ONE Year!

[Bkitty]

OMG in true Bkitty form I typed a long post and I hit something and erased it! Nov 8, 2011 was supposed to be the day I died. It ended up being the first day of the rest of my life,,sober. Some of you all have followed and supported me from Day 1 and know that it was a trying year for me. I stumbled along and fell (relapsed mentally a few times) a few times but I always got back up. I literally owe my life to some of the members here. Im doing OK these days. Some days are harder than others. I ended up stopping my meds for depression and learned a HUGE lesson. One: dont ever do that! Two: I need them. Tomm is going to be a hard day for me. I remember last year so vividly. Buying the chain at Lowes,,looking for the "spot" to hang,,popping over 28 perks. By the grace of God I ended up going to sleep that night and according to my husband "snored something fierce!". I woke up Nov 9 and then my life changed. Im still humble. Grateful. I cant thank everyone here enough! (((hugs)))~Bkitty

[dominosarah]

I'm so glad your here~

[solost170]

congratulations girl wow your story gave me chills, I never knew your starting story I have always just know that anytime someone was out there in pain and scared you were there with a life line you have always been there for me and have helped me along the way I'm so proud of you and I want to thank you for being on this forum, you are truly an inspiration and such a help to those in need do something wonderful for yourself hun you deserve it and I will be holding a whoot celebration in my heart for you congrats one year is OMG huge you go girl. love always your friend and someone who is so grateful she found you on here. solost

[Bkitty]

Kyle!!! Ive missed you and everyone!!
Thank You ALL so much!
I am again reminded as of last night that this addiction will keep you on your knees and humbled and just as soon as you think~I got this~ BOOM goes the bomb!
I will never think again~Ya I got it~I will always always keep my guard up!
We have a house visitor that has brought with them lotta pills! And Oh Boy was I drooling! Thank GOD he leaves today with the hubby for deer camp!
Oh my mind was going CrAzY!
The crazy thing is that with my job I am around opiates all day and that doesnt bother me but I know as soon as it does~I will have to change jobs and go back to the hospital. I have set up a system with my home patients that keeps me away from the pills and so far so good! But again,,like I said as soon as I get the slightest craving~I gotta go! That keeps me sane & sober.
Again also reminded that the mental aspect of this disease varies and never really goes away!
Staying forever grateful & humbled!
(((hugs))))
Bkitty

[kyle505]

You are such a gift. We on the forum are so fortunate to be here and to be able to learn from your posts.
Thank you for helping me. Many congratulations.

[LostNoMore]

Bkitty you are awesome!! 1 year is huge as you know. You are an inspiration to all of us. God bless you!!

[quitinoxys]

Kitty well done congrats one one year. You should be extremely proud of your accomplishment as we are all proud of you. You came form the deepest bottom possible and climbed your way back to sobriety. You are a special person and an inspiration to all. So my dear Keep on Keepin on. God Bless---Rick

[magnoliaooo]

   I just ran across your post and you have touched me so much this past year. I know the deep dark place you talked about. Your posts always have helped me so much because I can identify so much with you!!!!!  Thank you for sharing your story on the forum and I am truly happy for you.  You have inspired me and I just wanted you to know that.  Much Love To You


        Love Mag

[Dane74]

OHHHH BKITTY IM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!!!  Great job my friend, you are amazing.  You are so right, our addiction is now apart of us, and we just have to accept that and like you said always keep our guards up, you just never know when an intense feeling will come over you, so i too have to be prepared.  

[akitagurl12]

Congratulations!!! :))

[NorthEast213]

Kitty! So awesome!
You helped me so much in my early days and I will never forget that.

Such an inspiration...

