Need help kicking vicodin habit!!!

[Nissa83]

I have been abusing vicodin, percoset, oxys, anything I can find for 3 years, I'm up to 80-120mg per day. I took 80mg by 5:30pm Friday, didn't take any Saturday but flipped out on my husband in a panic attack and now he won't come home, woke up Sunday feeling like I was gonna day with all of what I know now are "normal" withdrawal symptoms, but stupid me just HAD to go out and seek 12 more 10mg vicodins, I took two today, of course I feel better...but here's the deal, I just started probation, I see my PO for the first time in 8 days and HAVE to be clean, I have a almost 5yr old daughter at home, a good job, and I don't want to lose everything!! I called a couple places today, one guy told me I need to go to treatment for a month, but how can I leave my job, my kid, my home for a MONTH? Then a lady said she'd sign me up for methadone clinic, sure my PO won't allow that! I could call my DR but he's clueless, I've been buying all my pills on the street for the last 3 years!!! WHAT DO I DO NOW???

[timeisthefire]

like they told you opiate w/d is not life threatening , but like I said look for sub or get a script from your dr for opiate pain med,that way prob. can't say anything then get clean . You can't work and get clean w/o help please let us know GodBless

[timeisthefire]

like they told you opiate w/d is not life threatening , but like I said look for sub or get a script from your dr for opiate pain med,that way prob. can't say anything then get clean . You can't work and get clean w/o help please let us know GodBless

[timeisthefire]

like they told you opiate w/d is not life threatening , but like I said look for sub or get a script from your dr for opiate pain med,that way prob. can't say anything then get clean . You can't work and get clean w/o help please let us know GodBless

[Nissa83]

I'm on probation for Serious Assault (I'm going to get help for my anger too) I made an appt at a recovery related clinic tonight at 6pm and I'm going to be completely honest and ask for help. I've been buying my pills on the street, no legit script. I know I'm ruining my life, my credit, my family, EVERYTHING for these damn pills!!! I am going to need continued support, I'll let you know in the morning how it goes tonight (UNLESS I GET ADMITTED).

[bama88]

hey nissa...you've been through alot...has all of this mess you've got yourself into over those pills? you don't have to answer if you don't want. its just i see your life and yourself getting out of control. use this time as a wake up call to get off the medicine....i abused pills so bad i lost my car...there is nothing pretty or positive to continue using...drugs lead to negative things. and with continued use it will lead to more negative actions. we want to help you before you loose more. please please detox now....it will save your life. yes its not easy. its hard but doing it now will save your life. and probation can do pee tests for anything now a days...not just drug related charges. reclaim your life....

[timeisthefire]

again depending on why you're on probation and where(state)if not alcohol/drug related charges possible won't test for drugs.my daughter was on prob.for shoplifting and never tested which I sort of wish they did bcuz she has opiate problem.

[timeisthefire]

if you have a valid script probation can't say anything.have you looked into suboxone ? it saved my life! what on probation for?don't have to answer might help to know whole situation.

[timeisthefire]

have looked into the suboxone program ? its possible that your dr is able to prescribe it or possibly find it on the street.it will take the "sick" away.depending where ur probation is they usually don't P-test for "sub" Good Luck

[apike31108]

You should be fine. I think they said they are out of your system in the most 3 days? But make sure you don't go back to them when they are gone. It's so hard I know. Honestly I would start sooner than later though. You will be ok. It's hard mentally I know. I went through it last week. Your husband will be back. He will understand and forgive. It was the pills not you. You all will recover :)

[kk1303]

you will still feel like crap tapering that fast. best to just stop now. you can ask a dr to prescribed you clonidine. its a blood pressure med but is suppose to help with opiate withdrawals. i don't have insurance and it only cost me $5. i still felt like crap, don't get me wrong, but maybe it helped? i dunno...it was my first time detoxing so i have nothing to compare it to.

[Nissa83]

I have to see my PO for the first time one week from today now. I have 5 pills left and I was going to try to take two today, one tomorrow, one wednesday, then have Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday (I see my PO monday at 5pm) to clean up. But God even saying that outloud sounds terrible!!! I'm such a wreck!!!

[Nissa83]

I hit my husband, over and over, that's how I attacked him. I just wanted to sleep and he kept waking me up and I just lost it on him. I made an emergency eval appt for tonight at 6pm and I'm going to be honest with them and see what they suggest. one place I called said detoxing from opiates isn't life threatening so they wouldn't help me. I just feel so weak, mentally and physically!!! I have BEGGED AND APOLOGIZED to my husband and he says this time it's too much and he doesn't want a divorce but he doesn't want to come back anytime soon either.

[apike31108]

Nissa. I quit cold turkey starting Monday, Feb 13th. I took my last two Lortabs (30mg) Sunday, Feb 12th at around 9am. Today is my Day 8. I worked all of last week. I didn't want too, it was so hard to be here, but as you said you have to work. My boss as well is sick of me missing work, not knowing it's from being an addict needing to find pills. I worked all last week and thought it was the longest week of my life. I wanted to die. I hurt so bad, mentally I wanted to break down. Call your husband and apologize. He will come back. Thank god my fiance is a stay at home dad and has been wonderful and super supportive throughout all this. If I can do it you can. I know when people told me that I thought yeah right gimme a pill, but you can do it. You don't want to lose your child.

[LeaAnn807]

Hi!  You just have to STOP!  Plain and simple.  It will be hard.  Really hard, but you are going to jail if you don't quit.  I've been there with probation, and always tested clean, because I cleaned up my act, but I saw lots of people there who didn't and they left the office in handcuffs.  

Get some Imodium.  It will help.  Don't take any more opiates.  NONE!  Throw out all you have.  It's the only way.  

I'm sorry you're going through this!

[vicki595]

In what way did you "violently attack" your husband?  You can't do that and that is reason enough to stop this madness right now.

Are they doing a urine test in 10 days? We can't tell you how to pass it but I think it's safe to tell you that if you stop the pills now, you'll be fine.

[Nissa83]

Ok, here I am at work, and I can't stop crying and I really don't feel like I should be here. I haven't really completely quit yet, I took one 10mg in the middle of the night and half of one this morning. I can't beg my husband to come home, he won't!!! I am sooooooo scared of losing my daughter.

[Nissa83]

ok i'll try to get some, thank you

[littlebit667]

Imodium (liquid is best)!  Esp. if you are trying to work.

[Nissa83]

ok i can't get in my email for some reason so im back. i am broke and need to detox as fast as possible at home with missing as little work as possible. I saw the things I need; but all i have is some niacin, folic acid, and some benedryl. What else can I do to make this as simple as possible?

[littlebit667]

Sub is tough and hard to get off of.  I promise there are other ways that will work.  

[bama88]

we are talking about your freedom...if you go in dirty and they and they will pee you?? you'd violate your probation before it got started. you defanley don't want to detox in jail do you? no. so don't rely on the doctor...what are you gonna say to get pills? and again no disrespect. this is important stuff....you can't play with that thought....im supporting you...trying to help

[Nissa83]

no i was considering asking the dr to prescribe me something to kick the habit, I've read about taking something like suboxon or something, but will my PO allow that?

[Nissa83]

I know, so you think I have to call in and risk losing my job to do this???

[bama88]

are you sure doctor will prescribe? what's the scariest part of quitting for awhile. with everything going on with probation...do you need the stress of pills in your life? it sounds like they are ruining your life