Need a little help!

[tom212]

Hi everybody! I am on oxycodone for two foot surgerys in 5 months. I am not mentally addicted I dont crave it..I think. I stopped taking it for 10 hours and yup withdraws, and I am scared. I am not going down this path of addiction. I am TERRIFIED to go cold turkey.  So I have just started a taper...please dont tell me It wont work I have killer will power unless in full withdraw then im done and cant do cold turkey anyway I am still on crutches and had an ankle fusion 5 weeks ago and my bones are healing HOPEFULLY..

I am taking 5mg every 6 hours every day for three days then will go to every 7 hours for three days then so on.

I get mild withdraws doing this so far...anxiety, shaking. just feel like a mild cold. I can live with all this. I get more moderate withdraws around the 4th hour...but doable I havent slept in three days and that blows the most.

My question when I am going through my mild withdraws is that good? and helping me free this ****? Or am I only refilling the void with my next 6 hour 5mg dose?

I am on 20 mgs in 24 hours and no thought of increasing or wanting more is that good?

If I get to one pill a day and go cold turkey will the withdraws be just as fierce?

I have no problems going to a inpatient rehab if this doesent work..seriously I am TERRIFIED of severe withdraws.

Does medicated inpatient rehab control severe withdraws? I will gladly go.

I am scared to death of being addicted to this drug I just had a two major surgeries so its okay that I have a physical addiction. But I have to stop before it gets to late.

If I am on 20mg right now will subutex work for me, I am scarred to replace one addiction with another, I dont want to get high, or my ankle to stop hurting. I just want to feel as normal as possible. I dont mind suffering thru the mild withdraws the mild anxiety, shaking, hell I dont mind not sleeping I am more terrified of being on the drug and going through full withdraw.

[sway1]

so happy to hear that. well, not the vomit part. lol. being upfront with our doctors is terrifying for alot of people. for me, it is greatly relieving. a guilty conscience prevents so many from getting the help that they need. be well tom.  sway

[luppygirl]

Well from the sounds of it, you seem like one strong determined man.  I have a feeling you will get off of these without much problem.  The dose you are on isn't very high and with the taper plan that you made with your doctor you sound like you are all set.  I am not saying there won't be some discomfort but I think you are building it up bigger in you mind then it really is.  You haven't even been taking them for a long period of time.  And from the sounds of your doctor he will help you through your withdrawals, there are medications you can take to ease the pain of withdrawal. And you won't get addicted to them.  I would stay clear of Subs because those are addictive and the withdrawals are worse then what you would have from the pain medication.  So I would try to relax do your taper and i bet you will get through this no problem.

[tom212]

Thanks Sway, I saw my surgeon today and burst into tears telling him I am a drug addict and he laughed at me. I am a police officer and cant be on drugs when I go back to work in 3-4 months. He  quit laughing at me and said " You just had two major surgerys in five months and the last one was as bad as getting hit buy a forklift!, you were on alot of meds, okay first off addicts dont admit to being addicted to there doctor and no one who has ever left my office became one, stop being a ***** and listen to me. Your doing one oxycodone 5mg pill every 6 hours??? down from 10mg every 4, plus oxycotin 10mg 2 times a day. Of course your sick and cant sleep, your system is out of whack and your scaring yourself to death. I will help you wean! Chill out." I felt better almost instantly. He put me on this every six hours (1) 5mg pill, the next 6 hours (2) 5mg pills the next six hours (1) 5mg pill. the next six hours (2) 5mg pills...for 7 days then I repeat these steps every 7 hours for 7 days. then 8 hours so on. I hope this works and I gave my mother all my pills. I dont get cravings in fact looking at the pills make me sick in my stomach. I hate myself for not sucking up the pain in the beginning and am glad I told on myself before its to late, and if this wont work...I am going to inpatient rehab! I will not let this ruin me and if I am sick for three months while tapering then good, if I do get a craving later in life or a day after I am clean of the little white devils RENEMBER THIS ****! My only fear is going into full withdraw I am TERRIFIED of just the thought of it. I dont mind not sleeping, a LITTLE anxiety, trembling, a mild non stop headache 24-7 is fine with me, hell a good bout of diarrea cleans you out, I prefer to vomit actually. But deep depression noooo way, and aches and pains I can live with that, just the MIND part of the withdraw scares me.

[sway1]

in my opinion, you don't need the subutex. i would begin taking motrin in between and then space the oxy doses a little further apart and see how that works. luckily, you are not on too high of a dose. i commend you on your common sense, knowing that the threat is there. an ounce of prevention and all that. you will get more suggestions, probably better ones on here. i wish you the best & you will be added to my prayers.   sway