Need advice....

[Addictchick_1983]

Tonight I struggle. My husband does not know the severity of my addiction... And if he does, he hasn't brought it up. Tho I'm about to be in hell... Tomorrow being day three. I need to buckle dwn and tell him the truth. Its so hard cause we never know how people will react. But I know he loves me... And will have my back... But I'm scared to see his dissapointment. Ugh... I been avoiding this a long time.

[Addictchick_1983]

Lol. Amen. And true..... The day is almost dwn. Whoop! We about made it another day! I'll be praying for you .. Keep up the good wrk. You can do it!!!

[Smalltownmom]

Hey! I'm doing exactly the same. Day 6 sub taper. Kids are now home. I'm laying in my bed watching tv. I can't seem to get moving. Woke up fine but lost it lol I felt great the other day. I guess ups and downs wY it goes. At least day is almost over as its 420 here. Hey isn't that like a weed time? Too bad I hate that crap lol

[Addictchick_1983]

I don't know if I should just write on this thread or make new ones... Lol. My mind is racey today. Y'all have this problem with being alone... Even tho my kids are here... I feel antsy and agitated. When I get alone with my mind.... Cravings Are hard to fight... Ugh. Just frustration today

[Junip]

So glad you told your husband. I delayed telling mine for so long that it made my addiction worse and prolonged my start to recovery. Most of all, he became my greatest supporter and held me accountable. He was disappointed and scared but more hurt that I did not have enough faith in him to be honest.  Good girl!

[Addictchick_1983]

Omg I'm so glad I told him.... He is a amazing person. I couldn't do this without him... No way... I started a new thread. I'm interested in all your opinions... Check it out. And I'm totally making a meeting in the next couple days.... And my husband said he will go with if I need it...

[Vibe1luv]

Oh I was so there. So glad u told your husband. It was so hard for me. But the best thing ever. I couldn't have done it without him. I'm at day 26. It does get better.
Exercise. Eat right. Try to not nap to much. Stay busy. Clean. Organize. Get out of the house.
You will be fine. And life will get better. I have taken St. John's... And a multi vitamin and gaba. My mood is 100% better than that first week.
If you can make a meeting do it. You aren't alone. Keep posting and smile through the pain.
Blessings

[Addictchick_1983]

Thank you.... I'm sluggish. And tired. But not .... Lol. I'm taking it slow for sure. Its hour by hour. But I'm still pushing thru.

[Smalltownmom]

Doesn't it feel so much better to have told him? My hubby told me last night that he has looked up my symptoms and does understand how I am feeling. day 4. But hes not so sympathetic I guess. Its wonderful to hear how your relationship is so strong and you know you will be ok. I wish you well. It's always good to hear another has made their time through this a little easier!

[Addictchick_1983]

Thank you!!! I definitely need to hear that!! I know I can do it!! I'm just feeling so weak. And achey and my mind is just not wanting to stop thinking about it. But I'm definitely liking the minutes idea... Just one more minute.... I appreciate all of your support. It does help!!

[ImInAwe]

Take it minute by minute if you need to! My sponsor told me anyone can do anything for one minute! I keep replaying that in my head when I'm craving real bad. One more minute won't kill me. One more minute *****, but I can do it for just a minute more. You can do it!

[Addictchick_1983]

I think I'm on day four... Lol. Its a duzy! But I'm pushing thru.... I'll definitely try the playlist thing. I'm holding on... Just taking it hour by hour right now.

[ImInAwe]

You can do this! I put together a playlist of inspiring music and went for a drive... Listening to positive music has always been a big help for me, so maybe try that? Been thinking about you today, keep it up! Just think how far you've come! What day are you on now?

[Jerry198]

By this weekend you will feel much better it takes time to get back to normal on all fronts so just go one hour or day at a time and this will pass best wishes and great job thus far.

[Addictchick_1983]

Thank you-!! I'll pray for you also! Its definitely a rough day.... Gggrrrr. I wish my mind had more control. And I think I'm wrking myself up over it. The mind can only do so much when we have done so much damage. Addiction is definitely my hardest battle in life. Ugh. I just keep telling myself you got this... And you want this!!! And push thru hour by hour.

