7th day of Saboxone and opiates

[opiateswon]

Today is my 7th day off opiates and saboxone but I'm soo stressed out! I was on 180mg of morphine, 60mg of oxycodone, and 20mg of diazapam daily for the last 6 years. My husband was on saboxone and when we decided we had had enough, I took the saboxone in lower than normal doses to curb the morphine withdrwal, but only for a few days.... I'm taking all the vitamins I can stand and I'm sleeping ok. The problem is that I'm more addicted to control of a situation than anything else and my life has fallen apart. My house is upside down and there's so much laundry that I can't see the floor. I'm really touchy and moody and cannot find anything to help ease the stress so I can think clear enough to start taking the right steps at getting things back in order. I have cancer and my liver was failing from the scripts so I chose to live as long as possible without chemicals. I go to a new dr on wednesday and I don't know how she's going to even help me. Every dr I have seen offers me pain meds and I don't want anything to do with them. I have urges to take away the pain, but not at the risk of my life. I'm soo low on energy and rational thought that I fear I won't have the calmness and patience i need to help my husband and kids see the light at the end of this ****. I'm using my energy to do all I can to support my husband, encourage my kids, and push myself into the next day. What can I do to help myself think clearer and find the energy to clean and take care of my responsibilities? ANYONE?

[opiateswon]

Thanks for posting. It's the only thing keeping me going right now. I've gotten 5 loads of laundry done and some house work but I need to count cookies out to my girlscouts and take care of my 7 week old puppies. This is alot harder than taking a bath. I feel better but I've got to re-program this brain of mine and do what I can and leave what can wait for tomorrow. Is that possible?

[Ella789]

Wow!!!!!!!!   You do have a full plate don't you!!  I was thinking how greatful I am that all my kids are grown, two in college, the other a daddy himself.  It has got to be hell for you and you are so hard on yourself!! To make it through this, you will need a Dr. who is willing to advise you, or even help you.  One of my Dr.s prescribed the clonidine for me, its for blood pressure, only 12 tablets, and tapper the last 2. It helped me from rolling up and crawling under the bed!!  and one child of mine got me some tanzene, only 3 tabs but i used them halved. I can't take the 5htp or the l-tyrosene cause of antidepressant. I am hopeful that others here can give you their knowledge as to what you can do.
Hugs to you
Ella789  

[opiateswon]

Thanks for your post. It seems the first thing dr's want to do for us is give pain meds and I'd rather die sober. I can't do chemo, but I'll take the time I have left to give my daughters the real me to remember when I'm gone. I can't even bring myself to go shopping or do my nails and I've got soo many irons in the fire that I'm over-whelmed. I don't want people to come over and help me even though many have offered. I don't know exactly what I want to say to my dr, besides give me my life back.... no-matter how short it may be. I have a safe full of different meds but don't want the stuff in my body. I just keep looking forward to tomorrow. It's all I have. Thanks

[opiateswon]

I'm taking the L-Tyrosine, but just started yesterday. My daughters are 13, 12, 10, 10, and 7.. Yes 5 and I wouldn't change it. They have daily chores but they've been slacking and I'm too exhausted to fight for perfection these days. The twins have a birthday party/ slumber party this weekend and if they don't step it up then I'll have to consequence them which really *****. My teenager is the only one that knows whats really going on as I had a pancreatitis from opiates and ended up in the hospital. The rest think its a stomach virus because they're not mature enough to handle the truth, but I will tell them one day. I think I feel the worst for my husband that was on saboxone for almost 3 years as he seems to be having a harder time and is working today. I don't want anti-depressants or anything else but my bodies natuarl responses back. Wishful thinking I guess. Thank sfor the response.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

I didnt miss the cancer and liver part. I am in that boat myself. Make a list of things that you need to talk with your new doc about. You always forget something if you dont. And ask when the last liver enzymes were run and what they were. Lethargy/fatigue is a common problem with the liver and post chemo. Coenzyme Q-10 has been said to be good for the liver - and milk thistle is definitely good for your liver. Dont abandon ship yet - its quite common for liver patients to need various meds to keep their heads straight.

And remember that you were on a healthy dose of narcotics.....it will take some time to get over that part. Only then can you make a decent evaluation. Until then, trust your doc - and give them all the information they need to help you. And good luck to you...

[liscamdave]

How old are your children? Can they help you out as far as housework goes. Once enough time goes by, you will be able to clean and do all the things you don't want to do now. That is always my problem, once I stopped my DOC I had no desire to do anything at all. I didn't even want to talk to people. I was miserable and felt I need the pills to function as a normal person. But that is exactly why there is a problem. Once you can make it to a certain point, things will go back to how they were, trust me. It just takes some time. Talk to your drs about anti depressents, they will help with the mood. There are things on the Amino acid protocol to help out with that too. There are vitamins to help restore energy,. Have you tried L-Tyrosine?