont do that enough...maybe thats why im in these shoes now. I am going to read up on the suboxone faqs. At this point I will do just about anything to stop this insanity. Even if it means trading one pill for another in the short run. The idea is that they help to get me off the opiates, hopefully. I have been taking this dose for around 2 years now, and for some reason my w/d's start really fast. Maybe its my mind, but by the 12 hour mark I am starting to go nuts....not to mention extremely sick. I have tried to quit cold turkey but never made it past day 3...and my god those 3 days were the worst hell Ive ever experienced. I have tried alot of times, more than I could count. I would run out of money, and say ok...this has to stop but by day 2 I was willing to do anything. I even pawned my wedding ring, as ashamed as I am to admit it. When I couldnt get them that is all I could think about. I would start mentally making deals with myself. Then I would say ok I will only get ten and take less each day...yeah right, that never worked.
Yes, Nuggy is right.
you will have to think of long term here. it will help you while you are coming off to know exactly how everything is going to be for the after. Obviously, you will not be able to continue such a schedule. Who could? hah
so you may have to make some changes and this is a good opportunity to explain why and the situation you have gotten into.
oh gosh...Please don't think you're a failure.....to do all this for you're family surely you sound like some kind of angel.
Juat stick with it,i know how you feel when you say you've let everyone down,but at least you have people there who love you(husband).
I'm trying to ACT short-term andTHINK long-term,if you understand that?
Don't try to rush things,but also think about you're final goals?
Nuggy
(one step at a time...water can destroy rock....drip by drip haha)
Well first of all, you will have stop beating up on yourself. The drugs have done that enough. You are no worse than anyone else. So many have gotten caught up in this same trap. Proffesionals, nurses, doctors, exectutives, young moms, ect...... Life is so demanding and grueling schedules it is like a life saver to many at first. You are finally able to get everything done and you feel great. so what can the harm be?
No one sets out to get in this mess. But that is where we have all ended up. But you can get out. Many of us have. It will not be very pleasant, but in the end will make you all the more confident of yourself and proud.
You will need to research what is going to be happening to you and prepare for it the best possible. And we will all be here anytime to help you out with questions or struggles. You are very brave to be confronting this head on and so put your head back up!
I am so sorry you are having to go through all of this. One thing I can tell you right now is, you can't take care of anyone if you can't take care of yourself!!! Don't ever forget that!! Next, what was/is your D.O.C.? There are a lot of people on here who know a lot about sub so i am sure there will be more replys soon. Just keep posting here, beleive me it helps. Congratulations on wanting to get YOUR LIFE back:))
Britt