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Newcomers and those that think they are past this and are going to leave...

I have been on pain pills for 4 years and in that time I have quit several times. I would say in that 4 year period I have a total of 50 days clean. I have never made it more than one month. I begin to feel like I am in control and stop posting here, so I then leave and with no support I relapse. I have noticed that everytime I feel bad now or have a craving I post a comment here and it starts to feel better. I will be sticking around this site for sometime and I think everyone who came here to get clean should. I cannot stress the importance of the mental battle. Remember my story 4 years 8 relapses. Please stick around and continue to get support and give it as well.
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199177 tn?1490498534
Getting clean is the easy part staying that way is where the work begins :)
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Oh another tip to beating cravings I use. I look and think about all the people I know who dont have addiction and how much they love life. How often they smile, do things and appreciate life. I WANT THAT FEELING! Only way to get it is to beat this addiction.
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Keep it up! Soon your mind will forget and you will have some moments of peace...Oh yea BTW I am quitting smoking at the same time, I have been quitting for 6 months, you talk about hard!
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766993 tn?1235064012
well another day gone by....Dang Not much to do and trying to stay busy.I found myself thinking of going to the er or doc to get a refill .Instead I started reading posts on here which is helpful taking my mind off where i want to go.The worst part is im having neck and back pain pretty bad trying other things to help with it iwill get through this lots of praying i amdoing  Take care everyone stay strong.
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I really find it helpful to read these posts now that I am not in the heavy throws of ct w/d.  Thanks all for posting about the relapsing and the posts about enjoying life after narcotics.  I recognize now that I was in heavy denial about my abuse of hydros.  I know that I can't even be trusted to take ANY narcotics anymore.  I find myself occ thinking that I will need a lortab to go to the dentist (as I have been doing for years now) and I can just take one, I could just go get the refill that is waiting for me at the pharmacy.....It is all just part of justifying my addiction.  I will suck it up in April for my dentist appt...(I will bring my ipod and try to use music as pain killer).  I am still unable to cancel the remaining refills.....
Now 22 days off hydros and 19 days off ultram ER.
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740886 tn?1233717443
Yes, lately its been making me crazy!  I feel like I'm going crazy, I'm on day 43, the most days without vicodin in about 5 years and I think about the pills all day long.  I told my whole family I quit so now I'm scared if I relapse I'd let them down.  But I do know I am a better person but at the same time I am lacking.  I am still constantly battling my fatigue and personal stress which triggers me to use.  I have good days and then in there I think about what it felt like to take a pill.  I try to remember every detail but the best thing is that my body is behaving naturally.  My emotions are not controlled by any pills.  I had a few scares while using when I had bad stomach issues and hives, and I felt like I had no control on my body and yet I still used....  
I haven't gone to meetings just because it's so local around her, I use this forum everyday and it's good to know I'm not crazy.  I am very familiar with AA and their philosophy which I have adopted.  
I am thankful for everyone here who is posting, battling and surviving...  
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495284 tn?1333894042
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The mental part is the hardest and giving up that control  seems to be the biggest challenge.  Until we finally say i cant ever take these again we just end up in that vicious cycle.  You are really sounding good and so much more positive.  That is great!!!  Keep moving forward!!!       sara
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