[VICourageous]

Can you go for a walk out in the sun?? Maybe Read or Watch a good Movie. Do you have a Friend who does not use to call. It is so hard to live in our own Head when we are Balancing Back. Support is a must in my opinion right now. That stinken thinken can really get to you!

Hold on Tight!
Bless

[ImInAwe]

I am right there with you, Addictchick.. My brain keeps wanting something.... I feel too miserable to move, but too restless to stay still! I'll be praying for you, and I wish I could tell you what to do... But I don't know myself =(

[Addictchick_1983]

I'm having such a hard afternoon... I cant keep my mind from wandering. I'm trying to stay busy but don't wanna move... Ugh. I feel like I cant handle it.... What. Can I do to help my state of mind?? Ugh.

[meegWpaw]

all right!!!!!  so glad it went well.  great news!  you rock!

[Addictchick_1983]

I finally broke dwn and told my husband. He was very supportive. And said we will do whatever it takes. I got your back and am by your side! We will get thru it. I feel so much better having told him. I know that I need him! He is my best friend in this world. There isn't anything I haven't told him... Aside from my dabbling becoming addiction.... We are a good team. And this could have ruined us! And me!! Thank you all for your support and helping me build my courage to get it done! I do feel like everything will be much easier from here. A cake walk.... Prolly not... Lol. But with him on board .... Fight for my life back will be much easier with my best friend and soul mate to lean on. Or text when I'm wanting to cave! I'm so thankful for this place and all of you. Hopfully today will go smooth and I can get thru another day. Thanks again for everything!!
  Much love
               Chels.  

[meegWpaw]

a-chick you are doing great!  i so hope that you tell him and that he reacts well.  i'll be thinking of you!!!  :)

[NeverAgain127]

Great post, Vickie!!!!!

[VICourageous]

Hi Girl.
I just wanted you to know that it was no big deal about all those post. It happens all the time and we end up telling them the same thing. Also watch out for the Old Post with the Hour Glass by the name.

My Hub had always knew what I was up to BUT not to the extent that I had taken it. I was very lucky in this one. I had some Videos all about Addiction and the Brain and so fourth, that I bought back home. My Hub & my Mom both watch a few and they learned a lot about this disease of addiction. I am telling YOU..this saved my ash. He is the one that kept telling me it would take time for those Brain Chems to balance back and fire up (sort of speaking). He did not understand to much about the physical as I rocked & rocked and did not sleep for a few months. My w/ds seem to be a bit different them some. I went c/t from 3 meds and each one hit the Brain the same but also in different areas from each other. This played so much havoc on my Nervous system. It was like I was pulled up, down & all around. However, my  point is that my Hub was the one that kept saying TIME & PATIENCE! If he did not do this I would of thrown in the Towel because I was so confused on this Time frame..Long Time Frame. I did have a Bud on here that was 3-4 m ahead and he just kept telling me that everything I had experienced each month he did too.
I sure hope YOU do tell him. YOU are going to be so relieved and I also think he already knows something is up.

You have come a long way since day one on here. Very Proud of YOU! Keep it up and always keep that Guard Up at all times. This has been a saying around here for a long time and I so agree with it now!

Just know that we can not do this alone! Outside Support is a Big one.
Bless

[Addictchick_1983]

I have my told him yet..... But I'm think I will this evening... My kids do aikido karate three days a week. And my husband does the adult class. So we are here still. But I intend on going home putting kids to bed and telling him. I'm scared.... But I know it will be better if I do.... I'll keep y'all posted!
Today has been so long and draining. But I pushed thru... I cant believe it!! But I actually got some stuff done around the house... As well as coming to class with the fam. So... A good horrible day lol

[brownvelvet]

I didnt tell my boyfriend but I suspect he knows...I hinted a lot....but never wanted to admit it to him. We were having struggles and I knew I needed to go through withdrawal alone so I left him while I am dealing with the addiction and quite a bit else. I could never quit and go through withdrawal living with him....it is easier living alone for me. I can focus on what I need and not what he needs. He would have been very sympathetic but too self-centered to really be supportive. If you have someone in your life that will be there for you and can understand and love you despite your flaws then that could be a great and wonderful thing. I hope you have that.....