New Day 3 worst yet! Words of encouragement

Question

So I have been beating myself up over this little slip and I have finally came to realize that I can't change it so all I can do is move forward. I have had it pretty easy this time ( maybe bc I wasn't abusing the pills ) I don't know and it's irrelavant at this point. Today is my new Day 3 and it's the worst yet! My back hurts, I am shakey and I just feel downright crappy! I know it's temporary and I keep telling myself this but I could use some positive words of encouragement right about now. I had to take some Dramamine because today, I feel like I could throw up.

dedicatedtostop · Answer

Thank you so much for that!! I needed to hear it. The day seems to be getting a bit better. I have been up cleaning a bit, and I have done a little laundry. I don't have much else to say other than I am putting one foot in front of the other...

ChasingFreedom · Answer

You're not supposed to go around beating yourself up.  We have ALL been where you are.  Detox is the bridge we have to cross to get to a healthier, happier life.  I'm serious!!!  I feel like a new person.  Hell, I actually feel like a human and not a zombie anymore.  The misery is SO worth it...and remember, detox doesn't last forever.  Every single struggling day gets easier and easier.  Keep your mind occupied.  It really helps to prevent you from dwelling on what you are going through.  You are stronger than you think and you CAN do this!!!  Great job, friend!

dedicatedtostop · Answer

Thanks All,

I just woke up from a nap, feeling somewhat better right now but again I just woke up so we shall see! Thanks for all the encouragement and positive thoughts! They truly mean more than I can ever express! Moving forward one day at a time... This is where I feel the shame and guilt. I swore last time I would never go through this again! Look at me now..

Cricketk92 · Answer

Since its not your first time then you DO KNOW that it gets better everyday!  I think I posted everyday during my first week!  It really helped to have others cheering me on!  And it does feel so much better without the anxiety of counting pills and running out....::cringing::  I never have to do that again as long as I stay focused!  So just keep hanging on and go for a walk and keep your mind busy!  I remember looking at the clock my first 5 days and wanting it to move faster too!!!  Thats the worst cause it seems to barely move!!!  You are doing great!!  And like gnarly said maybe its time to go to a meeting soon!!!  That will help too!!!  Hurray for you!!!!!  :)

gnarly_1 · Answer

Hey Girl  well your not doing to bad one bad day out of 3 is a good thing  for me it always got worst every detox  toward the end it just about killed me  but you just got to be ok without being o for a wile this to shall pass  when you get to a meeting please post  others need the encouragement to go........Gnarly

treedr · Answer

I'm thrilled to have passed Day 3. It was THE worst. Even the nausea and vomiting on 4&5 was better. I've just reached Day 8. Come on and join me. Still a bit off and sleep is non-existent but, Day 3 is over!

Good luck and stay well

jlannspr · Answer

Some people may think we are just saying "a clean life is amazing," but it really really really, is. There is a level of clarity, almost overwhelming clarity of thought that comes with being pill-free. I feel so much better clean, best wishes.

dedicatedtostop · Answer

Thank you all!! I have finally learned that I can NEVER let my guard down again!! Never ever!! I don't ever want to go through this again! What keeps me going is knowing how good life was when I was clean! That and that alone gives me hope. I will admit I am watching the clock constantly, wishing this day away. I didn't sleep well at all lastnight so I am thinking I may try to lay down for a nap and hopefully.... I will wake up feeling just a little bit better!

Chels44 · Answer

As I've told other people 'sh!t happens'. All you can do is move forward and try your best. None and I mean NONE of us are infallible from a relapse. Its just part the deal.
 I do commend you on getting back on track though. That's very admirable. You're doing just what you should and I'm cheering you on! You've got this! 
Best Wishes,
Chels

jlannspr · Answer

HI,
I've been in and out here. I had close to a year clean, and have slipped up over the past two months. This is my day three as well. It's going okay, but it's such a reminder of how easy we can slip into our old ways. I've found staying positive, and looking at the clean life ahead of you is a way to make it through the hours. Best wishes.

dedicatedtostop · Answer

Thank you for commenting! It's not my first rodeo so I know how to do it! It's just days like these that suck! I knew it was too good to be true.. Being " okay" up to today. But, I will keep putting one foot in front of the other. I have to I know, there's no other way!! Just beating myself up because I had a month under me. I could have been so much father ahead... Sigh...

ang_811 · Answer

U only have to withdrawal once and that's it. Keep putting one foot in front of the other and keep looking forward not back. Our disease wants us dead and will use any way to try and bring us down. Keep talking about it. U can do it. It does get easier as time goes on. Remember we cant get high if we don't put it in our system.