OK SO HERES THE TRUTH

[frustrated431]

i am one day off prescription pain killers see i have a chronic pain condition but my DR's are just being jerks and there is nothing i can do so now into detox mode igo i wish i could say that my boyfriend was supportive but he is at his wits end with all the mood swings and bitchy ness so now i feel alone and lost like i am in a cold dark room with no one or nothing i just had to finally vent this and tell someone thanx for listening
Steph

[star641]

i know your heart hurts i really do i had my heart broke just like you have ,and I'm not talking about my kids this was a long time before my kids so i do know what that kind of hurts feels like ,but it will ease with time im telling you it will ,....just look at it this way you said he had your stuff  packed the night you went in to the psych ward so what does that tell you what kind of a man he was .?he couldn't tell you because he hadn't got the guts to ,i just hate it when men can just walk away and leave the women to pick up the piece's ...hes not worthy of you dear .remember that .
let him see if he can find someone with a heart as big as yours ,....this hurt will take some time for you to get over but it will make you stronger please put yourself first now .
and as Ive said someday your prince will come when your strong enough .
and just try one day at a time to get on with your life ,...I'm rutting for you mind yourself
and take care ,.....bernie [[[[[[[[hugs]]]]].

[frustrated431]

i think the best thing is to just walk away and chalk it up to another leason learnded and go on it just hurts so very much my whole heart is torn in two

[frustrated431]

thanx for taking the time to comment and read my post it means alot it's just so hard to let him go i only wish he could understand about  THE PILLS AND THE MOOD DISORDER I HAVE AND GIVE ME MORE TIME TO GET BETTER BUT HE FOUND SOMEONE ELSE AND I HAVE TO RELIZE THAT AND GO ON WITH MY LIFE

i only wish that he had told me this before sending me into the funny farm can you believe he had my stuff packed that same night i went into the psych ward ?????

oh well i will get over it someday right
talk to you soon

Stephanie    

[star641]

hi frustrated431 I'm so sorry for what you are going through my heart goes out to you
i have been reading all of these posts and my god you do have some support ,
hun you must do this for you and no one else you are number one here ,
its your life that is at stake here not you boyfriends ,try and  take control of it yourself ,
can i tell you a little about my life ,..i had 4 beautiful children two boys and two girls ,
two of my children took there lives and i how have one son  and one daughter  left ,
my daughter seen her older brother and younger sister die from suicide but she is still with us ,...Lisa ,now Lisa is a recovering heroin acidic she had an addiction to drugs  
she lost her brother and we thought she would go back on drugs but she didn't it was so hard for her not to when i know she could have just to forget what happened but she fought it ,.
3 years later her sister died from suicide we thought this is it now Lisa will go back to taking drugs and we will lose her next god only knows i even wanted to go on heron to forget my two children had died never mind Lisa ,...now there was a big gap in lisa's life what will she do now
she has lost the two most precious  people in her life ,...
oh she needed help i wont say she didn't she is on anti depression meds but he fought
going back to the life of drugs ,..I'm so proud of my Lisa for her courage in staying of drugs after the worse thing she had to face in her whole life ,...she did it hun and i know you will fight this thing also you will meet the man of your dreams some day also, just like Lisa did but first you must help yourself to get better ,..i will never give up on you please don't give up on yourself ,someday your prince will come ,....take care [[[[[[[[[hugs ]]]]]]]].

[frustrated431]

i got out of the mental hospital on friday and he already had everything packed and refused to let me come back he only told me it was my last chance with him so he could get me help i feel like i have wasted a whole year of my life on nothing but i didnt need rehab or anything this time all i needed was to get psych meds fixed not a need for any controled drug now i am desperatly in pain about losing chris but as they say there are many fish in the sea and that if you love something you have to set it free if it comes back it was meant to be if it doesnt then go on whith your life and try to make the best of this tuff time he still wants to be friends and insists that he lied for my own good but i think its just a cop out for finding someone else she ids young and can still have children if that is what he wants and i cant give it to him then by all means i guess i have to let him go it hurts but i guess it will get easier every day at least i dont feel so uncontrolable all the time now
thanx to all again
Stephanie

[boogieman]

hi there. good advice from these folks and remember, things may not be alright at the moment, but you will be. take care,   gm