Keep it up

Sean

[Bkitty]

~Thank You all so very much!~
I still have a lot of work yet to do. Do work!! Thats my motto!
Also another secret to my success story~Cut off all the access and supply you have to these pills! There were days that if I coulda got them I woulda got them! Then I wouldnt be here. Yes there are moments when you are that weak,,I still have them. I never ever let my guard down,,not even for a min,,I wake and the first thing I think about is my sobriety and addiction and what I need to do to make it thru the day. It finally has become a "part of me" and Im not so tired of it. Somedays I dont want to think about it or "do work" but those are the days that you really need to watch the most. Ive learned. This addiction keeps me humbled.
~Thank You all again!~ You saved my life a year ago!~I hope that I can return that to someone some day!! ((((hugs)))~Bkitty

[mamaof4410]

That is great! I cant wait to make it to a year. Im going to go all out and bake a cake and stuff lol. Best if luck to you on another sober year!!

[Here4support]

God bless and THANK you for sharing your story and your struggles as I am sure it wasn't easy. You give hope and inspiration to us all and for that we or I will be forever grateful! What a huge milestone! I hope you are able to celebrate your new life today!! Like a rebirthday!! Get some cake, icecream, friends,  sing and blow out some candles! Wish for another year of awesomeness!!! Kudos!!!

[SunnysideUP27]

Congrats b!! I am just about hf way there.  Kerp on fighting no matter what.  What a huge milestone be very proud of yourself today. Life is a gift we need to cherish every moment.  God Bless

[selfinduced]

Kitty, Your story gave me chills. I so remember your post and your struggles and also your spunky wit. Congrats on a year. You walk the walk and have thrived because of your hard work. So glad you never went thru with your plan. Two of my friends we not so fortunate  last year and will forever been gone due to this disease. So glad to see you. MEAN IT!

[buddycrunch]

To all, but awesome to see 'smiles' back today.

Kitty, big congrats,  I assume you got ur well earned NA medallion, if not, email me an address/po box, work addy, friend's addy etc, and I will send one to you!  You earned it many ways for urself and inspiring others.

i've gotta run so don't have enough time atm, to go through all threads, I know they are in great hands when I see you great ones on tonight.  B4 we go 2 sleep 2nite, lets all say a prayer for dominosarah!

TY, & GL 2morro Teresa.  

PS: Pat I'm mad at you for going a whole day without speaking, hope u slept well.

[addict3]

Congrats to you on one year!
Im glad you failed at your first attempt.

[Leaveurfearsbehind]

I've only been signed up for a few days but have been lurking for a while. Signing up has helped me so much! Everyone has been so kind and understanding. I just love reading these sucess stories it really gives me confidence that one day I can post that I'm a year clean! Awesome job! Keep up the good work.

[smiles4eva]

One year ...wooohoooo!  Please do something extra special tomorrow for yourself!  Congrats Bkitty, soooo happy for you!

[ricart70]

Great job Kitty,you are awesome!!!   you did the work you deserve the reward

[Bkitty]

I unlocked the first 20 days of my journal for you!! These are my feelings raw and emotional! You are not alone!! I pulling for you!!

[conhall]

This Forum is a very powerful special Place. And you are one of the reasons why :))) I am so proud of you <3
You are always so positive and offer so much support. Congrats (((HUGS)))

[Bkitty]

Awww,,blushing. Thank You!! Everyday that I fought was worth it. I need to unlock my journals,,so people here esp the newer members can see the struggle I went thru. Its hard reading them. I fought so hard! I still am! This is part of me now,,sobriety and I have to work on it every.single.day. I had to start my 90 meetings in 90 days again and then when I am done I was told to do it again! Ive missed one in the last 60 days and believe me ,,like tonight I was kicking and screaming as I was tired and just wanted to get home and visit my sick kitty. But I got a standing ovation and my one year coin. This forum can save your life too,,if you let it. Listen to the vetern members. Listen to Kyle. Do the work. Fight and dont give up!

[Jade59]

You! ♥

Tomorrow might be overwhelming, but that is what's good about a day...it ends.  On the 9th, everything will be new and you will move forward and leave those memories behind.  

Hugs...xoxo